I wanna go aboard .

    I wanna have a wonderful travel...

    But I konw I can't.

    Recently,I lose my blance.Can't control myself.I just wanna stay other city, not xi'an.I'm not whose thinking that must go back to hometown. But I do not konw ,I can't.I don't know why this time I was give up my will.Maybe I know,subconsciously ,this is right way for me .But who knows? Which way is the right choise? No one can .

    Now, I came back, and no way to go back to SH, make myself peaceful.Please... ...

I need to calm. I must work hard ,find a powerful way to go up.Don't thinking too much.It's just waste time, waste my life time. Just do. study. study. and make alot of money!~Find a right chance,right way,right reason ,right time to go aboard!~

I must know the surroundings around me.

Calm!