迟到的跋文：昨日重现

 

 

文/胡曼荻

 

书总要有个跋文。才圆满。如人生，从起点到终点，固然是重回到起点。如生死，赤条条来，赤条条去，总要有对称。老丹总很在意这黄金对称，左和右，前和后，上和下，里和外，家中到处都是他完美的印迹。幸了他洁整癖好，便握时空去幻想我完美的文字，活得很不真实。

十多年前的攒撰，忽一日被翻出，从落印的书本文字变成了数码，原本不过是0和1的枯燥组合，却有了这千变万化的美丽。日子就在枯美中消失了十多年。恍如隔世和再生。好不可思议，十多年就这样不经意逃之夭夭。那时还是少年不识愁滋味，为赋新词强说愁。 而今识尽愁滋味，欲说还休。辛弃疾早早就将我的心思说透。气盛时从来没有想有个跋文，便让那个中国女孩匆匆面市了，素面朝天。从此再不近书缘，以为可以消隐在凡尘，无欲无求。

一场浮华美梦。若干年后经历了许多许多，浅和深，风和雪，眼前和天边，忘落的和烙下的，欲说还休，没有了青春的驿动。

 不过是匆匆再匆匆，只有当下。

 没有勇气去面对中国女孩的文字，以为岁月会将她埋没。某一日读张爱玲，看到的落款是写于一九四四。有些文字便如红酒，会随着日月让人醉休。伊是来自中国的精灵，如圣荷般。飘落到美利坚重归凡尘，流离失所，伊卒于一九九五九月八日。恰是吾去新加坡的那年不日。灵魂附钵。

 在南开时不知从哪里获得一盘卡彭特Carpenter 的磁带，那个美国外教一词一语默写下来歌词，不过是二十六个字母的组合，便有了生命和思绪，搅动得神经不得安宁。如今已经熟滥地用着那些字母，远渡重洋，反而为象形码文字感怀渴望起来。

 走过千山外水，月依然是故乡明。

 写这些字时，不知该如何收尾，泪水无知无觉滑落，无声无息。依然没有脱敏，为失去和逝去的岁月。耳边飘着一曲歌，还是青春时听来的，依自己对外水和内山的诠释对英文歌词重新翻译之，就让思绪停留于此。便是昨日重现。

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《昨日重现》YESTERDAY ONCE MORE

　　

　　

    When I was young                               曾经年少懵懂时

　　I'd listen to the radio                                   酷爱聆听收音机

　　Waiting for my favorite songs                          静等最爱之歌启

　　When they played I'd sing along                       随之绕萦而唱吟

　　It made me smile                                             令吾微笑漫面释

　　Those were such happy times                             往昔怡悦时光忆

　　And not so long ago                                         恍如昨日近咫尺

　　How I wondered where they'd gone                      吾心惆怅何处逝

　　But they're back again                                    忽却日月重归及

　　Just like a long-lost friend                           恰似久未晤知己

　　All the songs I loved so well                          嗜彼歌一如往昔

　　Every Sha-la-la-la                                         声声莎啦啦啦吟

　　Every Wo-o-wo-o                                             声声喔哦喔哦音

　　Still shines                                                  依然闪怀亮痕迹

　　Every shing-a-ling-a-ling                               声声唱啊铃啊铃

　　That they're starting to sing                         彼人伊始唱咏时

　　So fine                                                         如此欢畅萦耳音

　　When they get to the part                               唱至彼节醉心词

　　Where he's breaking her heart                         他令伊肠断心溢

　　It can really make me cry                               令吾潸然泪如雨

　　Just like before                                            皆事恰一如往昔

　　It's yesterday once more                                昨日重现今朝至

（Shoobie do lang lang)                                 无比惆怅无可诉

（Shoobie do lang lang)                                 无比惆怅无可诉

　　Looking back on how it was in years gone by     回首岁月如梭逝

　　And the good times that I had                         吾曾拥欢乐光阴

　　Makes today seem rather sad                            令如今悲感如斯

　　So much has changed                                       方知万事更变异

　　How was it changed                                         面目全非在目历

　　It was songs of love that I would sing to then 往昔情歌最爱嗜

　　And I memorize each word                                字眼拳拳皆铭记

　　Those old melodies                                         彼昔旋律古浪迹

　　Still sound so good to me                               悦耳炫目勿可比

　　As they melt the years away                            融化岁月漫天日

　　Every Sha-la-la-la                                         声声莎啦啦啦吟

Every Wo-o-wo-o                                            声声喔哦喔哦音

Still shines                                                 欢畅朗朗依如斯

　　Every shing-a-ling-a-ling                               声声啊铃啊铃音

　　That they're starting to sing                         彼人伊始吟唱际

　　So fine                                                         欢畅朗朗依如斯

　　All my best memories                                      吾俱之美嘉回忆

　　Come back clearly to me                                  栩栩如生浮脑际

Some can even make me cry                               令吾潸然泪如雨

Just like before                                            一切恰一如往昔

It's yesterday once more                                昨日重现今朝至

Every Sha-la-la-la                                         声声莎啦啦啦吟

　　Every Wo-o-wo-o                                              声声喔哦喔哦音

　　Still shines                                                  依然闪怀亮痕迹

Every shing-a-ling-a-ling                              声声啊铃啊铃音

That they're starting to sing                        彼人伊始吟唱际

　　So fine                                                         欢畅朗朗依如斯   

   Every Sha-la-la-la                                               声声莎啦啦啦吟

　 Every Wo-o-wo-o                                             声声喔哦喔哦音

　Still shines                                                    依然闪怀亮痕迹

　　Every shing-a-ling-a-ling                               声声啊铃啊铃音

　　That they're starting to sing                          彼人伊始吟唱际

  So fine                                                            欢畅朗朗依如斯

 

 

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