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给我一分钟肆无忌惮

(2011-12-03 11:26:43)
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一分钟

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分类: 人生丝语

好久不上,用了很久才记起用户名和密码,有那么一瞬间,我甚至以为再也想不起来,从此只能做一个看客。最近记忆力下降了,也可能是因为事情太多,所以记不住,总之,开始有意无意的逃避些东西,好的或者坏的。

大三比想象的累得多,去年一年不知道忙了些什么,以为会得到的,却是一场空,放在过去可能会很介怀吧,现在过去了也就过去了,又不是要死要活的事情,计较的多反而烦恼。从峨眉实习回来后完全坠入赶作业的境地,两个学位确实不好搞,但是还不至于应付不了,开学的这两个月写的中英文估计都赶上过去两年的总和了,昨晚终于熬到两点四十结束了实习报告,听着寝室其他人睡梦中的声音,突然很可怜自己,何必这么挣扎。

上个月的生日基本等于没过,其实过多了也就那么回事,但是还是有那么多人记得,虽然只是QQ上一份虚拟的祝福,青岛招聘网也足够我美上半天,毕竟那些人都很久不联系了,竟然从来没忘记。好在妈妈还打了一个电话,无非是嘱咐我吃好点不要委屈到自己,现在我能满足自己的,也就只剩下食欲了。爸爸果然不负众望的又忘记了,据说是在27号才想起来,估计太不好意思连信息都没发一个,这种情况总比去年两个人双双忘记要好的多,我已经很知足。他们已经尽力给了我所能给予的最多,还有什么好抱怨的?

最近情绪很多,我已经尽力装作开心又美好的样子了,可是自己心里清楚得很,到底是不是真正开心。佟同学公务缠身,我要忙自己的事,谈个恋爱搞得跟个异地恋一样,异地恋还要煲个电话粥什么的,我校园网的一千分钟有九百都打给同学了吧,真凄凉。

Long time no, use for a long time to remember the user name and password, for a moment, I even thought that she could not remember, and only do a spectator. The recent decline of memory, or it may be because too many things, so remember, in short, naturally or half unconsciously began to escape something, good or bad.
In three the more tired than expected last year, what do not know busy, thought it would be, it is vain, put in the past may very much, now gone too soon, but not desperate thing, regardless of the many instead. After coming back from Emei practice completely fall rush job position, two degrees did not engage in, but is not unable to cope with the school, in the two months to write in English are estimated to catch up with the past two years combined, finally last night until two forty ended the practice report, listening to other people sleep sound in the bedroom, suddenly very poor himself, so why struggle.
Last month's birthday is basically equal to that before, but is more than just so so, but there are still so many people remember, although only QQ a virtual blessing, also enough for my beautiful morning, after all those people are not a long time, should never forget. Fortunately, her mother also had a telephone call, but told me to eat well don't want to own, now I can satisfy your appetite, also only. Dad really deliver the goods and forget, is said to be in 27, remembered, estimated too feel shy even information can not send a, this situation better than last year two people both forget much better, I have been very satisfied. They have been trying to give what I can give up, what else?
Recently many emotions, I have tried to pretend happy and beautiful appearance, but I know what really happy, is it right?. Tong students busy, I want to do your own thing, talk about a love is done with a long-distance relationship as a long-distance relationship, but also make a phone call or something, I campus net one thousand minutes nine hundred call classmates, how sad.
Since when do not know no longer complain, even the boyfriend, because complaining after he will blame me why to find so many things. No why, just think some things since the choice would be responsible for what, really, elected the monitor that seen consistently idle machine MA students stand up when my heart was moved, at least not alone in there, also can no longer is this thing insomnia, he rejoins the class what, I'm not a person in battle, there will always be people who work together.
The station went to the period of assault fortified positions, once a year, so a few people, together with the face of things a bit too much, this place that I learned to do a kind man, learned to forgive and Thanksgiving, today in the first tears in front of complete confiscation of live, it's not my personality, just have then a moment very afraid because of a trifling matter to lose a good friend, at least I regard him as a trusted friend, maybe I think too much of yourself, true friendship must not so fragile, always good.
Last week the roommate's mother from Shaanxi to visit her, has been very envious of those home family could visit students, since the university beginning, except for winter and summer vacation haven't seen my parents face, how many times the dreams of my mother appeared in the campus I take her to eat Sichuan food scene, this is one wish before graduation, must achieve.
The target of the next month and less confident, if failed, I will mercilessly hard laugh at yourself. Dare not to call her parents, did not dare to boy friend on the phone, some things have to face up to, break a fall afternoon, enough, please give me a minute to act recklessly and care for nobody, forget all the unhappy things, to cook their own bowl of happy face.

不知道从什么时候起不再抱怨了,即使是对男朋友,因为抱怨完他一定会怪我干嘛给自己找那么多事情。没有为什么,就是觉得有的事情既然选择了就要负责到底,说真的,选班长那天看到一贯懒散的机麻同学主动站起来的时候我内心还是多感动的,至少不必再一个人撑着,也可以不再为这件事失眠,管他班级答辩什么的,我又不是一个人在战斗,总会有人一起努力。

站里又到了攻坚期,一年一度,就这么几个人,一起面对的事情未免也太多了,这个地方让我学会了做一个宽容善良的人,学会了原谅和感恩,今天在大一的面前哭的完全没收住,这不是我的性格,只是有那么一瞬间很害怕会因为一件不足道的小事而失去一个真正的好朋友,至少我把他当做值得信赖的青岛人才网好朋友,也或许是我自己想太多了,真正的友情必然没那么脆弱,总会好的。

上周室友的妈妈从陕西来看她,一直以来都极其羡慕那些家里有家人能来看望的同学,自从上大学开始,除了寒暑假就没见过父母的面,多少次梦想着我妈出现在校园里我带她去吃四川美食的情景,这是愿望之一,毕业前一定要实现。

下个月的目标越来越没有底气,如果失败了,我一定会毫不留情的狠狠嘲笑自己一下。不敢给父母打电话,也不敢给男朋友打电话,有些事情只能自己面对,休息了一下午,堕落的足够了,请给我一分钟肆无忌惮一下,忘掉所有不开心的事,给自己煮碗开心的面。

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