It was a week to circle, in the bad way.  Yes, I was an angry balloon last week, rolling here and there, ready to explode anytime when I was ruffled up the wrong way. By the end of the week I was so frustrated that I sank in my couch for a long time and I was like "What the f##k??"

A woman almost knocked me over in the middle of a bridge and she did not even say "sorry", I shouted at her like a bad character in a cowboy movie, "Do you have a problem?!" In return, the woman shouted back; louder than I did"Don't you have a problem YOURSELF?" As shocked as I was, I felt some truth in her words. I lowered my head and kept walking.

In a crowded bus, I pushed forward to find myself a seat(I know I was being selfish but I was WEAK, OK?). A man and a woman in their forties snapped at me "STOP pushing me..." Once again, I was a bad character in a movie. I did not give a shit. Just I replied calmly "I am JUST pushing, SO WHAT?" They didn't actually kill me. Civilized society, it is.

Half my groceries were missing one evening when I opened the shared refrigerator. I was holding the knob, wanting to scream my heart out. I was SO PISSED OFF! I want to KILL, the cockroach, that was laughing at me under the fridge.

My parents urged me back to take a job offer in my home town. Yes, a well-paid one but I lost temper before my mother could finish the sentence. The smothering parenting thing! Sometimes I just wish they could leave me alone. I have a life here, although I am not always sure where I am going. But anyway...

It is definitely not something fabulous to share but I am just hoping this bad week can put me into perspective. If I keep being this grumpy and nasty-tempered...No, I won't.

July 18。晴。