Originally, I want to talk out my mind, she is so down.

 And I think I need to use a medium to relax myself.

But now, a noontime, I’m okay.

    After watching a CCTV’s program. PengYang, a woman working in a college as a teacher. Us her youth ,her 4 years to be a volunteer. 4 years ago, she was plan to study aboard. In a time, her family was went to visit there ancestral graves (maybe it’s means “sao mu”), she found children live in this village were poor, and they can’t study with a good environment. There is no one teacher would like to work here. No one university student in this village .At that time, she was shaking strongly. Then she gave up to study aboard.

       She is common, at that time, she was just a student, but her mind is really out of the common.

I found I was over cared about my mind, I have a warm family, 3 cute dogs, a good job, and lucky life way. But I’m not satisfaction. I expecting a lot of things. Those beyond my ability. I’m carring on the heavily shell.

       Maybe I need to observant myself very clearly, deeply? Am I over-absorption of my mind, my life, even my emotion? So I made myself feel so tired.

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