一次放纵之后，随之而来的是今天的萎靡不振。于是说这样的是为了更好的坚持原则。一个人需要足以抵制向不好的境地转变和很快从中摆脱出来的信念。我不能逞能，因为任何一个过程都需要时间和耐心。

    中午打电话给老大，说她已经在医院了，等待着可爱的baby的出生，也就是这一两天的事情了。这对一个女人、一个家庭来说，确实是一件大事。祝愿亲爱的老大能顺顺利利的产下一个健健康康的baby，并且一个幸福美满的家庭的真正开始。稍稍有些令人感叹的是，我们后面一代正推着我们涌上潮头，我们必须做得更好。傻傻地问老大要不要买礼物，老大只是呵呵地笑，说不用。也许我能给的最好一个礼物，就是一个好消息，而不仅仅只有我在为这个消息在付出。我告诉自己我必须做到。

    觉得在这样有些衰头脑有些混乱的夜里，整理自己生活的头绪，也并不是什么坏事。在你认定某些事情之后，不需要费脑地论证它们的正确性。

   Still no sign of your dropping by and consequent slump upsets me a little. Sometime our ambiguous relations between us make me unsettled. I know it’s not you fault but my perennial hesitation. I compel myself not to have a step toward you but to wait for appropriate chance when I can assure something that I might afford for you. Probably a triumph after long-enduring can relieve me out of that situation.     

   I went through the information I registered to make sure that there was no chance for some silly factitious faults in last day for enrolling a qualification for the test in the internet. I filled computer department of xiamen university in because of an emotional bond with a exquisite city on the coast (as the citation says “I only wish to face the

   Zhangheng ,my roommate—a nice guy with concrete thoughts, has been preparing for finding a job and it reminds me that life into real society has been pulling on the agenda. He bought a formal suit earlier and pictured himself in it for resumes. And now he will leave for Nanjing to seek a job tomorrow. I want to say “good luck” to him, while I do not want to fulfill that responsibility until I am well-prepared and skillful in my prospective vocation.

   Laoda says that I might not be accustomed to social life, so she supports me to quest for a further education. I know that someday I would live up to my obligation and benefit others as I promise.  

   No matter how you are reluctant to confront it, it is getting more urgent to find you own way to social life. The lapse of time wil

   An elaborate ceremony always follows after a spectacular celebration, especially in china. Immoderate formalism has penetrated in every respect of public activity everywhere, of which, I believe, majority of participants are sick and tired. We have to share that senseless time together after all. CUMT has survived through a perpetual changing century, undergoing 16 migrations and changing his name for 12 times.

   A beautiful and luxurious fireworks performance blossomed in the sky above mirror-lake. Notwithstanding some delay, the passion of celebration was finally fired by glaring light. It is said that a schoolfellow has contributed 800,000 to cover the expense.

   It never occur to me that the examination would be ahead of schedule dramatically without any omen. It is so a huge and unreasonable change for me that I think the ministry of education must be insane. I have no choice but to find someway to make up for the reduction of preparing time by increasing extraordinary time such as getting up earlier, canceling break at noon. You inform me of that as you learn from blog of friend of yours and comfort me that it will be fine since you presume that I be well-prepared after so long preparation.

   Honestly speaking, I feel kind of afraid and nervous about t

    早上在意识中早早地醒来，扑耳而来的轰轰的呼噜声，再也睡不着，索性起床，打开电脑，浏览人们对凌晨阿森纳和曼联的比赛的嚼舌，在我看来很假的一场比赛，阿森纳不应该输而曼联不应该赢。一夜耿耿于怀的怨气有了消散，足球是圆的，有时候精彩的付出不一定相对应着美好的胜利，人的一生多半不也是这样的吗？于是我们自我安慰，重在参与。

    收拾好，吃晚饭，骑车去上自习。刚刚把车推出来，突然后轮不转了，修车师傅还没来，只得徒步去教学楼。中午吃饭前把车推去修理，师傅看见后轮架上的一条裂缝，不禁感叹起这车的老病缠身，不好意思说这车是从他这买的，于是说，我都要大四，能用几天就凑合用吧。他问我是否找工作；我说考研；还留矿大吗；不了，四年…，够了……

