i feel really frustrated tonight. i have so many things to do, i have so many goals to go after, and ,definitely i have so much eagerness and confidence to obtain them. But i just have the feeling that i don't have that much time and energy.It's a scary thing to have this feeling. I can't give up, the only thing i can do and i should do ,is to pick up my enterprise and step up, day and night.

     i want to run,so BLESS.Give me strong leg and fast yet steady pace.I want to fly ,so BLESS. Give me strong wings, and i will soar with my uterly strength.BLESS.

     Prepare,prepare,prepare. Run, run, run.

前面的话:

    泥人同学说,博客还是就事论事好.用一些抽象的语句表达心情,远方的同学不仅不能了解到我的生活中喜怒哀乐,反而被我的文字搞得不明不白,久了也懒得猜,因为对我的生活了解越发模糊,到最后,可能就剩一层水印啦,隐隐约约只是过去的影子.

    嘻嘻我意识到这个问题的,前几篇博文之所以用了隐约的风格,是因为一些不易言表的事的缘故,那几篇东西更多的是对为我自己写的,对我自己说的.^_^

    知道的啦,以后啊,就从我并不多彩的生活中挤出些色彩来啦.

    A statement first: I'm a lousy(笨拙的,不是金山词霸里'恶心的,污秽的') painter.

 

 

    今天是这个学期第七周了...大三了耶.在我刚刚稍微懂得怎样过大学生活的时候,发觉自己要毕业啦.这几天傍晚从食堂回来,从那几棵老柳树下走过的时候,落日斜照过来,恍惚间有种感觉,就像现在回首看高中生活的感觉.想到毕业后以一个校友的名义悄悄回来走走,到那时的心情应该是觉得:

   Yeah..I decide to quit the course 'financial risk management' this afternoon to...check some foreign websites for some art works to present 'religion in the United States' to my class this Friday.I know it's a benefit-balance-evaluation.I have to take the risk having my name called by my 'kind' professor(he looked really kind at first sight,but it's a rule that pro.s like this is always the most unpredicted ones,he could always make a name-call surprisingly,which makes your heart pop out.) Okay,i risk this name-call for my perfect presentation.

   Just like this,you have to make decisions everyday,everywhere,every split minute.And,most important,under most cases,you have to make a quick decision,one that you actually can't regret once it's made.You'll just have to keep running down the road you choose.It's not like you can roll down a beautiful country road with wild flowers blooming because it makes your mood delight ,but transfer your trace to a

   When you believe it's there,it will be there;When you believe in fate,it will always turn into the bright side;When you truely believe the existence of fairy tale,you will be the happy PRINCESS in it.Just,hold on to your FAITH.

   How many times i ask myself whether i'd be the unique one,the important one,the nice although not the perfect one.How many times i ask myself whether i'll make everything in my little world come ture.How many times i ask myself whether i have the capability to stick to my promises,the capability to make a happy live to my beloved ones,the capability to make myself proud.

    ^_^so many times ask,hell i absolutely know how to be responsible to these self-asking-and-self-doubting.It's just..i need to hold on to my faith..all the way along,definitely.

   

     Finally.A small apology to you g

   上来冒个泡，透一口气。

  Okay.i have to admit it.i was wrong.It's about the little article <<alone>> written several days ago.It's just some crap i wanted to let out of me,trying to smooth my anger.'Cause i was really dissatisfied about her at that time.Yet,until i went home without her around me,i started to miss her...and,^_^，finally i realize that she's too precious to lose.and...i want to thank her for teaching me to cherish,cherish everything i own at this very moment.

   Here,i want to quote some really touching words to express my feeling:

To me,friendship keeps me awake and energetic.Think of friends as the second family.

   Yeah...maybe some day no matter where i go or what i do,my friends would be the ones to keep me standing.

   So,again,i want to apologize,sincerely.

 

PS: From today on,sometimes i would try to memorize something in this blog with English words.I'm

2007.7.20

   离开了，早上还去看了村里缺水的情况，装了两瓶水回去找环境科学的同学化验一下。

    给李林顺老师的女儿留了联系方式和地址，希望能通过沟通给她一点成长上的帮助吧。

   

           李老师两个小孩

 

             李老师的老父亲和温

   早上六点多起来，造反没吃就去开始问卷调查。这样的清早去调查比较两块，待9点钟的时候回来吃早饭。这边习惯一天吃两顿饭，早上九点一顿，下午四点一顿，从今天下午那顿到明早九点的那顿相隔十九个钟头。按我们一天吃四顿的习惯看来很惊讶，但这边人的食量很大，一个三岁大的小孩吃的跟我一样多。他们基本不吃油腻东西，主食就是小米加南瓜稀粥、饼子和花卷，配上黄瓜、土豆丝等凉菜。没什么脂肪类是无，要做完像一个六十岁老人几十亩地这样的粗重活，唯有大碗量地吃，那样的瓷碗啊，足足有个小脸盆大。

 

                

    把一些我喜欢的图片放上去，赏心悦目

 2007.7.17  于往临县的汽车上

    太原，从城市的建筑和面貌来看，就是雷州的扩大版。可能是煤渣漫布在空气中的缘故吧，楼房和街道的树丛都是灰灰的，感觉像封尘已久的老城，只有会会的汽车和行人让你知道，这是个活生生的灰旧的老城。说道行人，穿着也很暗淡，原没有雷州这样的小城人们穿着光鲜。或许是中西部人们接触潮流的机会不想沿海那边多，对潮流也并不敏感。这只是从汽车上放映的赵本山、宋丹丹主演的骗子和北翻译成杀西华的外国通俗小搞笑片猜测出来的，这么说来，是一个城市人民的文化去向牵引或限制了其服务贸易业的发展？

    一路上终于让我看到大片大片的玉米的和夹杂在地里的向日葵，对向日葵这个概念一直很熟悉。小时画画常常就只会画这种花。但亲眼看到向日葵后那份惊喜突然让我意识到原来我从没见过向日葵，只是第一次亲眼看到。原来很多熟悉的东西，只是你意想里的熟悉。就像无数次想想过未来属于自己的房