I Have Walked Through the
Gates of Hell
These days, I feel like
I've been walking a long way. I feel very tired! I started to feel
like I was stuck in a "lather ... It felt like it took ten thousand
years to get through this post!
As a cancer patient, I have
been spent quite a lot of time in the hospital, and I'm sure that
in the future, I'll probably spend more time in the hospital. My
oncologist recommended that I seek further treatment at the Moscow
cancer treatment center. She made the referral for me to see Dr.
Anatoly there. ... Paperwork was filled out, and records were
transferred. Tuday, I've been transferred to the Moscow cancer
treatment center.
Ten days ago, New MRI and
CT scan showed growth in brain tumors and it's moved into my liver
where the tumors are growing too fast. The liver is enlarged and
not doing too well either. Blood tests are showing lower liver
function or something. And now I've got peripheral neuropathy in my
legs. I walked from the "gate of
hell".
The Doctors had an arsenal
of drugs ready, and if I lost too much bone marrow for example,
they had prescriptions that could stimulate the marrow I had left.
Unfortunately, all effects were damaging my body, and in ways we
didn't altogether understand, but basically knocking my health down
and heading me toward deaths door. Apparantly, it's another
challenge!
There's no doubt that
Moscow once again helped me to win the fight
against cancer. But I was told non conservative treatment use
programs enable patients suffering from serious, immediately
life-threatening diseases to gain access to experimental drugs
outside of clinical trials. For me, conservative treatment programs
use may be the only way to access potentially life-altering
therapies. Consequently, my physician went to great lengths to make
sure i had access to treatments that could possibly improve my
life. Thank God, I seem to have caught a glimmer of hope and I
think I can win in the fight against
cancer!
But I'm sure cancer has
left an indelible mark on me!
Mom, I’m too tired… I want
to go home!!! I just want to spend the rest of my time with my
family--Because I seem to see the end of the
story:
God looked around his garden,
And found an empty space.
He then looked down upon this earth
And saw your tired face.
He put his arms around you
And lifted you to rest, .
God’s garden must be beautiful,
He only takes the best.
He knew that you were suffering,
He knew that you were in pain.
He knew you might never
Get well upon this earth again...
He saw the road was getting rough
And the hills were hard to climb,
So He closed your weary eyelids
And whispered, Peace be thine.
It broke our hearts to lose you,
But you never went alone,
For part of us went with you
The day God called you home.
-- This is maybe posterity say to me the Parting
words!!!
July 21, 2015. In Moscow.
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