唉！~~~~....

物是人非，何必故意让我看见什么呢？幸福嘛？快乐嘛？真的有吗。

不过也理解，我的内心还真是简单又古怪啊。

淡淡的惆怅，整日无所事事。绞尽脑汁的想每件事，一无所获。

给个计划吧：继续我的英文学习，即使写出来的东西很中国化。

            找个电脑班学习五笔打字，我想，拼音再快我也无法实现5分钟300字以上。打一个字不能超过1秒。我要崩溃。（I collapsed）

            11月上班之前把考研的事跑跑，至少思路上要清晰。最好成了。

这个冬天会很忙！

前两周天天跑牙科，找到一个牛B的口腔科主任，我来解释一下他的牛B之处：想要看牙，每天早上5点起床，6点前赶到他的办公室门口排队，中午12点准时下班，每天最多看是十个病人，每个病人只看一颗牙，周一至周五上午看牙，其余时间休息！经常会去北京医科大学习，看牙的病人只能眼巴巴的等他回来。我就是其中之一。我经历了十分辛苦的补牙过程。 （It was an unusual process of that）

痛苦的是我起得再早也是排第9或第10.（I do’t know how to describe the feeling at that time）

等候的时间里医生总是兴奋的给我们讲很多牙科知识（图文并貌的讲，就像是带实习生一样），并且突然冒几句英文，我这个耳朵反应慢，担心译的不对会不会笑话我。

As my mother said,It's not like to see a tooth, but rather go to war。

I became very lazy. Lai every day at home, no wonder dentists say it is not calcium deficiency, it is not absorbing calcium, how many more sun! He also can see that I do not go out.

I would also like to drum up the energy to do something. However, there is always a reason to stop my steps. Loneliness is terrified of. Lonely in my body let me lazy and refused to talk and refused to think of things like refusing to curiosity and refused to find fresh.

Very much want to go out, holding the camera out, want to be very beautiful, as bright as the sun