Jean's Blog.

To a woman who has been married . it is a great happiness that will be a mother.me too .but the same  I suffered great trouble.

When I was pregnant.i got parotitis。So painful my left face ..and soon got a swelling. It is the dog days for me .  what ‘s more . I couldn’t eat because the swelling . I could nt open my mouth .but a new life was in my body .soon I became thinner and thinner even the weight was lighter than before pregnant. I spent almost one month during the pain  The doctor got upset because  I cant take any medicine except penicillin 。but it was no use . finally they decided to undergo an operation for me but cant use the anaesthetic。That is a frighten .experience. I lay on the operating-table. Counted silently how many the doctor cutted . and when he putted the forceps deeply into my face . I felt my head would be split. Every time  I couldn’t help yelling  because of  the  pain . The doctor  warned  me against sucking the stomachs. It would lead to abortion.. I tried my best to adjust my breath... I should protected my new baby. Otherwise all of my sacrifice  was meaningless.  now a scar lies on my left face forever.. so ugly !!!  But maybe it’s the gift my son give me .aha .

When my son would be borne .i got another trouble. Because my sickness in my childhood My spine become deformed.so they couldn’t  hypodermic injection。 Only gots shot

For a long time I was so sick and weak .i hardly can hold my son . and  hadn’t  downstairs for half an year. what’s more  . it’s more terrible that I got a so bad  mood . my husband  went out for making a living . I had to stay at  my mother’s . But my mother also so weak . . and my niece was too young at that time my father always not at home because of work . my sister also busy . it was a hard  time for me . bit by bit . I frequently went to  hysteria. Though I tried to control myself . but the most serious  is . when my son was half year old . one day . we take him to got the bacterin. On  our way home . in the taxi. I suddenly going to convulsion and following a deeply  dizzy . I felt nothing around me . this frightened my folks. Later . the same happened to me several times again . till now sometimes I still feel  dizzy .maybe that ‘s why  my family don’t wanna me go out for work . but I know that most of the cause is I got a bad mood stayed at home so long time. I need a new life .

 Thank god everything has gone . I got much better than before . My son grows up very nice . Maybe because of a close rapport. He love his mother so much .now he can help me do many things . and I never worry about everyday he cant get up early. When we go out  he takes care of me so carefully. always tell me:” mum . be careful”. Sometimes I feel I am so fortunate. God is fair to everyone I think . then i will live better later .