START WITH RAIN, END WITH RAIN.

though we both know there is an end from the start, it still hurts more or less when the end comes.

i am used hearing nothing from u, so i take it is a YES since u did not reply anything about the closure. now, we both know we are done here, about one year relaionship, not too long or too short. i have to admit that i have other thoughts when i said i wanted to be together with you, part from the job stuff, and part from the singleness. i said i don't care ur situation which is true, i really don't care, and i just hope we can have fun together. i guess we did. at the beginning, u gave me such impressive moves that made me start to luv u. i enjoy spending time with you, like to hear u talk. i really really like ur voice, even now i think i am still obsessed with it, like always. u can make me laugh, make me feel like a littel girl who is spoiled by her older brother. u have never been pissed off.

however, time goes fast. when u are in a different position, the relationship has been changed. i barely can feel that u wants to be with me. most of the time, u just had to say yes when i beg u. i don't know if u are afraid that im gonna turn u in. maybe, im not so sure about that part, cos' everything u did to me lately, really had my heart breaken. u have no idea that how many times i thought about the closure just because of the pospone or no reaction. the only thing i want u to do is to tell me in advance when u want cancel the plans. but u did nothing. only a sms said u have to do sth after so many sms sent from me. im tired of this drama, and so sick of ur fake promise. i thought im understanding u, ur situation, never try to be with u for straight weeks. but, u r the one who made the promise, u r the one who said would be with me, twice. i think i will feel much better if u did not say anything. i can just act that we didn't have plans together, or i just should be by myself. all the stuff u do, just like make a beautiful bubble for keeping me stay normal, then, the bubble break, im in the deep down scale.

u always told me to understand u, to be thoughtful. i tried, tried very hard. but i couldn't do it any longer. i guess i need to be back to the right track, and so do u. i should start a normal life, and u should have a happy time with u lovely sth.

thanks for everything u taught me, about life and other things. thanks for spending time  with me whatever the reason u want.

end with the rain, like ur name.