i wonder if i keep drinking like this... would i eventually end up as an alcoholic? but then again, i enjoy drinking. everytime im alone in the hotel room, no matter where and which city im at, my best friend tends to be a bottle of red. i think im starting to feel the lonliness creeping in on me! being on the road all the time really takes alot out of me. my mind says i can do it, but my body and voice says....slow down man! i need to remind myself constantly .....slow down mean! when will my time be up? hahah i guess its just one of my mood swing day today. i do feel alittle depressed and sad. seems like the weather has an effect on my mood, and i always thought i was a strong person. i have to be weak in order to become stronger..... i will be stronger tomorrow, but for today, just let me be a human being, complain complain and more complaints... wanting more and more and more, what do i want? i have everything. i have everything.