You'll take a french leave,and left me behind very soon.I came into your life for 4months,and we were  talking face to face for 4hours,and then, i made your peaceful mind just a mess.

what a bad girl.

I said i felt sad that i couldn't get involved in your past ,however, i'd like to be a part of your future,but am i in it ?

 I'm by no means yet reconciled to just be a friend with you ,even a special,particular,or close Friend.How could you say that, you can't do it to me ,it's really unfair.So what am i suppose to be ? nothing at all? How can you even tried to evaded all the things that happend that night after refusing me .How can you be so sure that we couldn't be SOME DAY!You will never know it!why are you so rational and made such an arbitrary decision without any tracks of hesitation.'I'm afraid of hurting her.'Don't be afraid,because you have already done that.

I thought you were brave enough

李宗盛  给所有单身女子
作词：李宗盛　作曲：李宗盛

Music
曾经有人问你　你是否感觉寂寞
有话在心里　不肯说
你自己曾听过　爱情的烦恼太多
谁都没有把握
聪明　如你　是非何必明说
单身女子的生活　还算不错
你何必让爱情　迷惑
曾经有人问你　你是否感觉寂寞
不要管别人　怎么说
好多事情要做　好多的日子要过
你有你的寄托
平凡　如你　是非何必　明说
单身女子的生活　还算不错
你现在不想让爱情　拥有你
你对自己说　你要独立生活
是不是在获得以前　一定要做出承诺
你说　这无聊的游戏　不必找我
如果一个悲伤的女子　从你身边走过
你放心　那不是我　不是我
说了再爱　爱了再说
你期待些什么
除了爱情　还有许多
能填满你的寂寞
不要让自己　在爱的漩涡
终日悲伤

fuck up FINAL!

okay,im sorry.

i felt lonely and tired recently,sending messages to some guys but waiting for a brief reply or even nothing.people are busy with their finals as well,so its ok.I just missed you guys when i was lying in bed .

Alots of things hppened recently.

I met and talked to Hanako ,a girl now studying in US and come back for holiday,who i have talked on MSN since 2005.I cant believe that its our first time to see eachother in reality.i spent a night in youth hostel with her and Diao,3girls made alots of fun that night.we chatted with a guy from UK named CHRIS,and he selected a new name for me,Dorothy,which from a character in ten wizards of ox,i like it .

I will remember that night ,especially the first time i drunk some Lemon-flavored Rum at the midnight .

another happy news is that i persuade the sponsor successfully to do some advertisement on o

So  what did i say last week ?yeah,quit A guy.Days and nights,hustle and bustle,i was  totally occupied with trifles,that made me hardly think of him ,so keep on remembering to forget,people are always more tough than they thought,im not liying.

The first step for escaping from his control is to change your forcus. CET4 and the Final is just around the corner,i have to put my emphasis on them.Besides,the teaching assistant work needs to be attached more importance to as well. During the training of TA,i listened and observed a lot ,especially the wa

watched some photos on other's xiaonei,which he is together with his high school class family ，then i spent the whole night asking  myself whether im capable to make him as happy as what he were on the photos.looking at your bright smile ,your funny expression_r, i realize the answer is negative,always.

The things which i have to give up are definitely never belong to me .so there's no saying about regret being lost cause ive never been able to hold it actually.

its really hard and upset to admit that he is out of my range, from beginning to end.i thought i could ,i could be a indispensable part of his mind and his life,but lets face it ,it is i that was too confident.The fact is that there naturally exist something we cant gripe .just like you cant choose when and where to meet someone , no matter how many times you've tried and how much great efforts you've made,it makes no diff

-mr.smart ,u know everything actually,dont u ?

-the answer is negative.

和QQ上的每一个善意的朋友说：sorry,but would you please leave me along?

我想静一静，然后眼泪就掉下来。

im not a tough girl,never has ,never will.

原以为自己可以去了解他，才发现朋友们都是对的，没有一个人赞成支持我去走近这样一个人。他要出国了不会花时间精力在你身上的，道理我都懂，却还是像孩子赌气似的要去试一试，因为再理智都好，扪心自问，错过这个人，会不会后悔。我说，会的。哪怕就因为那一面之缘。然后我就不听劝了。我会想在他生病不开心的时候马上出现，不给自己思考的时间就按下通话键，因为我知道，多一秒钟思考，我就会放弃。

所以有委屈，会难过

F,L,C都说：你亏了

主动发短信，却永远等不到主动关心自己。

只能告诉自己，YOU DESERVE IT .

