这是从范瑞君的部落格看到的,从第一条读到第十条,然后我哭了。
我才知道我曾经做了一件多么残忍的事,只因为我的怯懦不敢面对现实,我让那爱我的她孤孤单单的离去,然后我还自欺欺人的安慰自己:是她不忍让我看到,是她故意选择我不在场时离去。
事后的痛哭究竟是愧疚还是悲伤,都无济于事,我只知道我犯了大错,我不敢面对的正是我需要面对的,我的缺席是一个遗憾,我心上永远的一个伤口,我现在才知道。
我不断的回想起,那个爱我的她,她选择最迅速、对我伤害性最低的方式离去,她催促着我出门,不让我看到她的煎熬,她声声叫着让我安心,不让我有机会心碎不舍。她这么爱我,我却以不忍心不忍见来切割对她的爱。
我无法想象她离去时感受不到我存在时的眼神,我不断在想是不是陪在她身旁她会比较安心。无法想象与不断在想的念头一直缠绕着我,直到我看到这篇文字,我终于知道答案了,我错了。
如果当年我陪着她捱过最艰苦的历程,现在的我应该不会有这么多的恐惧与悲伤。
不会再发生这样残忍的事了,我告诉自己,也要告诉同样有养宠物的你,我们情感上所无法面对的,正是理智上必须要去面对的,没甚么好害怕的,那一刻更需要我们跟所爱的牠一起度过,如此,我们之间才能圆满,如此,我们的爱才能继续。
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日本宠物店门口挂着这十条建言
这是网友看到日本宠物店门口挂着这十条建言,带回台湾翻译~
这十条都是以狗狗角度来撰写,提醒有养狗念头的人,必须具备那些心理准备,你准备好可以照顾另一条生命了吗?
1. My life likely to last ten to fifteen years.
Any separation from you will be painful for me. Remember that
before you buy me.
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2. Give me time to understand what you want of
me
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3. Place your trust in me--it's crucial to my
Well-being.
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4. Don't be angry for me for long and don't lock
me up as punishment. You have your work, your entertainment and
your friends. I
have
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5. Talk to me sometimes. Even if I don't
understand your words. I understand your voice when it's speaking
to me
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6. Be aware that however you treat me. I'll never
forget it
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7. Remerber before you hit me that I have teeth
that could easily crush the bones of your hand, but that I choose
not to bite you.
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8. Before you scold me for being uncooperative,
please
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9. Take care of me when I get old. you too, will
grow
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10. Go with me on difficult journeys. Never say I
can't bear to watch it or let it happen in my absent. Everything is
easily for me if you are there. Remember,
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如果之后的我能更有勇气去面对一切,那一定是我想起了妳告诉我的:「请妳永远不要忘记,我爱妳。」