I have various imaginations about the coming stages of my life. When I was a kid, I looked forward to being enrolled into school and wearing the red scarf. Being a pupil for several years, I became tired of wearing the red scarf and being treated like a naughty child, so I expected to get into high school where I needn’t to wear the red scarf which had been a symbol of infantility to me. While that expectation came out to be endless schoolwork, I began to dream about college life, students could learn whatever they like, harvest romantic love and have fun without course pressures.

The day finally came. I was enrolled into Sun Yat-sen university. I arrived in Guangzhou the day before checking in, the school bus took me away from Guangzhou south campus to Zhuhai campus. The bus stopped at a place where the mountain and the sea joined together with a highway lying across, it was about dusk, the weather was tampered with typhoon, so it was windy and rainy. I was some

 

As an individual in this world, everyone is unique, so am I, but I am confused when asked to describe three characters of my own. For a long time I struggled to figure out what kind of person I am every now and then, but it came out no answer. I have some characters comparing to people around, exploring and describing these characters and then bringing forth a tridimensional self is a process of ego-cognition, whether it can educe a conclusion or not is of no importance.

Variability

During the process of growing I have changed a lot, there are different ‘Is’ in different periods. There is no obvious reason, maybe because I am an easy-influenced person.

I was extrovert and had a tongue in my head since I was a little girl according to my mother and other elder relatives. There were two anecdotes often referred when they recalled my childhood.

I lived in countryside with my grandparents, they had a large garden planted wi

We met on the garage, I was getting my car on some check, and he was getting some parts for his motorcycle, we became friends. And a few months later, we went to dinner in a restaurant, and to my complete shock, John leaned across the table and kissed me. I am just saying, you know, you can’t know who that person is, the person who will become your confidant, your soul mate, to your lover. He may be someone you have concentrated on for years, he might be next guy who is selling some part of motorcar in seedy jeans. Whoever he is, he starts all from strangers, so it could be anyone, since John, I think about it a lot.

----Sally Felicity

          

   

    时间过得真快，转眼就到八月底，学校要开学了，这可以说又是我人生一个新的起点，去复旦读研究生，怎么说也还是个不错的起点，可我心里总是空落落的，说不清道不明是为了什么。想起四年前的这个时候，我的心是满满的，对即将开始的大学生活充满了期望与幻想，而现在的心情却使我不禁怀疑，记忆中的美丽心情是否是真的存在过？难道是因为我记忆的长河经过时间的洗涤只留下美丽的贝壳？这到底算是记忆的错觉，还是岁月圆融后我真实的体会？

 

    一直觉得生活很简单很清晰，一条路笔直地通下去，这段日子，世界对于我来说好像忽然变了，我看到了艰难的曲折与复杂的选择，我迷惑了彷徨了，不知道自己想要什么，人这一生活着到底是为了什么？这对于云云众生来说，答案是多种多样、丰富多彩的，只要不损人，

 

谁能够拒绝他无辜的眼神，

他坚定、清澈的目光，

他甘愿沉下去的低微？

这可能是女人对男人的幻想，

清纯得没有杂质，忠诚而又可靠，一生只为你一人——

        

 

一天，杯子对主人说：“我寂寞，我需要水，给我点水吧。”

主人说：“好吧，拥有了想要的水，你就不寂寞了吗？”

杯子说：“应该是吧。”于是，主人把开水倒进了杯子里。水很热，杯子感到自己快被融化了，杯子想，这就是爱情的力量吧。

然后，水变温了，杯子感觉很舒服，杯子想，这就是生活的感觉吧。

后来，水变凉了，杯子感到害怕了，怕什么他也不知道，杯子想，这就是失去的滋味吧。

慢慢的，水凉透了，杯子绝望了，杯子想这就是缘分的“杰作”吧。

杯子说：“主人，快把水倒出去，我不需要了。”但是，主人不在。杯子感觉自己快压抑死了，可恶的水，凉凉的，放在心里，感觉好难过。

杯子奋力一晃，水终于走出了杯子的心里，杯子好开心，突然，杯子掉在了地上。

杯子碎了，临死前，看见了，它心里

 

