These days I stay at the library for most of the time, thinking about my coming test, and busy preparing for it. Meanwhile, overlooking the IR & ER & Portuguese, I just review English everyday. Sometimes surfing on the internet, I suddenly realize that a mass of things appear right in front of me. I always think over what mum has said whether my choice is good or not, coz suddenly I just come to realize the truth that after stepping on this path means in the following months or years I have to cook by myself, wash clothes by myself, study by myself, even talk to myself, smile and sob to myself, and no one is gonna pay attention to me. However, I do not get well prepared for all of these. I never thought of cooking and washing were both done by myself and studying, not to fall behind others or be one of the 70%, in the same time. I was used to regarding myself as a courageous guy and was never afraid of something. To the contrary, this time, I really get puzzled and scared, a expression_r of funk. I will shudder at the thought of leaving here, giving up all I have gained here, a kind of frustration. However, there’s a saying goes like this, “once a door opens, another must be shut.” Wish I could successfully past the test and welcome my brand new life! Soon!