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All of a sudden, because of the stimulus of some unexpected event, I’m temporarily out of the smothered status. This is of course not the kind of light-heartedness that fills my manic episodes, but certainly much better than the chronicle sore that gnaws my nerves. Several months before I was dragged out my last depression, I felt it the similar way. Though it flashed away and back for several times, I dared not take it for real before my mood really stabilized. But I hope, for all the frustration that I risk, this is it.
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It is so said that life is but a journey. Yet by nature men strive
to reach certain destination. Although many can be soberly aware
that everything we strive to achieve will boil down to naught
inevitably, yet hard it is to be content with all the time.
From time to time, we need a goal to keep us moving forward. Sometimes I am lucky enough to obtain from nowhere a fuzzy one that suffices to drive me gallop with great valor. I try my best to check the passion to avoid getting out of control, and normally I succeed. But that luck does not always go so closely, and when it doesn't, I laze. The pace of my life slows down and all I can do is but wait until the cloudy days passes away.
At such times I suffer. Maybe from the mediocrity that I always regard with contempt since a long time ago. Maybe from the nothingness that makes each second in my life a pain in the neck. Maybe from the sense of helpless that has haunted the weak spot of my soul...
Luck
From time to time, we need a goal to keep us moving forward. Sometimes I am lucky enough to obtain from nowhere a fuzzy one that suffices to drive me gallop with great valor. I try my best to check the passion to avoid getting out of control, and normally I succeed. But that luck does not always go so closely, and when it doesn't, I laze. The pace of my life slows down and all I can do is but wait until the cloudy days passes away.
At such times I suffer. Maybe from the mediocrity that I always regard with contempt since a long time ago. Maybe from the nothingness that makes each second in my life a pain in the neck. Maybe from the sense of helpless that has haunted the weak spot of my soul...
Luck
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By chance I clicked on this deserted blog, and can't help
being jealous of the 'previous me' - the maniac one.
Yes. It is me depressed again. Hard it is to admit, but I have
the tactic of using another language. I do not know how to face
others, esp. those I gave advice to. It seems to me that I am but a
liar - a charlatan whose recipe has never
been tested, or at least not fully tested.
It feels strange. Now I receive suggestions and advice from
time to time, and I sometimes feel very much at loss. I know these
words! I've been saying these to people, and now when it is my
turn, I just don't know what to DO.
Then at this stage, quite a few of my fellow netpals echoed my
understanding that this is by and large biochemical. Though I can
do something in an attempt to change the inner me, but it doesn't
change much the episodes of the disease.
看到星月夜的评论，想起昨天在博雅施老师讲的一些东西，有些感触，胡乱写些东西。
“从心理学角度，追求美丽，权势，富裕等都是表象。人是复杂的，人的内心也有许多渴望”－－星月夜评论
我以前并没有仔细地考虑这个问题，看了星月夜的话，很受启发。昨天施老师讲课的内容中恰好也提到，人的情绪多种多样，其中一些，如悲伤、快乐、恐惧等是更直接一些的情绪，而像屈委、耻辱等则是更间接一些（我的理解是由基本情绪组合而成的，不知道理解有误否）。
对权势、金钱等外物的企求，绝不可能是直接的、本能的情绪，这些对于不谙世事的婴儿来说肯定一点吸引力也没有。但它们肯定满足了我们某些基本情绪的需要，在不断强化之下，形成了滋养这些基本情绪的诱因。
希
恐惧是人类天生的情绪。想必我们的先人就害怕黑暗，害怕孤独，所以才有了鬼怪的传说。我想说的恐惧，不是面对血腥的退却，不是对突发事件的惊恐，而是更多体现在抑郁中经常面对的对不可知后果的犹豫和顾虑。
许多抑郁的病友经常在处理问题的时候有些这样那样的顾虑，生怕自己的不足会引火烧身。譬如：我说了这句话，某人会不会多心呀？我做了那件事，会不会导致什么严重后果呀？我的什么行为会不会发现我抑郁呀？甚至会把某些事情看成世界末日一样的终极恐惧，典型的表现就是“如果×××了，那就完了！”
不谈具体诱因，只来谈一谈，真的完了吗？刘嘉玲裸照被曝光，她现在仍然是众人瞩目的名星；萨达姆被捕，地球这一侧的我们，除了多一些谈资，一切仍然故
对于有些人来说，这可能不成一个问题。也许有人会反问我：你不想得到什么？因为在通常的观念中，似乎一切好的东西都是渴望得到的－－金钱、权势、地位、尊重、荣誉……甚至仅仅是风头、关注。如果你把上述的任何一个定位为你的终极目标，对不起，我没有能力提任何建议，因为这些我都没有。
在我，一个经历过几年情绪两极反复的人，看来，最重要的是内心的平静。为达到这个目标，我可以放弃许
昨天在网上看到有人致信星巴克总裁要求星巴克搬出故宫。闲来无事，就此事发表一些议论。不知有没有人看过闾丘露薇在博客中对此事的看法，是和当事人的态度有所不同的。抛开当事人的是非，我只想谈谈看客对此事的态度。
当这种矛盾出现的
1、记住该记住的，忘记该忘记的。改变能改变的，接受不能改变的。
2、能冲刷一切的除了眼泪，就是时间，以时间来推移感情，时间越长，冲突越淡，仿佛不断稀释的茶
3、怨言是上天得至人类最大的供物，也是人类祷告中最真诚的部分。
4、智慧的代价是矛盾。这是人生对人生观开的玩笑 。
5、世上的姑娘总以为自己是骄傲的公主(除了少数极丑和少数极聪明的姑娘例外)。
6、如果敌人让你生气，那说明你还没有胜他的把握。
7、如果朋友让你生气，那说明你仍然在意他的友情。
8、令狐冲说“有些事情本身我们无法控制，只好控制自己。”
9、我不知道我现在做的哪些是对的，那些是错的，而当我终于老死的时候我才知道这些。所以我现在所能做的就是尽力做好每一件事，然后等待着
2、能冲刷一切的除了眼泪，就是时间，以时间来推移感情，时间越长，冲突越淡，仿佛不断稀释的茶
3、怨言是上天得至人类最大的供物，也是人类祷告中最真诚的部分。
4、智慧的代价是矛盾。这是人生对人生观开的玩笑 。
5、世上的姑娘总以为自己是骄傲的公主(除了少数极丑和少数极聪明的姑娘例外)。
6、如果敌人让你生气，那说明你还没有胜他的把握。
7、如果朋友让你生气，那说明你仍然在意他的友情。
8、令狐冲说“有些事情本身我们无法控制，只好控制自己。”
9、我不知道我现在做的哪些是对的，那些是错的，而当我终于老死的时候我才知道这些。所以我现在所能做的就是尽力做好每一件事，然后等待着
我们的博客圈现在规模越来越大了，这是一件非常可喜可贺的事。不过纳兰生性好泼冷水，这里希望对博客圈的发展提一些想法。
在积累了一定的人气之后，我们的博客圈是否应该有些特点？毕竟在浩如烟海的网络环境中，类似我们的圈子或其他形式的东西不只一家，我们有哪些东西可以使我们卓然不群？
我这种想法并不是想争强好胜，把别人比拼下去。我深知对抑郁症及其他心理问题知识的普及需要大家的共同努力，而不是只靠我们的单打独斗。可如果大家作出的东西都是千篇一律，那么多方的努力恐怕不能产生最佳的效果，反而可能会导致简单重复，资源浪费，社会影响却不见得有多大。
所以我希望大家对我们的目标人群进行一些讨论，以便更有针对性地建设我们的圈子。只是一个初步想法，想法本身可能也有偏
