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My tea's gone cold, I'm wondering why I got out of bed at all我的茶凉了，不知道为何我总是心情忧郁
the morning rain clouds up my window and I can't see at all清晨的乌云爬上了我的窗户，我却无心顾及
And even if I could it'd all be grey, but your picture on my wall即使看到也是阴郁的色彩，而你的照片依然挂在我的墙上
it reminds me that it's not so bad, it′s not so bad 它时刻提醒我情况还不算太糟~还不算太糟
My tea's gone cold, I'm wondering why I got out of bed at all我的茶凉了，不知道为何我总是心情忧郁
the morning rain clouds up my window and I can't see at all清晨的乌云爬上了我的窗户，我却无心顾及
And even if I could it'd all be grey, but your picture on my wall即使看到也是阴郁的色彩，而你的照片依然挂在我的墙上
it reminds me that it's not so bad, it′s not so bad它时刻提醒我情况还不算太糟~还不算太糟

Dear Slim, I wrote you but you still ain't callin'亲爱的SLIM，我已经写了一些信给你，可仍然没有接到你的电话。
I left my cell, my pager, and my home phone at the bottom 我把我的手机，呼机和电话都留下了
I sent two letters back in autumn You must not have got 'em 我一共寄了两封信，你可能收不到了
There probably was a problem at the post office or somethin' 因为可能邮局或是其他什么地方出了些问题

Sometimes I scribble addresses too sloppy when I jot 'em 有时我写地址的时候字迹是有些潦草，
But anyways, fuck it, what's been up man, how's your daughter? ，草，无所谓了，说正经的老兄，你最近怎么样了，还有你的女儿？
My girlfriend's pregnant too, I'm out to be a father 我老婆也怀孕了，我马上要当爸爸了。
If I have a daughter, guess what I'm-a call her? I'm-a 
name her Bonnie.如果她是个女孩，你猜我给她起什么名字？我会叫她邦妮。

I read about your uncle Ronnie too, I'm sorry 我看到了罗尼老表的消息，很抱歉
I had a friend kill himself over some bitch who didn't wanthim.最近我的一个朋友被女友抛弃之后自杀了
I know you probably hear this everyday, but I'm your biggestfan.我知道也许你每天都能听到这些事情，但是我是你最忠实的歌迷。
I even got the underground shit that you did with Scam.我甚至弄到了一张你和Scam烧的黑碟。

I got a room full of your posters and your pictures, man.我满屋子都是你的海报和照片
I like the shit you did with Ruckus too, that shit was fat.我很喜欢你和Ruckus做的东西，那玩样真的很不错
Anyways, I hope you get this man, hit me back, just to chat 可是，我希望你能收到这封信并予以回复，随便聊两句好么？
Truly yours, your biggest fan, this is Stan. 此致，你永远的歌迷，Stan

My tea's gone cold, I'm wondering why I got out of bed at all我的茶凉了，不知道为何我总是心情忧郁
the morning rain clouds up my window and I can't see at all清晨的乌云爬上了我的窗户，我却无心顾及
And even if I could it'd all be grey, but your picture on my wall即使看到也是阴郁的色彩，而你的照片依然挂在我的墙上
it reminds me that it's not so bad, it′s not so bad 它时刻提醒我情况还不算太糟~还不算太糟

Dear Slim, you still ain't called or wrote, 亲爱的Slim，你始终没有来电或是回信，
I hope you have the chance. 我想你至少应该有点反应
I ain't mad, I just think it's fucked up you don't answer fans.我可没疯，我只是觉得你他吗的不想给歌迷回信。
If you didn't want to talk to me outside your concert 如果你不想在演唱会之外搭理我，
You didn't have to but you could have signed an autograph for Matthew.那也无所谓，不过我想你应该给Matthew签个名，
That's my little brother, man. He's only 6 years old.他是我的弟弟，他刚刚才6岁
We waited in the blistering cold for you for 4 hours and ya just said no.我们在严酷的天气中足足等了你4个小时，可你却只说了个不。
That's pretty shitty man, you're like his fuckin' idol 真他吗的恶心，草，你可是他的偶像
He wants to be just like you man, he likes you more than I do.他想有朝一日象你一样，他甚至爱你胜过于我。

