Every once in awhile, I will look at the old family photos. All those old times, old happy times. The ones touch me most are those photos and especially those rare videos taken when Tony was little. It always makes my eyes full of tears, and my heart tender. He was the loveliest and cutest boy ever. I know every mom says so of their kids. But he really was
Tony is not interested in those photos. He is not there yet. His dad isn't particularly interested either. Perhaps he has to feed the family so he doesn't have the time. So I enjoy/suffer these moments alone.
I'm going to post some I've just teared for.


河北乐亭。那一年，处里组织的活动居然允许带孩子，于是四个大小差不多的小哥们疯在沙滩上


“我是威震天”-- 迈最喜欢的变形金刚角色。这个电影看了不下50遍，当时对大部分台词倒背如流


这个威震天够威吗？


"你的用户名是白马王子217吗？"， 迈最喜欢的《变形金刚》台词。此幕经常上演，爸爸惨了


爸爸的陪伴。迈小时候，爸爸就是迈的玩具，需要的时候拽过来，不需要的时候扔边上


是个挺冷的冬日，和老爸，二弟，和迈一起去逛颐和园。天黑了，我们抄近路横穿结冰的昆明湖，心里有点怕怕的。

有时真的不想你长大，真的

花前月下

我们可以再重演一遍吗？

应该可以是一生的好朋友。不知道他们日后彼此和自己的另一半是否可以这样默契，这样情投意合？
两个人一起短短的四年时间，留下了上千张照片，记录那一段无忧无虑纯真无邪的时光。每次翻看都泪眼婆娑

还有这一对儿。小两口儿。一次放学回家路上，两人在前面走着，小手牵在一起，头微微靠拢，柔柔私语。那一刻，我的感动......那一刻，那背影，刻在了我的记忆力

你们都那么喜欢奶奶做的一碗绿豆粥，一碗炸酱面。三颗脑袋拱在一起，吃什么都香。你们有时候好吵，可是我们好喜欢


有时候也很安静。吵也好，静也好......好希望能够留住那些时光

好希望你们能够永远在一起......

就像这样，无忧无虑，旁若无人，完全快乐在你们自己的世界里

When you go through hundreds and thousands of old photos, thanks to this digital time, you time travel back. The videos, right in front of you, so alive, so real, you want to touch that little person. You want to hug and kiss him like in the videos. You lost in that time. I want to get lost there.
The photos say 2008. 2008 feels like just last year. But when you do the math, it's almost a decade ago. That's when you turn around, that little boy isn't here anymore, instead a young man, tall and distant and unreachable, right in this room.
He is 15, not 5.  You feel 2008 like yesterday. But it is 2017! He is almost a decade older.

I probably will post some more of these old time photos here. With so many photos, thank God again for this digital time, I don't know how I'm going to deal with all of them from these years. I will save some here.
It reminds me of this blog. Forty or fifty years later, what's going to happen to this blog? to these blogs? Who will care anyway?
Don't go that far!

I kept a journal for Tony, with about 4 or 5 little books, stories of Tony's childhood, from birth till grade one. I used to read them to Tony as bedtime story, when I run out of stories. He enjoyed them a lot. but not anymore. The bedtime story era ended completely after he reached 12 or 13.
His dad hide them somewhere. Saved for later.

I will probably post these stories here too. It should be fun. I created this blog in 2007 when I stopped the journal. So you will see Tony's life from birth till now.


I want to change the title to "How long can we go together"