Alone, by myself, got a little drunk.

I don't know Y, just kinda deep upset. How come? No clue. Pressure of life? Maybe, perhaps. Shutin down all the lights and turnin on the muisc loudest. WOW，get wild? Maybe, perhaps.

Just have the feelin that i have always be pretendin i was another person who is nice, good, do what a girl, a daughter, a normal person should do. However, who am i? I don't know. But definitely not the one who i were all the time, at least not in the day time. Kinda feel like that i am myself truly only when i am in dark nights or in club and dance all the time. I am a wild girl? No idea. Maybe perhaps. If i am not, why i do like the feelin i couldn't feel anything just lose myself in music and dark? Even my heart beats so fast, i still like the feelin get drunk. God this is weekday night, i gotta work 2morrow. Let it rock.

I know actually i am not drunk now. At least i know i need take a shower as usual, and dont get out the bath room in the nude. LOL. How it could be if i am in the nude? Does anyone can see me? Am i lookin great when i am nude? I don't know. Who konws? PLS tell me if u know. LOL.

OK i really have no idea what i am takin abt right now, i even couldnt handle my laptop right now. Oh god i am not good at alcohol. But i do rEally enjoy this feelin, am i crazy? Who is not crazy in the world? Nobody.

I don't care what u r think as long as it's abt me the best of us can find happiness in misery.

I really don't care. i just want 2b myself. Go 2the hell if u don't like me.

Holly shit. What a fuckin life. I am done with it.

U KNOW U LOVE ME. X.O.X.O.

good night. it is night now, right? LOL