I really do not like to go older, I don’t like you go older, too. In fact I am a little scary about that. I wish we were in the summer 2007 of Beijing forever, although it is winter now. You are not by my side, this make me feel a little cold.

Last week, I had watched a movie which named “A One and A Two” with myself. It was directed by a famous Taiwanese director Edward Yang who once lived in America and died in this summer, when you were in Beijing, and we were together. So when I was watching the movie, I really yearned him. This movie give me more sense of the life, just like take a breath in the cold weather and make you wake up.

This story is about a big family in Taipei. Each member of the family in the movie asks hard questions about life's meaning as they live through every-day quandaries. NJ is morose; his brother owes him money, his mother is in a coma, his wife suffers a spiritual crisis when she finds

her life a blank, his business partners make bad decisions against his advice, and he reconnects with his first love 30 years after he dropped her. His teenage daughter Ting-Ting watches emotions roil in their neighbors' flat and is experiencing the first stirrings of love. His son Yang-Yang, eight, laconic like his dad, pursues truth with the help of a camera. "Why is the world so different from what we think it is?," asks Ting-Ting.

I prefer to talk about several chapters of the film which touch me so intensively. when mother is in a coma, everyone have to talk something to her, this will make her wake up. One day, when NJ’s go back home, he find that his wife is weeping. She says, “why what she tell to mother everyday are all the same. What I have done in the morning, afternoon, and evening, just all the same. Why I just have so little. What have I done everyday? I live like an idiot…  ” She feel that her life is blank.    

These words make me think of our life. All of us hope that make our life different everyday, since we all hate that everyday goes the same way. We want to change our life. Just like now my life is all the same everyday, studying, eating, and sleeping. There is nothing except these. So, sometimes I want to write to you, but I have nothing to say. Sometimes we hope that something (like friendship, love and age) don’t change. It is the contravention of our life. Maybe things never go as our wishes. One guy who is my sister’s classmate once sent a massage to me. This massage I still save it till today, it says that today is cruel, tomorrow is crueler, the day after tomorrow is very beautiful, but many people die at tomorrow night, can not see the sun in the day after tomorrow. I don’t be so pessimistic as him, for somebody this is true, for me this is funny. Even until someday when I lost something, then I found that I have so much.

An other person who touch me strongly is NJ’s son Yangyang. He is a little boy who is very interesting. He is so little, that he don’t understand many things in the adult world. He ask his father, are we just know about half of the things in the world, for we mere can see what before us ,but can’t see what behind us. He take many photos in which there are only people’s backs, with a camera of his father. His father ask him, why take these photos. He say he want to show to people what they can’t see. When his grandma is in a coma, his mother ask him to tell something to the grandma. He don’t say any words, this make his mother get into angry. When his grandma die, he writer a letter and read to the grandma in the last honours.

“I’m sorry, grandma. It wasn’t that I didn’t want to talk to you. I think all the stuff I could tell you, you must already know. Otherwise, you wouldn’t always tell me to Listen! They all say you’ve gone away, but you didn’t tell me where you went. I guess it’s someplace you think I should know. But, grandma, I know so little, do you know what I want to do when I grow up? I want to tell people things they don’t know, show them stuff they haven’t seen. It’ll be so much fun, perhaps one day I’ll find out where you’ve gone. If I do, can I tell everyone and bring them to visit you? Grandma, I miss you, especially when I see my newborn cousin who still doesn’t have a name. You always told me that you were old, I want to tell him that I feel I am old, too. ”

This is the end of the movie, when I have heard these words, I burst to cry. When I was a little boy I also feel that I was old. I still have this feeling until nowadays. All the finales of the movies have been written down, but I don’t know what is the finale of myself.