Last weekend i went back home and had the chance to meet some old friends.
A friend updated me on his present life and his recent breakup.
Today that story came back to me and it lingered on.
So i put his story here; the roles in the story could be you, me and/or us...

并不是我不明白
只因学不会放开
这样也不算太坏
懂得爱有时无奈

其实我也想释怀
你和我没有后来
只是有时会感慨
心里面你都还在

爱情并不是买卖
我在你视线之外
想和他比一场赛
却知道注定失败

不想让你受伤害
于是收起我的爱
接受命运的安排
不要再对你依赖

偶尔也想耍耍赖
睡梦中向你表白
享受这一刻期待
不愿意再醒过来

他 倚在大门柱子旁
渐收的
眼神慌乱 而迷离
她 嘴角叼着一支烟 不屑地 轻轻地吐纳着
烟雾 在昏黄的台灯下弥漫着

 

他 裸体跪在她脚下
绝望的
眼神悲伤 却坚定
她 电话这一头询问着 娇嗔地 慢慢地捋着杂乱的黄发
目的地 目的地 目的地

 

夜 纸醉金迷的夜
远离平和与宁静的夜
欲 是吞噬昼的怪兽
它 拉上了夜的幕帘 关上了腥红色的门

 

第一次？
第几次
其实 没有区别
执起鞭子
一下 两下 三下
使劲 使劲 使劲

 

汗水夹杂着呻吟
和  起起落落的鞭声
吟唱着 青春的哀歌

 

耳边
还回荡着老板娘娇嗔的上海方言
都是老主顾，包你满意的啦。。。。。。

i finally officially watched Sex and the City the Movie.
Pleased to see all's well that ends well. 
Of love and relationship, i too was confined, confronted, and convicted.
Yes, i am pathetically technically single, and remain pathetically single as love is overdue.

The internet is a big black sucking hole sucking up all that i typed as my personal PC gets stuck and dead.

So i decide not to be a suck hole, but an Obama baby being reincarnationed...

As usual, i went to the newspaper stand the other day to see if there was anything fun, and here it was, a new mag. (not that new really), with the simple line of four words on the front cover, bursting upon my eyes: 'are you happy?' Not knowing what it was about (due partially to the hermetically sealed plastical packing), i picked it up and paid for it. But i regretted it soon after i torn away the package since almost half of the mag. was a composite of interviewees' pics and talks on what is happiness and it was like... an introductory mag. to the grassroots, from all walks of life, but who'd give a shit to what's in their m

Single and fabulous?  A question mark? Should it be single and fabulous! an exclamation point rather than a question mark? As to 'the larger the ego, the less the need for other egos around', should I put there a question mark or an exclamation point or just a full point to end up with a claim, loud and clear.

A coach called this afternoon to ask for a stemina test so I went meet him at the gym, on  the office desk I saw a book; as I picked it up, leafing through the pages, four words, four damn striking words, bursted upon my view  -  AT THIRTY, I STOOD FIRM. This scared me, the tiny me, who looked at the four words and then at himself and started thinking how it was to stand firm at such an age...

There were times, I assume, people'd rather indulge in the past, or die.
Anyway, future is not ours to see...

能不能不用梦想就把学儿上
或者 作一个快活的放牛郎

能不能没有自由还快乐地成长
或者 让风儿带我到想去的地方

能不能没有爱还能活在世上
或者 做朵野花独自绽放

能不能不用飞翔就能到天堂
或者 地狱也是一个不错的地方

或者 是匀和的鼻息
或者 是幽微的花香
或者 是清晨的露珠
或者 是叶隙的阳光

在睡梦中 吐纳
在空气里 浮荡
在想象中 升华
在时间里 酝酿

不再彷徨
不再迷惘
不要思想
不要歌唱

只要过往
只要过往

People get puzzled at times,
And that is NORMAL.


那是一堵墙
你在另一方
凿破那堵墙
你又在何方

我很想鼓掌
但 已经遗忘
不想上场
又无处躲藏

那刺眼的光
扎在我心上
其实  那不是光
只是反光