Growing Old

Looking back at my first post, my "fickleness" just seems more and more apparent. What LSE? What lilith fair? Maybe I never will live up to what I want to believe would happen. Maybe those goals were written so that I may have a peace of mind of my lack of enthusiasm for most things in life. And maybe, this morning as I had realised. I am just getting old. Being old I realised is not just about wrinkling and making plans to see Georgia Lee. Ageing is about being defeated. And that's why older people will never seem cooler than the younger ones. Unless of course they mask it in the disguise of, "I'm no longer as impulsive." It could work. Look at Queen Elizabeth, Lee Kuan Yew, they look like they don't know how to amuse themselves other than smiling at the idiocy of some rambling minister. I for one, have decided that, that is not the way for me. I will older and wiser because of the mistakes I have made, and not be older and non the wiser with the mistakes i did not dare take on.

变老

翻看我的第一篇博客，我“变化无常”的性格似乎越来越明显。什么伦敦政治经济学院（LSE— London School of Economics and Political Science）？什么莉莉丝音乐节（lilith fair）？我也许永远无法如我所期待的那样生活。也许我把那些目标写下来，只是为了让这个已经对生活中大部分事情缺乏热情的我得到一丝安慰。或者其实是，就如我今早意识到的那样，我已经开始老了。我觉得，年龄增长不只表现在长了皱纹，计划去见整容医生Georgia Lee。变老意味着被击败。这也是为什么老年人永远不会比年轻人酷。当然，他们会以“我不再那么冲动”为托辞。这倒是管用的。看看伊丽莎白女王，看看李光耀，他们似乎不太懂得自娱自乐，只会去取笑官员乱讲一气。至于我，我决定，我不会这样做。我会从犯过的错误中汲取教训而变得愈老愈明智，而不是因不敢承担错误而愈老愈糊涂。