How the normal human beings' life will be ?

i realy confused about that at this right moment.

i began to hesitate towards the goal of my life !

or what it should be like ?

recently i was crazy about sleeping,

sometime i can not fall asleep ,especially in the early morning like 3 or 4

maybe i slept too much ,my fucking life began to mess up !

but i sincerely know that it is not what i want .

i am living in an totally strange foreign country,

and i don't wanna stay at home everyday .

then it will be no differences between stay in China !

there will be no any sense of studying abroad.

every morning i am struggling with my sleepy,

every time the clock warns me "it's time"

and i turned it off till another waking up

however,the time came to be noon

the lesson had began in the university !

how could i do ,no choice,contine back to my day dream

every night i began to pray as before

i beg to God and let him give me power to get up

i pray ,pray and just pray,but nothing happens,nothing changes

Looking out of my window,the sunshine is still there

on the opposite of the building from me

but at this moment,the distant my country already started the night life

once again i begin to miss the summer there

or maybe i want to change another kind of life

watching the tv series,movies,Chinese news ,little studying or none

make up my day from Monday to Sunday

That's horrible ! right? i hate doing like this

Easy to be anger and can not face to my damn roommates

the stupid young single child without parents' education

Never remember what you did good to him ,just learned well complain

i realized that it was hard to find a true good friend no matter home and abroad

So don't need to be childish thinking

we should be more close because of studying abroad !

that's bullshit !

Just take good care of oneself

That's enough !

i need to move on,can not be mess up

time to start new life

Hope really can be doing as imagined

Come on,My little cute dear loving G-WAY