A beautiful mind

 I always ask myself what would a good man be made of.

Am I a good man or not, I am not so sure. Will I make someone I love happy at all, it is something I yet to find out. To be honest, I do have “kind of “ answers to those questions, yet I am simply not sure if my answers to those precise or not. There are so many standards to measure a person a good one or bad. In different country, different times, even different ethnic group, people weight people on their own scales. However, no matter what standard people are talking about now and then, It is my determination is to be a good person so that I would not regret when I leave this world for another.

I could not rely on other’s judgment or words to make myself a good person, so I decide I will try to be one in my own way.

I have heard beautiful words from some, but those words did not convince me they are surely from a true nice person. I have seen many beautiful looking persons, but the good looks did not convince me they are the right faces of nice people. I have also been treated well by many friendly people, yet they did not fully convince me that good treatment necessarily means kindness.

I therefore set out to seek what inside people would make them nice, which in turn would make me nice too. I soon realize it is their minds. People's mindsets are so sophisticated I found out, it is almost impossible to instantly see through, let alone to measure. However, with time you would be able to detect the essence of one’s mind. In other words, you need to experience them thoroughly. Just like a boxes of peanuts, you may find some distasteful, yet it is the only way to find out, especially when they are coated with chocolate.

So I decide that I would like to have a beautiful mind. I know it is not easy, simply it could already mould into your nature when you were born. I do not want to give up either, because I know myself well. There is an old Chinese saying: people were born kind in nature, only the living environment makes they differ later in their lives. I guess it is a matter of staying kind, staying true to yourselves. In a world of materials, people can easily side-tracked to many things that can make them vicious and unkind, because they can be so appealing to so many.

I want to resist those distractions, I would like to purify my mind so that I could enjoy an easy life, so that I can leave the world with ease and comfort, with a peace of mind, a beautiful mind.