From today, I am gonna to write down my daily life, whom I bump into in the corner, what I read recently, what I am doing and how I feel. Then one day when I retrospect, I will feel my life is fulfilled and everything that has happened is not in vain.

The witch of Portobello described a a woman's awakening journey told by other people's(who knew her well or barely knew her at all). Being abondoned when she was born, witnessed the wars when she was young and evacuated from Lebanon as refugees with her adoptive parents, got divorced when her hubby was unable to confront the pressure as a new daddy, she was suffered a lot as a womam who might get wounded. However, it was through these traumas that she, Athena, finally grew up and got connected to the Great Mother inside and became a healer.

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Why we have to experience those bitter scars? We are gentle and mild, we are nice and warm-hearted, we are smart, we help those in need and we work hard to support ourself and families. But why? Sometimes I myself wept crazily in the midnight, for the past wounds and unfair treatment towards me, you could say I am way too sentimental, but when god creates a woman, he purposedly makes the woman more soft and lithe, I think it is his desire to differ woman from men by their emotions besides physical body.

There is a saying "woman is made by water", through the tears we shed, we washed up the impurities and evils and wounds as well. But let us come back to the question "why we have to suffer from pain", well, the growth happens when we confront pains and griefs, or to name it redemption from tears is more appropriate. 

I do not know how much exactly aches and pains we will have to suffer in the life and future, but I believe everything happens is meaningful. What I could do when my friends or students pour out their pains in front of me, I can smily tell them "Don't worry, I have been there".

To be continued.