满手的灰尘
尘封的记忆
时间在指尖溜走
触摸那些发黄的信纸和
充满时间气味的大头贴
哦，那些回忆再度唤醒
虽已模糊
但那份感动仍在

下午打开以前的“月光宝盒”
小学时停自行车的2毛钱纸币
和镕交流的信纸
和“手拉手”小朋友的信
初中高中疯狂的大头贴
还有贯穿小学到高中时期的证件照

现在已经没有2毛钱的纸币了
虽然没有当时写给镕的信
但是从她的回信当中
感觉到当时的稚嫩和烦恼
也佩服当时的坦率和直接
现在。。。估计不可能那么直接了吧~
原来我以前小学时候的外号是“贝贝”“婴儿”
哈哈！我真的是不记得了
一点印象也没有了
唉，哪像现在混的
那个外号可真是。。。。
那会我们是最要好的
但是分开的六年来我们由于种种原因
被迫疏远了
但很庆幸
绕了一圈后我们又是同校同院同专业的同学了
我还是你“学姐”嘿！
但是这个“学姐”很惭愧
在专业上你一定会比我牛！

至于“手拉手”伙伴
只看到仅

咔嚓咔嚓咔嚓。。。。满地头发，又回到了四年前的模样，

之前一直舍不得，但是最近那些头发令我很抓狂。

很短很短的短发，

很乱很乱的头发，

希望大家都违心点，

觉得难看，

就违心地说好，

觉得好看，

就真心的赞美。

看着大伙好像都忙碌额样子，

我却什么都懒得做，

我彻底地无药可救了。

跑到另一个地方躲几天，

看了飞屋环游记，

可能是我一直纠结那个眼镜，

导致最感人的一幕没认真看，

眼泪自然挤不出来，

十分羡慕卡尔和艾丽，

十分喜欢豆豆和凯文，

十分想要一个羞辱罩，

最后的一组相片很温馨，

其实生活这样就好了，

要淡定，

出国无戏，

考公无力，

猎者无望，

嫁人无奈。

我就这样，

慢慢，

慢慢地

消耗着生命。。。

一个月的时间

不过如此

我经历过了

就不后悔

从之前的忐忑不安

到之后的舒心坦然

希望自己真的能放得下

说不甘也有

毕竟整整一个学期没有周末

说遗憾也有

毕竟有时还会偷懒看连续剧

克制不住

想想自己都觉得可笑

到临考前都还那么粗心

以前总是会抱怨自己运气差

但还好每次都能逢凶化吉

是我还不够镇定

还成不了大器

一直觉得

老天很爱和我开玩笑

每次都是先打我一巴掌

再给我个安慰的抚摸

我的心脏还够强硬吗？

这不是在抱怨

我也没有资格抱怨什么

每个人都有自己的心事

每个能都有自己的痛苦

大家心照不宣就好了

考前觉得结果对我很重要

因为我舍不得让我所付出的没有回报

因为我还不够坦然

因为我还在计较投资与回报的比例

考后突然觉得过程才是significant

经历就是财富

但是

真的放得下吗

hope so

回家了，逃离了我最想逃离的地方

三年的时光埋葬在那了

再也回不去了

还有仅剩两个半月了

就要转身对我幻想四年的时光挥挥手了

有多少个四年可以重来

改变不了这个结局

留下的回忆到底还能剩多少

幸好你们都是省内的

想你们的时候还可以还有机会聚聚

我的回忆都和你们有关

还有就是孤单的背影

幻想着和好朋友在同一个地方打拼

就像奋斗里的一样

未来我已经懒得去想了

想了又能怎样

一次次的否定再否定

我也搞晕了

老妈说她现在最想有一块地可以种菜

妈，我不愧是你生的！

强烈同意！

过了四天

我的暑期提前结束

原谅我最后小放纵下~

我一定要自制

从现在开始

不再抱怨

积累rp

宅在家

过像猪一般简单的生活

in the end

good luck to me

i wish

life is waiting

that is true

i've been waiting my whole life ,just don't know what the hell for

that is true

well think myself

i'm far away from initiative

just wait for being loved ,being taught ,being learned ,being accepted

it is my way

though i'm waiting

i'm prepareing for everything

the main actor had been waiting for nine months in the airport just for fulfilling his dead father's dream；collection the whole number of 57 jazz singers who are his dad's idols

it sounds too ridiculous

bur it is happening in ou real life

we maybe have no bright dream

merely wait for someone's phone , reply ,echo

wait for a sunshine day

wait for a feast

but we are perfectly happy to

we are most willing to

nobody can gets too much

it is harder to climb and i'm wait in line

obviously wait in a possitive way

one day, you will get to your terminal

in the end

haven't been seen sunshine for a long time

in the end

disgusting, boring,dizzely was over

i lost in cantact with you about two days

no reason ,just the bad temper

i know i should control it

but somentimes i can't

you know

well in these days

i strove to kown what is the barriar btween us

always quarreling wiht no end

i confused

it appeared to tha we are over 

then i found the answer in a book

so it is

everything turns out to be clear and bright

i need lietened

you need respected

i need you would share my feelings

you need i would spur you and trust your ability

because  we are different

because we come from different stars

but we live in the earth together

didn't heared you vocie

no message

i ever doubt you would not pay attention to me at all

i cried solely

who can understand me ? nobody even him

don't ask me why

no why

i just neurotic disorder

i just tired with everything around me

i sad

i wanna cry loudly

i wanna vent

my life is a mess

i can't focus my attention on study in the dorm

i begin to suspect if my option is right

mum i miss you !

i wanna to go home

sleep in my comfortable bed that i would not have a insomnia

i miss the taste of the food you make for me

it's  so cold around me

it'e raining all the a long!

Is it right or wrong?

OK ,girl,since you chose this road

don't walk back and forth

don't hesitate

don't be puzzle

All things you have to do is just do it

Come on! Go ahead!

Maybe sometimes you will feel loney,helpless

maybe sometimes you can't stand for it

But i believe that you are a brave girl

you are able to deal with all the troubles

Juet cry, cry and cry

is the best way for you to release your stress

But please remember

after wiping you tear

give a smile to yourself and  just go ahead

Since you chose this road

Every weekend i have to go up at 6:30a.m and run to the nearest bus station to catch up the bus,after 4 o'clock p.m ,i have to come back to school by bus which is crowded with people.Thank to my shape ,wouldn't take too much space.When i saw lovers show their intimation in the bus ,i missed you much.I admire that girl due to

昨天很兴奋，非常的兴奋，见到了2年多没见的阿木老公，总有说不完的话，没有变哇哈哈，聊了好多，太高兴了，我不懂得要怎么说了。。。。厄。。。。虽然有些事令我很震惊，但是过去那么久了，想想也就过了，谢谢木相信老婆哈！我的承受能力正在不断的提高，只是有时还是很气愤！唉，算了，陈年往事，过眼云烟的功夫。以后我们要多多保持联系哈！

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还有昨晚啊，四大天后第一次放孔明灯成功！我们躲在文化宫那座拱桥上，当时是晚上11点多，老大我点了两根火柴就把固体酒精给点着了，在大风的陪伴下孔明灯飘起来了！虽然中间还翻了一个跟斗，我们的惊呼吓倒了一些路人，要知道，文化宫树太多，周围都有建筑，着火了我们四个也就完了！小灯飞走了，我们的祝愿也一起飞高了，就在这时，发现了我们竟然是在