For a while I almost got confused by my own' music
preferences. What do I like really? When I met Xiao Ding, a good
friend of Kai, who just came to town for business, I just
re-realized one thing: music does not have a fixed line, what
genes, what styles; it's a combination of all kinds of ingredients,
what matters the most is how you like it, how it makes you feel, or
how it moves you inside or simply let you swing along.
I feel bad. I was happy to see Kai's friend yesterday. I think
we had a good time. I was afraid my existence may make those two
dear dear friends feel awckard 'caz I haven't met Ding before.
But soon I was relieved to find out he was easy to talk to. Music
seems to always be the topic that makes me feel myself.
And now because of some really stupid fight, I am sitting here
listening Kate Walsh, my 2009 favorite, who makes my heart
ache a little. I hate him so much now, I hate what happened. I'm
sure he thinks that he did nothing wrong. It's my fault, me
being ridiculous and crazy. I don't care. I did nothing
so serious that could make him say those things to me. Yeah he's so
tough and never say he's sorry. Why should I care about you if you
don't? Why should I care about you when you don't care if I love
you? 歌词大概这么唱。
好傻啊，每次吵架似乎都没有造成过任何不良后果，但之后的几个小时总是苦闷。觉得他都无所谓，多半没事发生，我却很沉重地在想到底发生了什么，是谁的不对，谁不对在先，谁不对多一些。他从来没有过来主动抱过我，哄过我，都是我自己想通了，觉得闹别扭也没用，始终不能解决问题的。总是尝试说服自己要看淡，没有纯粹爱情，没有纯粹感情，没有纯爱的婚姻家庭。都对都对，自己父母的例子摆着。
为什么最爱的人总伤你最深？我算是明白了，根本不是谁上你最深，是太爱了，伤心的时候也觉得是成倍地侵袭过来，无法承受。I
wish I wouldn't care. Maybe I can only be careless when I know that
he's not the one. I'm so pathetic. Why should I be happy or down
because of a man?他也没什么不好，或许就是不合适吧。他总说我们也许真的不合适吧。
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