'The ability to subordinate an impulse to a value is the essence of the proactive person. Reactive people are driven by feelings, by circumstances, by conditions, by their environment. Proactive people are driven by values - carefully thought about, selected and internalized values.

Proactive people are still influenced by external stimuli, whether physical, social, or psychological. But their response to the stimuli, conscious or unconscious, is a value-based choce or response.'

'The Personality Ethics is illusory and deceptive. And trying to get high quality results with its techniques and quick fixes is just about as effective as trying to get to some place in Chicago using a map of Detroit.

In the words of Erich Fromm, an astute observer of the roots and fruits of the Personality Ethic:

下半学期到，学习模式改变

生理老师的课件，膝跳反射那张PPT恨不得用10次，一点不夸张。说实话，在我看来是很糟的Presentation，信息量相比于Blood老师少很多。

说白了就是流水帐，哈哈
昨夜的狂风似乎吹散了一切阴霾，今儿的天气格外好，无云，碧蓝，微风，扫落叶
早上起来头痛，可能最近看电脑看多了，视神经在抱怨
看英语看MATLAB上开心，早上无事，中午慵懒一阵睡个午觉竟到四点，功课还是要预习的，于是实验室蹲蹲
办公室电脑用的医院的网络，很糟，MSN、非死不可、校内通通链接困难，还好没有禁了QQ、开心、新浪博客，否则生活会有点小无趣
统计仍然是那么有趣，可惜复习后发现原来上课时候讲的是这么个意思，课后问了个极为弱智的问题，呵呵，这就是没有预习的恶果，希望学期内坚持好呢
上周科研小有成就，本周继续努力
科研比上课重要，self-motivated比导师催重要，另外还有国庆晚会的事要安排时间考虑，OK

a MATLAB frenzy, a Java frenzy, a paper frenzy, a finance frenzy and a sports frenzy

I knew a doctor once who was honest, but gentle with his honesty, and was loving, but careful with his love, who was disciplined without being rigid, and right without the stain of arrogance, who was self-questioning without self-doubt, introspective and reflective and in the same moment, decisive, who was strong, hard, adamant, but all these things laced with tenderness and understanding, a doctor who worshiped his calling without worshipping himself, who was busy beyond belief, but who had time - time to smile, to chat, to touch the shoulder and take the hand, and who had time enough for Death as well as Life.

深更半夜，一个人在厨房做三明治。两片切片面包、四片青葱菜叶、包着薄薄的火腿再点上深红的番茄酱。简单。人的心情如果如此简单多好，如果无欲无求多好，可惜当下的情绪就如番茄酱，酸的甚至是苦的。喜剧被我看成悲剧。疯狂的石头，剧情滑稽出彩，当局的人永远不知道故事的错综复杂，或许只有戏外的人才能看透。结局是典型的惩恶扬善，可我却有点同情被杀的坏蛋，也没有为好人的结局喝彩，好人为坏人擦厕所盖板，坏人为好人抹红花油，好人和坏人在一个澡堂洗澡，最后坏人狗急跳墙出车祸身亡，boss被同类杀害，好人得到宝藏却也可能永远不知道它的价值。觉得这个社会很可悲。不由得想起傻根儿，蒙在鼓里挺好的，至少不会伤心流泪，去承受无法承受的情债。也让石头里的好人永远不要知道宝藏的价值吧。

I am suffering from insomnia. It is 3:36am now but I can't fall asleep. I guess it is due to my irregular living cycle during holidays. Read the Bible to see if I can get some peace.