I'm not happy with my recent condition.  When I knew that, I felt I'm down in the lowest of the world. No one can help me, I have lost a once-in-a-life chance. What can I do,tell me, what can I say? Should I just complain, should I cry over and over? My friends tell me to face the reality and some of them feel it unfair that I should be eliminated. I just cannot cheer up, where is my dream? Where is my ambition?

I'm listening to a song called tear.I become addicted to this kind music.