Weird enough, I don't feel like writing in here that much as I did before. And a lot more faster than I used to.

I guess all I've been wanting to say this couple of days is: they've been making a mistake on how to use the gesture of quotation mark correctly. Or maybe I missed that because their part is right too. Apart from referring to something else, you could still use that gesture when you are really quoting someone's saying, or what Barry did was right too. I actually thought that was kind of inappropriate, with the way he did it.

I found out actually I am a 'unneat' girl too. Maybe it's because all my hair, eye, figure and stuff. I mean I'm not that self-con

I reviewed Fs these couple of days. Feel very excited. I finally find the feeling back to keep record of the lines and many words. And I feel that it's not that easy to make a show of film. From the special features of GG and Fs, I can conclude that it's very hard for actors to recite all those lines, actually really tough. And all those angels, expressions, gestures, movements....

I have to say that when first got to know this series I felt very happy and whenever I was down I just went up to see it and after that I got cheered up, very effective. But after a while I just got tired with all these video thing. I'd rather watch them on the websites. And I thought that I lost the enthusiasm and passion for record everything new that I see. But yesterday I just found the feeling back! Maybe it's still because the situation thing or I just don't feel interesting about

I felt that if a particular thing already passed, then don't bother any more, just let it go. I just tried so hard to find the message I left in the SinaBlog Bulletin. Which one on earth did they delete from that 3 ones? I just can't remember. After a while I found that I just bothered so much, but all in vain.

I said to Mom that night before the shower. I already got out of the vortex of something. Woman, can't be controlled by the so-called love thing. Don't be so pathetic, like no one else could appreciate you. Give yourself some self-esteem.

But yesterday when I tried to recall before 18th May, did I in the world have a date with D? Otherwise, when did he say 'I went up to hug you like that you just run away'. Maybe in the text, I hope so.

I found an interesting phenomenon a couple of weeks ago. I noticed that the comment in Q are not that objective, weird enough, because they come from others. We say while in the mountain, we cannot see it clearly but when we're out and see it from the distance we can get a pretty clear and obvious picture of it. So I just found out that many girls just like to comment on someone else randomly, haven't thought twice. On the contrary, comments from the person himself/herself seems more objective. Weird huh?

That day after reviewing his mails for me during that special time, I just have to say: No one else can know what exactly the person involved has gone through. The profound feeling do belong to the very one person concerned.

Just as today's early light came in I recalled something, today of last year he sent me a little gift and although it's not real but I was still very surprised and happy. Not every day worth celebrations but some days do need memorization.

But now let's talk about something else. For months I've been working for tests, all kinds of, to be honest I'm kind of exhausted and get bored at them. But honestly speaking, I can't say that I didn't gain anything. At least I found out that my vocabulary is kind of large and, I retrieve the feeling of memorizing words, as soon as I heard & see it. And I learned such a lot of new words in the process. I heard one saying is that, anything else is nothing, vocabulary do count!! Thank you teachers, thanks mom.

Another pain is about som

These days I just feel I'm living in the mist or fog, I don't even know what I think or feel right now.

After 10th, I just thought I got relieved, so I just rest and stopped to try. And I just called him, I don't really remember whether it was before the call or after it, I just got a vague feeling that his passion just died out or vanished or sth. I don't know why and didn't know what to say. Hope things are still okay.

I got in touch with Cherry, Jojjo, ZC and many other people again. Feels good. But at the same time, I just feel that everyone's got a stable life but I... just like in the half way in the sky.. not on the ground. Actually, everyone has his/her own bitterness which he/she can't tell, I guess that's the way it is, life is fair.

I don't remember what specific stuff I've done in every precise day, but overall, I can recall that in my senior year and during the time at WSM, I always watched the soap opera. As yesterday I felt kind of good about the test, when I got home I started to think, wow, it feels so good. Since 5.9 when I got in the bathroom I suddenly feel I found the feeling that I've lost for a long long time, so the good feeling continues. I spent time on many meaningless stuff like finding the source of what she said about the test, why I mentioned that sexy black outfit.... And even I started to search the online TV websites to watch the soap operas I used to do...

I did feel I've recovered and all the senses of the past have come back to me, but according to today, it seems not. Apart from listening to SC, what else can I do? I don't feel about the soap

Really gotta say something here. Many friends may doubt where on earth I've been or am I still alive? Since for 9 whole months (wow, really that long?) I've been 'hiding': no texts, no emails, no messages no matter where... But what I have to say now is something really bad happend to me, tragedy, you can call that. Oh, almost forgot! YL, Aaron, told us some new words for that one: catastrophe!!! Or you could say cothurnus.

Well, I've almost recovered, both physical and psychological. I really miss my friends and the days we spent together. So many episodes just like movie scenes, always playing before my eyes. Harry, Julie, Vivi, Jenny and Michelle I know you are missing me and wanna know my recent news, yes, I miss you too, and I'll write back to you as soon as possible.

Wow, time really goes fast. We can't even follow his steps. But things have to be written.

Thanks Father, not this one, but the one who lives up above; the one who gave us promises in the rainbow; the one who judges us every day.... Without you, we can't live or survive. Someone should doubt you, someone should try you, someone should deny you... But we know you're always there, do right and just things. That is called rightious.

What I really wanna say is... Time does fly! Yesterday we were just playing some childish games and today, suddenly we became adults and should take on many responsibilities. Many things long long time ago, feels like just yesterday. I should say, no matter what is really out there, I must go and get it, just go for it girl! It's your games n

In the extensive darkness of the night

I thought about you, thought about your words

and I got a chill, a chill that astonished me

coz I thought you would never say something like that

You said unless I turn around and let go of me....

I cried, cried and cried...

Why, just tell me why you said that and why I cired