因为台风，台州在全国各地还算小有名气。不过这个夏天，台风却姗姗来迟，还没有一个直接登录此地的。这一阵子受“帕布”、“蝴蝶”影响，这边刮了几天大风，下了一阵暴雨，也就8～10级，再加10级的风都见识过，这一丁点风就只当是凉快凉快，改善天气。风刮过去了，眼看天空也比往日明亮许多，没想到今早在一片稀里哗啦声中醒来，腾地跳起来赤着脚去关了窗，回到床上，旋即又听到一阵雷鸣，想起电信人员的TIP，翻身拔掉了床头的网线，于是在雷轰电鸣、狂风暴雨声中再次安然睡去。大雨天是睡觉的好时刻，漫天雨幕遮挡了时光流逝的迹象，天空一直如黎明前的灰暗，没有明艳的阳光照着屁股催我起床，我当然睡得更加心安理得。

 

          

             

   

    大学毕业了，二十出头了，身边的同学不少都已经开始为生计奔波、有的也谈婚论嫁、有些甚至都成家立业了，我看在眼里，心里着实还有些发慌了。一直都还视自己是个丫头片子，从小到大一路上学念书，以为只要我还是个学生，学业之外的事啥都不用操心了，现在大学毕业了去读研，十有八九分有逃避人生责任的味道，可是时间并不会放过我，不管在校园还是进社会，年龄一样地大了，家人、朋友、身边的一切人，也不再视我为小孩了，老爸老妈更是有一点怕我嫁不出去的操心。这一切都逼得我开始对自己过去关于许多事情的看法做反思。

 

    对于恋爱，我从来都认为不要掺和进物质的东西，只要两个人互相吸引，渐渐地走在一起，真正的爱只有一个，至死不渝

   

 

因为要参加数学建模，DD在家前前后后才呆了十天，今天又要启程回校了。

这个暑假我回家后，天天盼望DD回来，回来后可以分担我做饭洗碗的家务活，有个人在家作伴就不会寂寞害怕。我知道他要参加建模，须早点回校，但还是估计他可以在家呆上20来天，陪我半个暑假，好不容易盼到20号DD回家，却得知他前后加起来只有十天的假期，心都凉了半截。虽知道DD在家时间这么短，我还是不改劣根性，有事没事还要跟他斗斗嘴吵吵架，还会半痛半痒打他几下。昨晚吃饭时我才醒悟DD明天就要回校了，指着一桌子菜对他说：“能吃得下就把它全吃了！”今天上午见DD照例又在看建模的东西，我更石破天惊地拿饮料给他喝，削水果给他吃。中饭后，DD就要出发了，我送他出家门口，看着妈妈载他离去，没跟他道一声再见，关上房门那一刻，心头酸酸地一缩。

从来我都觉得有无尽的时间和家人在一起，暂时的分别不会觉得非常得感伤，不

 

 

我是在七月五号宿舍清人前夕，整理行囊搭乘L66次列车，离开我生活学习了四年的中山大学。我们的送别晚会、毕业聚餐洋溢出的都是快乐的气息，没有任何的煽情，我的周遭没有一丝泪水滑落，于是我也把自己的心情掩藏得严严实实，不愿意破坏这样一个快乐的气氛。离开那天，我们在去火车站的路上，在都城吃了中饭，进餐中想起我的校园卡里还有没有花完的几块钱，于是我就对Y说：

“你回学校花光它吧，我的校园卡就先交给你保管。”

“你来的时候我不在怎么办？”

“你不是还要在这里读研吗 ！”

“你下次来应该是学校百年校庆的时候了，我们这些年毕业的在那时候都应该会回来……”Y滔滔不绝（中大创于1924年，2007年11月83年校庆还有好几个月呢）

而我掩藏的心情就这样被Y不知好歹地撩起，积压着的毕业、离别泪水在我走进鹭江地铁站的那一刻崩涌而出，一发而不可止，在一