事实就是，'小鬼头，你一点都不重要。'

he said i could read his mind ,but im not sure how to prove it .

'later ,you will undersatand it .'

i

1月13 四分  清河坊 孔庙 西瓜 老样子,见了俞老师，吃了羊肉烧卖,自己吃了好多,呵呵

1月14 运河超市 西瓜+武汉同学 没这么买过吃的 ~呵呵

1月17日 吃王胖一顿. INTIME 有一些改变，不过还是有点小骄傲的家伙，很大方，关键是我比较好弄，笑。祝你大学顺利，宽待他人，祝你转专业成功！

1月19日 回四中下沙 班里很多同学 和方吃+逛 INTIME 多谢你用“专车”送我回家，呵呵

1月20~25 浙图一带上课

21和超哥吃饭,到底是战友,AA制 鳗鱼饭 觉得你比原来开朗很多，轻松很多，祝你好。

20橘子牵去书店买了书和浙图上课

23  和橘子吃了晚饭，在一茶一坐。觉得时间似乎改变了很多，又好像什么都没变。稳妥，安心只是不好意思，这么大风的冷天，还有念书时候灰灰的我，笑。

30钱柜 超哥，CXF，奶奶，华夏，ST，平时联系不多，还能记得我，笑，难得能聚下。日语丹麦语德语英语……笑，你们真厉害- O-*

2月3日 上午小莺J，去吃了甜甜圈，在小咖啡店里坐下来聊天。也是3年不见了，听她说说在广东的开心和不顺，似曾相识，好像两年前我也经历过一些，会好的，相信时间会让人适应，改变，成长。

自己有很多写字的地方.而现在发现只有这里才是自说自话最安心的了，因为没有人会来看了。荒废到所有人差点连自己都不记得,却更有安全感了。

2年前我在这里开始，带着固执和倔强说谢谢你的不了解让我更自由.

2年后再过来，温和又柔软第对自己说谢谢你的不了解，让我更自由.

很多时候纪录时的心态是复杂的。既希望把自己的心思发泄，又不愿意和盘托出,因为怕现实中的人会看到.但若是真要人不知鬼不觉,又何必写出来呢，隐隐的，似乎又希望被挖掘和了解。字里行间的隐讳也好，藏拙也好，满满的，都是欲说还休.

能写出来的都不是秘密.

而现在我觉得自己是在一种懒洋洋的，松懈的状态下敲打这些文字。 

昨天回四分去看俞,她调过去了。 去之间找到西瓜,他说他在孔庙里。我说我过来你在哪,他说，逛着吧,撞见.于是我就逛着，然后就撞见了。所以吧,有时候人不能太紧张，随便一点也好。

本想带他去个咖啡店坐一下的，结果俩人一路去了四分.居然也不见外,又不是自己的老师，也聊的起来.俞出来接我，我给她带了一盒蛋塔.我们坐在一个没人的小办公室里。太阳暖暖地照起来，然后我们

难得登陆一次

看到以前打理的东西

很多回忆

自己一步步走来

所有的经历都是财富

不断成长着,成熟着,也努力着

今年虽然朋友们都不在身边还是有收到很多短信

以前觉得过节一定要大包小包的礼物才算数,现在发现彼此有联系知道在做什么已经是很大的幸福.

抽空到机房上网

看到了老朋友VINNE,教了我很多有道理的话，会好好记住,好好提高自己

发了些邮件SAY MERRY CHRISTMAS

莺姐说要寄礼物我居然叫她省省,别忙啦,大家又不是第一天认识~呵呵

当然,有些人的礼物还是不能客气的，比如及时雨,呵呵,觉得时间真能改变人，3年前他还是那么沉默的人阿,现在说的我一愣一愣的

最意外的是收到好多四中老师们的祝福.能认识这群大朋友真的很庆幸.

时间不多了，祝福所有的老朋友新朋友.大家开心