I really hate myself !

How can i be that stupid to lose that important book !

For me it is very difficult to get up early in Russia, at this season,petersburg's weather is nearly the same bad, the day time begins about 9 oclock and the night begins at 16:00 ,that's really terrible !

Today i got up at about ten ,and dealed with some matters about work.after then i went out for making my inspection for AIDS TEST and body checking to a place named здравпункт

i just know the address,but i never been there before,my russian friend found it in the map and then i went there by myself, came out of the metro,i started to ask the russian people one by one, luckily they all helped me and told me the right way,i walked about half an hour and found that place. And all the students who studied in Russia know that the effciency of russian workers are so low ! And there are several students before me,i have to wait and wait. long time ago,i got in and the teacher asked me if i am the first time to come, and ask me if i have exercise book to write the informations about my healthy condition. i said no,and i had to go out to buy one,i ran in the very dirty ground because of the snow and rain.

i bought one from the shop and continued to wait again. After lot of minutes, i finally made it and got everything that i want ,and took the exercise book back home, tomorrow 9-11:00 need to go another place make the testing ! Because of little rain,and i put the book inside of my clother in case of wet the book ! but i never thought it will flee out ,even i don't know when it was lost ! I need to take the metro for about 40 minutes to my home ,during the journey,i need to make transfer once ,when i was nearly out of the my destination, suddenly i found it was empty inside of my clothes , i was so upset and sad ,began to blame myself !

HOW SSSSTUPID I AM  !!!!!!!!!!

what lucky is that my insurance and passport is in another pocket ! so i have to get up early tommorow morning and make it again ! And today ,just the rehearse.