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2012年10月7日（这是一个噩梦般的一天），我被诊断出患有CF（囊性纤维化）和脑肿瘤，这让我感觉像一吨砖头被击中头部。你可能会看过关于这些疾病的广告，知道有一个非常低的生存率。我的癌症是不能做手术，因为肿瘤包裹着脑动脉... 所以，纳米粒子为基础的基因冷冻治疗和核医学技术治疗是我唯一的选择。虽然这是一个无痛苦，无副作用，而且很奇特的经历。但我知道这不会治好我的病，如果运气好的话，只是能暂时延长我的生命，仅此而已。

为什么我会启动这个博客呢？

首先是我对中文和中国文化很感兴趣。我想结交来自世界各地的朋友。事实上我对外语很早就开始了激情，在我12岁的时候。我一直认为自己是双语，并精通中文和中国文化。第二，这是应对的一种方式。有这么多的压力和情绪伴随这些疾病，不只是脑肿瘤，而是所有的疾病，包括囊性纤维化(CF)。所以很多时候，我把我的头埋在沙子里，始终用一种意念，或者一个乐观的幻想来促使自己挺住，无论是自觉或不自觉。但保持忙碌是一个有效的。这是我应对情绪潮的方式。

把我的想法写在我的博客或个人网站里，重点是把注意力集中在我周围的那些积极的，支持我的人和他们的爱。因为我总是回想我的家人和我的朋友，以及他们如何使我开心的微笑。写下来能让我更好的把握善念。也许这就是不可思议，是吗？

一个文明的行为可以拉近彼此之间的亲密友谊，打破坚冰。因此，通过学习交谈你可能会超越野蛮，更加靠近上帝。这个博客也是我对我的中国朋友们的一个记录（即使是一个简单的注释或一个评论）。是的，我有很多中国朋友（无论是现实还是网络），他们总是让我深深感动... 我的感觉。我总是尽量诚实待人...我总是试图保持正面的东西，无论我的感觉如何。如果你现在正在读这篇文章，我爱你！

毫无疑问，昨天是永恒的，今天是一个新的开始，明天值得期待，后天正等着我！如果你只为今天而活，明天可能永远不会到来。... 但假如明天永不来临，我的今天也无怨无悔，即使站在深渊面前——甚至死亡是另一个新的开始，是吗？！所以，没有眼泪，没有遗憾，没有愤恨，没有失望，没有任何借口！时间会带我一起行动。我就是我，直到永远！！！

请祝我好运。

2014年9月26日。

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上帝，请送我到明天，后天等着我！

2014年9月29日（周一），“一架F-16战斗机”拖着他残破的身体准备从雷纳起飞。是的，你没有听错，伊利亚就是一个“F-16战斗机”，这是真的！他经历了很多磨难，在他年轻的生命，他现在想回家。愿上帝保佑他！

“再见，亲爱的朋友们！再见，亲爱的新浪！明天我将回家。... 如果我回家明天要面对的是快乐，我希望我能做到。所以我今天一直在忙。我想提前祝大家在9月29日完美无缺，并有一个伟大的新一周。”

~ 伊利亚2014年9月28日，从挪威，雷纳村。

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I'm still me!

October 7, 2012 (This is a nightmarish day) I was diagnosed with CF (cystic fibrosis) and cerebral cancer, and It made me feel like a ton of bricks was hit in the head.  You have probably seen the commercials about this disease, and know that there is a very low survival rate.  My cancer is inoperable because the tumor is wrapped around an cerebral artery... so nanoparticle-based gene cryotherapy and nuclear medicine technology for the treatment of is my only choice. Although this is a no pain, no side effects, and pretty amazing experience. but I knew this will not cure me, just extend my life a bit and hopefully provide some quality. That's it.

Why did I starting this blog? 

The first is I'm interested in Chinese and Chinese culture. And I want to make friends from all over the world. in fact my passion for foreign languages started very early, and when I was 12 years old. I have been consider myself bilingual, and proficient in Chinese and Chinese cultures. Second, this is one way of coping. There is so much stress and emotion that comes along with this disease,  not just cerebral cancer, but all disease, and including cystic fibrosis (CF). So many times I put my head in the sand, and always use an idea, or an optimistic fantasy to promote their own hold on, and whether consciously or unconsciously. but staying busy is a valid one. that is the way I deal with emotional tides.

Putting my thoughts down on my blog or personal website, focuses me on the positive, supportive, people around me and their love. Because I always end up thinking about my family and my friends and how they make me smile and laugh.  Writing it down keeps me from shoving the good thoughts to the side. Maybe that's weird, right?

A civilized behavior can close friendship between each other, break the ice. so that through learned discourse you may rise above the savage and closer to God. This blog will also be a kind of record for my chinese friends (even a simple remark or a comment). Yes, I have many Chinese friends (  regardless of reality or the network), they always make me deeply touched... about how I feel. I always try to be honest with them... I try always, to keep things positive, no matter what I'm feeling. And if you are reading this now, I love you!

Without any doubt, yesterday lasts forever, today is a new beginning,tomorrow is worth the wait, while the day after tomorrow is waiting for me! if you live only for today, tomorrow may comes never. ... But if tomorrow never comes, I'll have no regrets about today, and even at the edge of the abyss--And even death is another new beginning, Right?! So, no tears, no regrets, no resentments, no disappointed, and no excuses! Time to get my act together. I'm still me, and until forever!!!

Wish me luck.

Sep 26, 2014.

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OH, MY LORD! PLEASE TAKE ME TO TOMORROW,

THE DAY AFTER TOMORROW IS WAITING FOR ME!

Monday (Sep 29, 2014), " an F-16 fighter" dragging his broken body ready to take off from Reina. Yes, you have not got it wrong, Ilya is an "F-16 fighter", and that's true! He experienced a lot of hardships in his young life, he wants to go home now. May God bless him!

"Goodbye, dear all! Goodbye, dear SINA! I'll going home tomorrow. ... And if me wants to come home tomorrow to face is the happiness, I hope I can do it. so I've been busy today. And I'd like to early wish everyone  the pretty seamless in september 29, and have a perfect new week."

~ by Ilya, September 28, 2014. (From the Reina village of Norway)

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