所有看见的都已消逝。

无需追寻。

澄明的天空。

会自动出现。。

听发自内心的音乐

不需外在确认

以内在的标准为标准

张弛有度

爱不可得不可逆在你面前 默默退下天意人心不可阻拦的一场荒唐 从来没有颠沛流离过 可以说出的都不是爱只有自私只有焦灼只有欲望只有寂寞 爱不是占有你是我的亲人分享我的秘密未必爱我你要懂得我 即使没有回报不跟随只需要听你说话只需要把你留在那里在你的世界里完成我的世界把盏言欢 各自回家

Do you know what it means to love somebody? Do you know what it means to love a tree, or a bird, or a pet animal, so that you take care of it, feed it, cherish it, though it may give you nothing in return though it may not offer you shade, or follow you, or depend on you? Most of us don't love in that way, we don't know what that means at all because our love is always hedged about with anxiety, jealousy, fear - which implies that we depend inwardly on another, we want to be loved. We don't just love and leave it there, but we ask something in return; and in that very asking we become dependent.

His eyes were heavy
He carried a card
One couple question
The other discharged
Terror couple kill colonel
in his West German home
Three shots from three feet
Dragged himself to the phone
Terror couple kill colonel
Terror couple kill colonel
And as he lay there
Playing games with his pain
He felt his choice of jobs
Was such a mistake
He could have been a doctor
In a soft easy chair
In stead he chose three stars
A territorial affair
Terror couple kill colonel
Terror couple kill colonel
In his West German home
In his West German home
In his West German home

同样的节气让大脑思考相同的问题。

三年前，两年前的冬天,生命的沉重让我忽然成长。

爷爷和姥爷的相继离去让我措手不及。

自以为知道了生命的真相，可死亡太冷了，长久的梦魇和空无一人的漆黑。

没有诗意没有任何世界观可以说服。

怎么才能从容一些。如何克服对未知的恐惧？

去年的冬天，最多的时间交给电影和书。

始终难以理解的，安哲的三部曲

又是一个生命的话题。

透彻的贯满全身心的孤独。

宿命论与强迫症。

执着于理想的迫近，还有什么细节。

不属于你的，永远别试着索取。

只是一个精神上的游离者，被生活蒙蔽。

把自己归结到此，找到有限的自我。

没有湖水的瓦尔登。我没有到过这里。

并不需要风景，也渴望获得新生。

 

画家毛毛的画挂在床头

诗人毛毛终于给我写了首诗

他一直在给别人写诗

今天读他写给我的诗

独一无二的长度

读起来 隐约有些意向

和我无关吗

你看
智齿 炒菜不都关系密切
反正把我感动坏了的也乐坏了的
见完了想见的人 有了这个前提
我就迫不及待的赶来看这首诗
小岛说你那么投入 我却记不住你
你们 和我息息相关
乌托邦真的开始天高云淡

并且牵连了远在重庆的两个飞人

秋天不再有天地美墅

时光切换到海滩的相见
你们是宿命

 

 

So you say you fell in love
And you're gonna get married
Raise yourself a family
How simple life can be
Somewhere it all went wrong
And your plan just fell apart
And you aint got the heart
to finish what you started
Yeah you fell in love
And you went and got married
Had yourself a family
How simple life can be
Somewhere it all went wrong
And your plan just fell apart
And you aint got the heart
to finish what you started
The ones that you loved
The ones that you left behind
The ones that you said you tried to find
They tried to find you

Somewhere it all went wrong
And your plan just fell apart
And you aint got the heart

我知道，这一刻..

耗着生命。对这世上的所有不再抱有希望，不再幻想和期待，对一切无求。

伤害，像锋利的刀，抹杀我的希望。

我只是想要一个朋友的拥抱，可是一片漆黑，身边一个人也没有。

我的执拗隐忍一意孤行所有缺点仍然要伴随我。

何时是尽头，无法自圆其说。

刚刚看完这个影片

熟悉的低调感觉。。。

迷恋这首歌。。

Are you really here
or am I dreaming
I can’t tell dreams from truth
For it’s been so long
since I have seen you
I can hardly remember your face anymore
When I get really lonely
and the distance calls its only silence
I think of you smiling
with pride in your eyes a lover that sighs

If you want me
satisfy me
If you want me
satisfy me

Are you really sure
that you believe me
When others say I lie
I wonder if you could
ever despise me
When you know I really try
To be a better one
to satisfy you
for you're everything to me
And I do
what you ask me
If you let me be free

If you want me
satisfy me
If you want me
satisfy me

If you want me
satisfy me
If you want me
satisfy me

今天没有与你们在一起，也在听着你们的歌。

是不是透支了生命中所有欢乐的时光，那么余下的，将至的是什么。在已消耗的生命中，最后才会被遗忘的是现在吗。是在亲身呼唤生活吗，可以不计昨日与明天。

不要再试图解释生活了，谁都孤独，有人听你倾诉衷肠吗？