Recently, a word named love came to my mind. I thought I could grasp the happiness which belongs to me, I’m afraid I made a mistake. I even did not know what love is exactly for lack of experience.

To be honest, only did I feel sick that a great amount of loneliness came to my side. When I was lying on the bed, staring at the ceiling I always read a magazine such as Meng Ya to get myself out of the world. I am not a girl escapism but this time I stepped on this way to deceive myself. Imagination is another way I always choose to lose myself. I thought my friend Q was sitting next to me; she would surely hold me close while I was crying with endless tears, sat by my side as the waves of grief washed over me.

One of my best friends said that a girl like me would be a good wife. I can’t make sure that I will do anything special which will rather please my partner, I will do what I really want and what I think is good. Maybe I am a little weak on pursuing what I want. My good friend said, “As a girl, we should require our right!” I can’t be so brave as she is. In my everyday life, most what I do is waiting. One day, I listened to a music named Cinderella, the singer sang,

 ”I don’t wanna be like Cinderella,

  Sitting in a dark old dusty cellar,

  Waiting for somebody,

To come and set me free…”

I thought I was the girl like Cinderella, who would rather wait for the happiness. But from now on I decide to change this notion branded in my life. I shall pursue my own happiness.

Suppose I was a fairy, I will find myself a peaceful world filled with beautiful flowers and trees. May it be a big castle or a small hut, lies beside a river or stand on a mountain…but there is a person who really love me and I really love, that’s enough. But this is only a fairy tale and it will not come true sooner or later.

I always tell others,” Happiness is just beside us, cherish what we have is the biggest happiness to us all.” Don’t you think what I said is a truth?