    晚上翔哥要我在Q

    大个子跑进来说，你怎么没有上自习去？——'Cause it is the first Arsenal’s Weekend in new tournament

    发现原来我是这么地期待这样的日子的到来，就像先前几年虽然也意识到自己要去努力创造自己的前途，却不急于付诸行动，于是遇到这样的周末时，也可以闲散、若无其事地享受这样七天一次的心情，直到日子一天一天变得拘谨起来。

    早上上完考研数学强化班最后的课，感谢张老师这几天来把数学的幽默和聪慧注入许多人的生活，尽我们的努力去把它当做有趣且美丽并值得坚持下去直至完成的事情。

    下午去踢球作为Arsenal’s Weekend 的开幕仪式，或许只是一个能让自己信服的理由。——Go ahead ,do it if you want to

    兴冲冲地说要去听俞敏洪的讲座，不为别的，只为以后有一次听新东方讲座的经历，兴许也就这么一缘，人总是充满了想尝试各种尚未经历事物的欲望，大多数尝试只是追求曾经拥有，一种让人迷恋的感觉。

    像这样稍有名气的人来我们这样边缘化的学校开讲座的机会本来就不多，于是新奇的人们闹哄哄地一起聚在一起，一起聆听牛人的话。情绪之激动以至于学校要求学生以对百年母校的热忱来控制开场的局势。我和同学一起去了体育场，由于没有印有座位号的小票的缘故，我只能被打发在门口等待开场后可能的充人数。我的耐心历来是经不住时间的磨耗的。正要走的时候，遇上了新江，从他那拿到了小票，终得进矣。看来有个在学生会工作的舍友就是好啊。难怪在中国政府体制会产生各种的问题，不正常不合理的集权是祸根。

    俞敏洪的演讲思路已经模糊在脑海中，只是零碎地

    看来周五本来就应该是闲适的日子，难怪外国人周五的作息时间跟平常的weekdays不大一样，提前结束一天的工作来享受到来的周末。由于某省的某等级考试的需要，今晚21点之后要封楼，司空见惯了，需要大家的积极配合，该收的东西收起来，丢了可别怨天尤人。看到贴在教四门口的教务处通知，便向值班室的微笑大叔询问了具体情况，说可以放点不重要的书占位，物业不会清理掉的，觉得放心。正如当初实施物权法时，很多人松了一口气，不管钱是黑的白的，既成的事实，谁也不要去试图改变什么，谁也不可以再无事生非。于是理所应当那张桌子就成了我暂时的私有财产，神圣不可侵犯。吃完晚饭再到自习室给两张桌子“正名”，工工整整的写着几个大字，用双面胶贴在抽屉里，似乎这样就有了道义上的保障，大学生一般不敢暴露在道德的聚光灯下。

    在寒风中疾驰回宿舍，双手在寒冷中冰冷。停好车，搓了搓冰冻的手，听到平日冷清的所谓英语角传出迪吧里的

    辗转终于在偌大的公共教学楼占到了清白的座位，有意地躲在五楼的某个角落。

坐在昨天占的“考研专座”，心情突然变得安定下来，褪去了昨天空无一人教室的莫名恐慌和寂寞，安静地看书、写字，一个人淡淡的朴实。

    收到陈杞的短信说他爸今天的手术还算顺利，想起在医院见到他爸时清脆的乐观，不免担心起和他类似症状的爷爷。

    回到宿舍，打电话回家，条件反射地想起了电话卡的卡号和密码，猛得觉得好多事正如想起遗忘的号码是那样来得水到渠成，也许现在的生活不尽如人意，我们能做的只有努力和耐心的等待。老爸说爷爷明天做手术了，陈杞的爸爸做了七个小时的手术，长得让老爸感到有些担心，没有过多的描述，只是叫我不用担心，说明天会告诉我具体的情况…希望明天爷爷的手术能顺利的完成，祝福所有的人都能健健康康的。