曾经是一个下笔必带文白的酸书生，曾经是一个嬉笑怒骂不解世间辛苦的孩童……这一切都逝去了。留下的，只是漏洞百出全无美感的文字，和与十八岁不太相称的一丝成熟。

我还是我，只是心中愈加一份淡然，眼中更添一丝明朗。八个月前，“不回头”地来到异乡，不回头地大步向前，一切都那么顺理成章地进行着，我从未强扭过命运的指引，但却得到了我从未想过会得到的东西。曾经的努力到如今终于有了收获，我心安然。

还有十二小时，我就要飞回家了，再过三十八个小时，就要看到阔别近一年的父母家人，一路平安吧。

春尽的时节，我要扬帆回港。盛夏的时节，我还要乘风启航。期待着最美好的08夏天……

家，我要回来了……

I just have no idea HOW I got all these done??!! I even dare not to look back. This whole semester I am losing myself, till now, I guess I couldn't even recognize my heart. I am losing my soul, surely separating from it and wondering within this non human world. (I ‘m just kidding, believe me?)

Are all these done by me? Preparing for those tests just before the semester, although didn't do any pretest about it (regretting), but I got through that. And got so familiar with this campus all by myself, almost everything from the beginning about how to register, how to search things, you know stuff like that. (Such a fragment error). So involved in Opera performance and singing every day and night, performed in two big performances, practiced and rehearsed so many times. Well, that’s my love. No regret about it. And made my brightest decision this Feb, everybody who came to Winterfest knew that. That was wonderful, I love all you guys, Christy, Josh, Ethan, Joo Yeon, Yunzhu, Holly, Ren, Yiren, Rosemary, Diane, Marlena, and Amamda.(anyone there I didn’t name out?)

Gone through six courses and even could hang out so much with friends, say, tons of parties. It’s not like me. But thank God, I am still OK now. Oh, I almost forgot the fantastic spring break. We five just had an incredible 6 days together. Lake Tahoe, all the fun time, I will remember that in heart.

The most amazing one is that rush decision, I guess that’s not in a hurry, but I totally have faith in the one who made the decision for me. I am glad about surprises and changing, but one thing I really look forward to is learning more about my roommates, and read your hearts deeper if I could. I guess it’s my own road to go alone, but still glad to meet you girls, and be together for one year. I have some feelings that some of us will be roommate again. These days, I don’t know, but I am just so capable of guessing and feeling. Transferring means a whole bunch of things to do. A lot of documents, a lot of goodbyes, a lot of sadness, and a lot of moving, cleaning, and escaping. I‘ve been escaping from washing all my clothes and cleaning my room for a week. I could leave those till tomorrow, and it is already 2:51 am. I am in the break of writing the last paper for spring semester. I just couldn’t hold all the words any more. I just feel so satisfied, no matter how it turns out, I made it. No matter how I will miss you guys this summer or for the rest of my life, I am still so glad that we had fun with each other for this year. That’s kind of enough, is it? I can’t tell. But I am still waiting for my third wish to come true. I’ve been sticking to it for so long, but I still trust you! That might be silly, or useless, but I will wait……

Well, I am satisfied by now, but future is so far and vague. I couldn’t see any. I am always confused by my own funny and impossible will and ideas. But I have made a choice. Test it, and go after it, I will see my dreamland. West Lafayette is just there waiting for me, she might already know a lot of me from application (haha), but I know nothing about her. 94 hours from now, I will be on the plane heading home. There is the backup station for this flat-tire. I hope so. I have faith.

陶醉中~~~~~~~~

还有奚先生的白帝城点点珠泪往下抛，声情绝佳，戚戚切切，真堪大师。刚开始听奚，朋友们多多指教！

先感谢优酷的“不失人情”。的确制作的不错，找到好高兴啊。

五派真是别有韵味，以前就听谭，杨，马的观山景，还真没体会到奚派的韵味，近日品味，愈感奚先生自有一股清新韵味，看来以后得多关注建国了。

比较起来，李和曾先生的要不受听点，喜欢高派的不要来揍我哦。

 【我的后记】

   生活中不如意的事十之八九，心底只有一小块澄净的镜子，照多了邪魔外道，镜子自然就模糊了，也就失去了那片净土的意义。

     每个人自有各人自己归宿，万事切莫强求，看不惯的时候是不是可以想想小师父说的话“别用自己的标准看待别人，也别想着要去改变别人”。自己的选择不会后悔，别人可能也如你一样执着。天下之大，心路条条，走好自己的那条小路，性灵也就清明了许多。