I ain't that mad, but I just don't like bein' lied to.我可不是什么疯子，我只是不想象傻子一样的被耍
Remember when we met in Denver, you said if I write you 记得在丹佛时我们见过面吗？你说只要我给你写信
You would write back. See, I'm just like you in a way.你便会回信。看，我们有着相似的经历
I never knew my father neither. 我也没有父亲
He used to always cheat on my mom and beat her. 他以前经常欺骗并且经常殴打我妈

I can relate to what you're sayin' in your songs.我可以在你的歌中联想到我自己
So when I have a shitty day, I drift away and put 'em on.所以每当我遇到不顺的时候，总是听你的歌
Cause I don't really got shit else, so that shit help when I'm depressed.因为只有它能在失落的时候帮我度过
I even got a tattoo with your name across the chest. 我甚至在胸口纹上了你的名字

Sometimes I even cut myself to see how much it bleeds.有时候我割开自己的手腕，看它究竟能流多少血
It's like adrenaline. The Pain is such a sudden rush for me.就好象肾上腺素一样，疼痛突然袭来
See, everything you say is real, and I respect you
'cause you tell it. 我相信你说的一切（我敬仰你）因为那些是你说的
My girlfriend's jealous 'cause I talk about you 24/7. 我女友开始嫉妒了，因为我每天24小时都在谈论你
But she don't know you like I know you, Slim, no one does. 但是她不象我那样了解你，Slim，没人比我更了解你
She don't know what it was like for people like us growing up.她不了解在我们这样环境里长大的人
You've gotta call me man. I'll be the biggest fan 请给我回电，我会成为你最好的歌迷
you'll ever lose. 你永远
Sincerely yours, Stan. PS: We should be together too. 忠实的，Stan，PS：我们会走到一起的。

My tea's gone cold, I'm wondering why I got out of bed at all我的茶凉了，不知道为何我总是心情忧郁
the morning rain clouds up my window and I can't see at all清晨的乌云爬上了我的窗户，我却无心顾及
And even if I could it'd all be grey, but your picture on my wall即使看到也是阴郁的色彩，而你的照片依然挂在我的墙上
it reminds me that it's not so bad, it′s not so bad 它时刻提醒我情况还不算太糟~还不算太糟

Dear Mr. "I'm too good to call or write my fans" 亲爱的，你说“从来不给歌迷回信和打电话”
This'll be the last package I ever send your ass.这是我给你寄的最后一封信了
It's been six months and still no word. I don't deserve it? 将近6个月了一个字都没收到，是我自作自受么？
I know you got my last two letters, I wrote the addresses on 'em perfect.我知道你收到了我最近写的两封信，我在上面工工整整写上了我的地址

So this is my cassette I'm sending you. I hope you hear it. 这是我录的样带，我希望你能听一下
I'm in the car right now. I'm doing 90 on the freeway.我现在正在开车，高速公路上以90码的时速
Hey Slim, "I drank a fifth of vodka, ya dare me to drive?" 嘿Slim“我喝了15杯伏特加，你说我还能开吗？
You know that song by Phil Collins from "The Air In The Night"? 你听过Phil Collins的“the air in the night"吗？
About that guy who could have saved that other guy fromdrowning? 有关于一个本能挽救一个逆水者的故事
But didn't? Then Phil saw it all then at his show he found him? Phil目睹了一切，一切却已无法挽回
That's kinda how this is. You could have rescued me fromdrowning.现在情况有点相似，你本可以挽救我的生命
Now it's too late. I'm on a thousand downers now, I'm drowsy. 而一切都太晚了，我已吞下了一整瓶镇定剂，我现在感觉昏昏欲睡的。

