Destruction pursues the great.

Maybe you were the reason.

I was whole when sitting aside you.

Leaving for no reason did cut me deep.

Afterwards, I've always been pieces.

Four years isn't easy,　fortunately, I survived.

You had a special place deep in my heart.

You had.

It’s a shame that we couldn’t get to know each other as real friends.

Perfectionist, are you tired?

Upon my word, life is incomplete most of the time.

Life is fading with plain days going by.

That's why I'm gonna drop the puzzle, drop the obsession,

and,　most importantly, you.

Can't keep a corpse in one's heart forever, right?

Finally, it decays and stains eagerness for pure love.

The expiration Date is today.

My irrational caring towards you ends yesterday.

Do take care, ok?

过去3年既大部分时间都好似活响唔太适合我既六中既阴影入边。

搏命读书，好似高考咁。

捻下你，好似好唔甘心。

阿娇话：距唔在乎你，你有咩好唔甘心？

突然参透所谓“甘心”与否既要义。

确实，你不是真正的快乐。

而我，也不是真正喜欢你。

只是两个孤寂的幽魂半路碰上而已。

我唔捻你咯。

我要学识好好去玩。

要学识好好生活。

你都要活得好开心好开心，好开心。

学习做好多野去转移注意力。

唔想太FOCUS过去，毕竟，真系就来4年。

时间话快唔快。

要捻D现实既野。

OR就系太惊现实，要做D准备，令我大学过得甘纳闷。

最近2星期都做D我过去以为好浪费时间既事。

感觉OK,因为好放松。

如果唔捻以后，现在系几幸福既。

风平浪静。

好快自己就唔系学生。

本身想孤注一掷继续做下学生，但可能太在意分数，失去学习本身既意义。

去社会混迹下先咯。

宿舍既窗口有无敌山景，间中都可以望到晚霞。

朝霞不出门，晚霞行万里。

Hey, how have you been?

每次饮完酒都想同你讲。

但用短信讲过1次好似石沉大海。

无乜面目，耗尽勇气。

我知我转牛角尖，无谓地执着。

Nick:You always want things you can't have.

The problem is I haven't had anything pretty in relationship.

...Except...

Whatever.

I do care for you.

So, take care of yourself too.

呢句话都几……自私。

遮系我宜家爱你，我下一秒唔爱你，都系我话事，唔关你事！都几无责任感同安全感噶喔。

无拘无束既爱，为爱而爱，确实系几诱人，讲好过做。

呢句话都几……洒脱。

我爱你咪爱你咯，洗乜你爱翻我！

传说中既爱情白痴，系米真系好似耶稣咁感动半个地球？

呢句话都几……无逻辑。

我爱你，你就被爱，我实系做D野令你觉得你被爱，如果唔系咩叫爱？

唔通爱净系一种飘渺既感觉？与物质或者被爱既实体无关？

呢句话都几……晦气。

如果唔系你认为我对你既爱唔岩你心水，你就唔会质疑我，而我都唔会咁样哒翻你。

哇，如果抱住呢种捻法，被爱都几HURT喔！

呢句话都几……儿童不宜

大人既世界我唔明，问号问号汗汗汗！

最近又胡思乱想，好想有个自己既地盘，响上面画下连环画之类。

我唔知做乜，好似上瘾甘狂更新QZONE.

搏人气？我无必要吧。好低调噶嘛我~

自己讲起身都唔太相信。

乜都好，就系唔想俾D琐事烦，TRY LET GO.

HOW？

唔想复习，唔想做任何野，好懒，天气唔好！！！！~~

压力大，狂食野，呢个学期已经肥左8斤，唔可以再堕落啦@！@！！！

我要振作！！！！

点知变成同距数男人。

呵呵。

我地既了解又加深咯。

甘就识左距9年，时间真系恐怖~~~
我发现我有皱纹添。

哈哈，当晚又勒令自己减肥。

1个学期肥10斤确实系好过分。

我真系要自省。

每次见完牛屎都变得好有冲劲。

距就系有呢种伟大既能力，鼓舞距D朋友，当然包括我。

QQ度俾人地炒到万几蚊，自己得果千几蚊。

我都有买起过距喔，呵呵。

距建议我考专8同报关员等其他证，总之有就考。

其他人讲，我无咁激动，但此君不同~

呵呵~~
这就是友谊~~~！~！~

当晚我翻去就跳肚皮舞，呵呵~！~~

努力嘛~！！我又充满力量啦@@!!!

唔知点解呢排好软弱，无乜目标吧。

讲出来又无乜人明白我做咩甘困顿。

只好求其稳DTXT度日。

今日又落雨了。

气压好低。

个心口闷闷下甘。

我几时先去到谷底呢？

我好需要一个反弹喔~~~

撒野撒野~！！！！

突然之间好想稳个肥妹揽下添。

呵呵，呢个肥妹系肥美子挂，应该都几好揽。

宜家够肥嘛。

4月肥左6，7斤，难怪心脏负荷唔到。

部相机总系影唔到我想要既微距，闷

睇来要啥去ALAN小朋友度拿本MENU睇下

最近GG都唔可以令我兴奋甘噶。

有D剧情太粘稠既感觉。

可能因为我肥左。

呜呜！！！

呵呵~~~

喜欢在这里撒野~

唔需要有逻辑，思路~~~

好挂住你啊我~~~~

又放又拿，甘就会有肌肉喔~~

甘我D心肌功能米会劲D咯~~~

嘻嘻~~

BRAVO!

