My mom just said on QQ that I was an over-privileged spoiled little girl. I was pissed for sure. Stop comparing my life with yours which happened in a poor countryside almost thirty years ago. If "over-privileged" means I constantly go to the bookstore and devour all the travel books I can get my hands on, I might second your critic. That's only because I don't have the time or the money to go to those cities and see all the splendour through my own eyes.

   And I hate my life here in Guangzhou, not only because I'm totally stuck in the school that no longer provides the challenges I need, but also because I know I'm powerless to change my position. I seriously believe that preparing for all those stupid exams is a completely waste of time, but I want to make my parents happy so I actually worked hard and tried desperately to get all As. Is it that hard to walk in my shoes for a while and try too see things from my perspective? I'm so sick of everybody telling me how lucky I am, to be born into a well-provide family and to be going to a great school. It seems like they focus all of their attention on my luck, instead of all the time and efforts I've put into realizing my goals. It's true that I AM lucky to have parents who can afford my education and my life, who spoil me occasionally by letting me buy clothes in H&M  and have coffee at starbucks, but that doesn't mean that I'm one of the those ungrateful super rich kids.

   I barely have a life here. It's all about school and school and school. I can only free myself from the endless preparation for meaningless exams by reading travel books and imagining myself being in those amazing places.

   I know this is exactly what Chinese society has taught me NOT to do, but I still can't help but deciding that one day I will become super rich and super privileged so that I can travel around a world and have a colorful life. And I won't be upset because my mom describes me as "over-privileged" because by then it will be a fair description.

   Is it really that too much to ask for? I just want to pick up my bag and walk through Guangzhou, and that's never going to happen because my parents will say it's a totally waste of tim, and that I have more important things to do such as studying for the next exam. Adults, you are seriously a bunch of boring and unimaginative workaholics. I want to experience the city in which I have been brought up, and it won't cost more than ten yuan, all the traffic and water included.

   I'm becoming even more disappointed as I continue writing. I really do hope time and pass more quickly so that this monotonic month could go away and I can start a new life in a new circumstance.

   Last thing, no comment please. Or I will tell you to f*** off. Trust me, I wouldn't want to lose my temper.