And all I wanted was a lousy letter or a call. 我只不过想要一封回信或是一通回电而已
I hope you know I ripped all o' your pictures off the wall.我希望你知道我把墙上所有你的照片都撕掉了
I love you Slim, we could have been together. Think about it.我爱你Slim，我们可以在一起的，想想吧。
You ruined it now, I hope you can't sleep and you dream about it.可你把一切都给毁了，我希望你难以入睡并且梦到这所有的一切。
And when you dream, I hope you can't sleep and you scream about it.并且我希望你在梦中惊醒
I hope your conscious eats at you and you can't breathe without me.我希望你受到良心的谴责，没有我便不能活。
See Slim, {screaming} shut up bitch, I'm trying to talk 看，Slim，（尖叫声）闭嘴，婊子，我正在讲电话
Hey Slim, that's my girlfriend screaming in the trunk.嘿，Slim，是我的女友在后背箱里的叫声
But I didn't slit her throat, 但是我没有切开她的喉咙
I just tied her up, see I ain't like you. 我只是把她绑了起来，我可不象你。
'Cause if she suffocates, she'll suffer more,因为如果是窒息的话她会更痛苦
and then she'll die too.而且同样会死
Well, gotta go, I'm almost at the bridge now.行了，我得走了，我快到桥上了
Oh shit, I forgot, how am I supposed to send this shit out? 哦，该死，我忘了，该怎样把这玩样寄出去呢

{screeching tires, crashing sounds, car splashes into thewater}{刹车声，撞击声，车子冲进了水里}

My tea's gone cold, I'm wondering why I got out of bed at all我的茶凉了，不知道为何我总是心情忧郁
the morning rain clouds up my window and I can't see at all清晨的乌云爬上了我的窗户，我却无心顾及
And even if I could it'd all be grey, but your picture on my wall即使看到也是阴郁的色彩，而你的照片依然挂在我的墙上
it reminds me that it's not so bad, it′s not so bad 它时刻提醒我情况还不算太糟~还不算太糟

Dear Stan, I meant to write you sooner, but I've just been busy.亲爱的Stan，我本打算尽快给你回信的，但是最近很忙
You said your girlfriend's pregnant now, how far along is she?你说你的女友怀孕了，怀孕多久了？
Look, I'm really flattered you would call your daughter that.不夸张的说你给女儿取的那个名字真的很不错
And here's an autograph for your brother:这是给你弟弟的签名：
I wrote it on your Starter cap. 我把它签在了Starter的帽子上

I'm sorry I didn't see you at the show, I must have missed you.很抱歉没有在演唱会看到你，我们一定是错过了
Don't think I did that shit intentionally, just to diss you.别以为我的那些歌是故意让你心情不爽的
And what's this shit you said about you like to cut your wrists too?你说你喜欢割腕是什么意思？
I say that shit just clownin' dawg,我说唱的那些只是胡乱说着玩的
c'mon, how fucked up is you? 嘿，你怎么了？
You got some issues, Stan, I think you need some counselin'你有些问题，Stan，我觉得你应该去寻求一些帮助
To help your ass from bouncin' off the walls when you get down some.来帮你从沮丧中解脱出来

And what's this shit about us meant to be together? 你说我们将会在一起是什么意思？
That type of shit'll make me not want us to meet each other.这话让我不太想和你见面
I really think you and your girlfriend need each other.我真的认为你和你的女友应该彼此依赖
Or maybe you just need to treat her better.或者你应该对她更好一点
I hope you get to read this letter.我希望你能读到这封信
I just hope it reaches you in time.我只是希望它能准时送达
Before you hurt yourself, I think that you'd be doin' just fine在你伤害自己之前，我想你就不会做傻事了
If you'd relax a little. I'm glad that I inspire you, but Stan 如果你能放松一些的话。我很愿意我能给予你鼓励，但是Stan
Why are you so mad? Try to understand that I do want you as a fan.为什么那么愚蠢？你应该明白我很想要你做我的歌迷。
I just don't want you to do some crazy shit.我只是不想看到你做蠢事
I seen this one shit on the news a couple weeks ago that made me sick.几个星期前我在报纸上看到一则这样的报道，真的很让我感到恶心。
Some dude was drunk and drove his car over a bridge一个醉鬼开车翻到了桥下
And had his girlfriend in the trunk and she was 在后背箱里发现了他的女友
pregnant with his kid 正怀着他的孩子
And in the car they found a tape but it didn't say who it was to 车里还找到了一盒磁带，可并没有说是给谁的
Come to think about it...his name was...it was you.来看一下...他的名字是...是你
Damn.该死~

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