My diary 2007-12-29 Saturday

This is my sencond time to read 《My Visual Diary : Fifteen Years in Germany》,a book was written by Xiaohui Wang.She is a famous photographer,a freelance artist.

In 1986 she left China to Germany for studing archiecture with her husband Yulin.They had a lovely life in Germany at that time.But in 1991,they had a fatal car accident.Her hudband Lin died hours later in hospital,and she was seriously injured.Although she hardly move because of her injures,she continued her photo,her visual diary,never gave up.

There are two types of love.One is like fire:you melt away in a great passion,but the fire will eventually go out.The other kind of love is like the air:you are sumounded by it and you dont't feel its existence,but if the air disappears,enen for a minute,you can't survive.When Lin left her,she just felt as though she had no air. Perhaps it's the reason of she is still single now.She also believe a woman should find a balance between independence and dependency. 

From that time on, she decided to continue as a freelance artist.It seemed the only thing that existed for her was work.She take photos,she make movies,she organize exihitions,she write boooks,she hold talks and much more besides.She said she found her joy in her work.The preacher Salmon said that there is nothing better than a human being happy with his work,because this is his salvation.It is not Lao Tse saying it,but big prophets live next to each other.

An American science agency ever described about the question of happiness:A happy man sets goals for himself,but remains alive to the here and now.He considers the future according his ability and needs.He is confident and well-balanced.He is aware enough to master the potential difficulties of life.He is an integrated part of society and enjoys community life.He loves to help but is open to support.He has the capability to enjoy the little things of life.I thought Xiaohui herself very close to the person it described. 

Who could have imagined that from a talented architect could spring forth a famous photographer? 

It's important for her as an artist not to repeat herself or imitate the ideas of others.This is not as easy as repeating successful work,but she prefer an unsuccesful experiment to a successful standstill.All the text and picture in her book are reiated to her diary which has accompanied her over the last 15 years.It contains her feeling and thoughts.

Xiaohui's diary was meant as her privat salvation.It's the most honest and valuable asset she possess in life.