发现自己已经成了一个“宅女”了

这几天都在家不断的看香港连续剧，不过好爽!~~~

好看。

这几天肚子好不舒服，怎么搞的呀？郁闷！

所以一直都没有什么心情写blog，咳*-*

都说了，做女人真的挺麻烦的！~~~

好傻啊，说什么是“芭比”打扮，哈哈！~~~

恩！~~~还不错哟！喜欢着小礼服的颜色哦

后面的背景给我删掉，哈哈哈

乍眼一看，怎么像个“村姑”昏鸟！~~

摆脱...别这样

I am so bad

I am so  so bad

 We broke  up today,why?why i did this decision.U know?im so sad,i dont know what to say,i just think im a bad girl,im not a good girl friend,im really selfish.

My friend told me:everyone is selfing.No,no way!Thats me,not everybody!Its me.i hurt him,i made him feel so sad,so depressed.What should i do?i dont know,i feel so ...

When he called me,i turned off my phone,if i did wrong thing?Sorry,sorry,i just i dont know how to say,maybe its my explaination,but i think thats a lie.im afraind of hurting you,but i did;im afraid of losing u,but i did;im afaid of leaving u,but i did too.

U know?Its fate let us meet each other,but i cant love u eventurly,though u love me so much,and take good care of me at any espects.Its me,i lose u,even if i have lots of time to know u,but i feel time is not a good thing,its just a ghost,it makes me leave u,and make me think i cant love u.im sorry

    今天姑爹给我说了一件事，让我心里产生了一种叫做“矛盾”的感觉。他希望我可以去长沙帮忙公司的事情，但是我已经报名了去继续读书，而且每周末都要去，所以我现在真的是好为难，我不知道自己应该怎么做，怎么选择，我这辈子就是最讨厌“选择”啦！

我不知道自己是怎么了！~~~

有时总是心不在焉

到底是在想什么呢？

一点儿也不明白

朋友们都说我的心飞了

才没有列！

胡说吧。。。

以前，尤其是在08年寒假的那段时间，我认识几个很优秀的老外，他们人很好，教了我很多的东西，怎么说呢？我还是好感激他们的，特别是tom，他人很好，是个老师，有个可爱的女儿，好久都没有联系他了，前段时间我一直都在学校教书，就这么过了一个学期了，现在放假了，但是可能是因为毕业吧，有好多好多的聚会啊，大学同学都各奔东西了，以后也可能很少见面的机会，说起来，我们也都相知，相识，相处了几年的时光，在一起那么久了，再怎么也是有点感情的啊，现在好想她们！

还有就是，高中毕业的时候，似乎也没有像现在这样啊，

    在那个学校已经做了一个学期了，前两天终于放假啦，好舒服，可以美美的睡上一觉了！~~~

    好久没有更新blog了，也不知道要说点什么，谈学校的事情呀又全是郁闷的，谈其他的呢？啥子列？*-*哎！~~~男朋友16号就回家了，我还坚持到22号，把学生们全部送上火车后，心才松下来。其实自己还是蛮舍不得他们的，真的是一群可爱的孩子啊！

    为什么？我当初没有那么想他的啊，怎么他一走我就好想好想，特别是当其他人跟男朋友聊天啊，或是msg啊，我的心就好难受，感觉他离我好远。每天都好想好想！现在，我们几乎每天都要打一通电话，呵呵，是我要求的！~~~想听到他的声音，这样我会舒服点，感觉他在我身边。

    从来就不会这样的我，哈哈，今天干嘛呀！居然在blog里面说出了心里话，好神奇哦！我一般是不会跟朋友说，不会当众谈论的，可能是我太想了吧。这些话我也不愿意对他说，我从来就不习惯说出这些什么：我想你了，我喜欢你啊，我爱你啊...这一系列的话。好肉麻的！呵呵

I think its fate make us meet.

If u didnt continue ur work here,u couldnt meet me

If i didnt come here,i couldnt know u

If u didnt say that words to me,

I dont know wether i can accept u

If on that day,i was sure i must leave,

U did have no chance to meet me any more

But thats fate make us be together

(Of course also has ur great efforts)

U know--did u still remember that day?

I was crying,and all students in school were crying

And i know at that moment,i do have to leave

I dont wanna leave those children

I love them so much with my heart

I was forced to go away

But with other teachers help,i stayed

In the evening,u called me and want me go to the dance room

I saw u,u told me that u wanted me to stay

Acturally,all things happened to me though

I have had no reason to let me stay

I had this feeling...

a little strange

a little crazy

even a little sth bad like that!

I dont know why

just that feeling

i know now,im not only me...i have a half

and i must understand him

i have to care about him more than me

even i should think about his thoughts

i cant be alone

i cant be standing in my way

and i cant only think of myself

i didnt tell my families that i had a bf now

but they know him

and i showed them his photo,haha

i cant say what he looks like

maybe like u  all,just a man

xoxo

but i can say he is a good man to me

he likes me much

hope forever