I’m in a dilemma.

I’m bored out of my mind when I’m home alone, but if I have to go out and see people, I feel lazy and irritated.

I have to be writing and talking and reading in Chinese, but I think and talk to myself all the time in English.

I like the security of being in a relationship, but I can’t help missing the thrill and excitement of my heart being tossed around and trampled on by some passerby.

I enjoy writing and singing, but when they become my job I find myself procrastinating like I would in any other job.

I want to meet new people, but the effort exhausts me even when I’m just thinking about it.

I hope others like me, but it creeps me out if they like me too much…

It just goes on and on…

My life is one big dilemma.