"你来美国吧,我养你"
J现在正在LA过她的christmas holiday,据说好几个朋友都去那里聚了，不知道为什么每次都喝过酒才给我打电话。
“I ve got 2 scholarships and I have enough money to afford our
expense here,even if u want to apply for a chance of further study
in my university,u know the boy who ....”
"Nooooo,all
u want is just a person who knows u well and is close to u, u want
someone to take care of your life,to keep u from loneliness when
the night comes,to hear YOUR feelings and complains to your life
and blablabla, to pity you,to show
off just like u always did when
u had something seems better:lots of men,money, your porsche that
the old man gave to u,studying psychology abroad....,to comforte u
who is not the men slept with u and have sex, not your piano
teacher u have sex with on the piano, u told me u want true love
while u still wanna find new guys to play with, u cried and were
upset on the phone to tell me no one is care about you. But, that's
your life,that's your choice,that's FINE"
"But
I want to say no this time to this sleeping beauty who hurt herself
by the spindle maybe on purpose, and is enjoying the feeling of be
hurt and being tragic and waiting for someone to kiss her
awake."
Mybe that's what u want from me,there are only 2 things u always
did on the phone:cry and show off.I m not a man who can give you
love, I m not your mum who can love and take care
of this daughter, I m just a
friend who has life and emotions of her own, she dosen's want a
friend who is always asking for things from her, she wants to be
understood and listened to by others TOO.
So
I m sorry, even though I really want to be in the brand new world
to have fun with a friend. But I want this friend to treat me like
a friend, not anybody else,not a helper.
That's
my true feelings and I finally can express it out of my heart in
exact words,Thomas told me to focus on my own feelings and I found
it's really helpful.
Good
luck to you and I love you so. |
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