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Nov 08

(2009-05-04 17:23:32)
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Nov <wbr>08

Do you know that even though there are more than 6000 types of emotions described in the Oxford dictionary, there were only about a dozen of them going through our heads on an average week, and it was even less for me in the past week. I can count them with one hand: disgusted, outrageous, disappointed, hopeless…

I was disgusted by the image I see in the mirror, as I hardly recall when did I last looked hard enough at that image to realize it has became a mediocre; I was outrageous to hear my California dream may shatter into sharp pieces for clearly unreasonable but unavoidable forces; I was disappointed at God’s will: "can’t he have some new tricks?"It gets boring to see fate repeat itself again and again after a while; and I was hopeless with the passive fighter inside me, with the quick acceptance of whatever shit I receive

 If this is the end of my story, I would have chosen to wither away with my mediocre misery.

 

It used to take only a few seconds to motivate myself whenever I told myself that I might die tomorrow. As I grow older, it takes more than 10 minutes. And now, as I am no longer trapped by all the self identity crisis and would sneer when someone mentions ‘the meaning of life’, this classic remedy just doesn’t seem to sink in.  Well, not until I see myself almost in tears when Obama made his acceptance speech.  He is definitely amazing but that’s beside the point. I couldn’t really understand what moved me so deeply at first, then I realize I saw hope, I saw dream, I saw acceptance of who I truly am, I heard ‘yes, we can’, and I mumbled to myself ’Yes, I can’.

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只不过一场暴雨就烧了

只不过一个好梦就醒了

只不过一段时光就忘了

不过如此

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