以前妈妈响GZ住，我仲可以响幻想入边潜建一个只有我同妈妈既两口之家。

幻境入边：30几平方米既单身公寓，柚木地板，彩色马赛克瓷砖，粉红色墙纸，开放式厨房，纯白色TOTO浴缸，OSIM按摩椅，Panasonic 家庭影院，IKEA 组合书枱……

高中起我就好怕翻屋企面对间房四边墙同一大叠书。

唔着果对鞋真系无人知咩感觉噶。

人地羡慕我同外公两个人住，够自由。

我苦笑。

我得到既，唔正系我失去噶咩？

好在有幸福既好朋友连同距地屋企人。

Yen屋企，佩佩屋企。

感受到持续家庭温暖既地方居然唔系自己地头，讽刺。

有一句话我好中意：Friends are the family you choose.

好似出自“前毕太”之口，无从稽考。

家人无得拣，就要拣好朋友。

多谢你地一路甘锡我，你们比同我有血缘关系既人强多了！

宜家我仲可以响度写呢D野都系因为有你地。

多谢！Thank you!  Merci!  Muchas gracias!  唔该！！

我张床都俾外公个契女侵占，我非走不可。

之后会好少翻来呢个曾经叫屋企既前进路小地方吧。

我唔怕面对任何人，我惊距地唔好意思面对我。

为左减少争端，主动投降咯。

属于我既胜利唔响呢间屋度。

或者间屋所有权在我，真系可以少奋斗十年八年。

我从来唔否认钱既重要性。

我宁愿留翻D时间训好D，抖擞下精神，努力来稳钱自立，都唔想挖空心思占人地便宜。

以后我翻广州就住死党Yen同 Annie度噶啦，多谢距地已经留左个牙刷位俾我。

人生于世上有几个知己，有几个肯让半张床俾我既知己？

如果只可以从呢度拿走一样野，距将会系相簿，入边只有我D好朋友、同学。

一路都无机会同屋企人影，可能系注定无乜缘分，唔强求。

甘我就将距地留俾呢间屋啦。

别了，前进路82号！！

我习惯食走我D坏心情。

妈妈好难得翻GZ一次，煲左煲鲍鱼猪骨煲鸡。距就陪住我度过今晚。

今晚屋企得我一个，暂时好静，知道阵间又系场腥风血雨，宜家要好好奢侈下。因为又可能以后都唔会响呢边屋度写野。

话说娘亲去赴鸿门宴，摆其上台者系我外公=距老豆。

In short: 外公个继仔、继新抱、契女，3个十年都未出现个既人突然翻来敬老。

实质：翻来争屋。

由细到大我都唔明白呢几十平方有咩甘值得几代人尔虞我诈。

宜家更唔想去浪费脑细胞。

自己同自己讲：努力稳钱，买过间俾云姐。

有D不忿既系，感觉上又被背叛多一次。

同外公住左将近15年，轻轻感受到小小从未感受过既父爱，又整获杰野我同娘亲叹。

Auntie Jane 讲得好到肉：男人断气果秒都系捻住女人。

唔愿意明白点解甘老都仲入花丛。

由细到大，外公都唔知戒过几条女，道理上我应该习惯，今次我都应该要睇开。

准确来讲应该系体谅。

OK，响人类学角度，我原谅距、理解距。

但社会学角度，替代式既父爱灰飞烟灭，我不得不不再在乎距。

你还能让我怎样呢？

阿妈成日讲：血浓于水，亲情。

我反问：呢D系咩亲戚来噶？！

我唔奢望边位直系亲属可以毫无怨言甘帮我Cover 3，4万卡数。

至少俾个似样既家我。

似样：不求有功，但求无过。至少唔好日日吵交。

每次听到：打是情，骂是爱。我已经干呕。

你地甘多情甘多爱，留翻俾出面D二奶、八姨太。

我好惊吵交，吵吵下就变暴力事件。

我仲记得屋企个厅成摊血。

甘多血唔捐D去Red Cross？

无喊啊我，因为我要求个天，希望分得出胜负，甘以后就无纷争。

最好出人命，系我死都唔紧要噶。

每次屋企人吵交都可以以我为源头，我扑亲要闹，我唔记得开灯要吵，我夜小小翻屋企话我衰唔切。

我祈求响10岁生日果阵，个天会派D天使来解脱我。

无实现到，所以近几年我都唔许愿咯。

COUNTNEY话：slow down, listen to yr heart. don't rush to a decision.

 翻家途中行内环，树木森处，东山古老大屋傲视一栋栋钢筋高楼。暖流由右手食指涌向左心房，快感莫名…东山少爷？哈哈哈，High到鸡皮疙瘩…但吾知H乜，原来我系甘表达H. 小惊…我真怪～

传闻我地GZ友都有洁癖，对，人一定要干爽！出汗只feel真系H，但之后“粒痴”果只感觉足以精神上杀我几十次！夏天，多数男仔俾我既感觉就系好“粒”，我D洁癖扩大！怕怕！

我识既男仔入边，称得上“干净”可能就系彬彬同基佬荣。夏天4次凉真系吾少得！GZ夏天除左令我个鼻辛苦仲令我更讨厌男仔，天气既错！吾怪你，吾怪自己。可能峥嵘所指“美子，你好远”，就系呢个意思。

冲完凉出街又系大汗DUP细汗，不过响未出汗，身心最干净之前整翻几野ESCADA香下，生命总算有令人爽既地方。

几日前。

我妈妈云姐打长途问候我：“甘早翻学校？唔留翻响GZ过情人节？”

好明显，距系闰紧我。

我苦笑：“有先得噶～大侠”

云姐：“甘又唔系甘讲既，留响GZ度玩下嘛。”

我狂笑：“哈哈哈，有咩好玩啊。翻学校执野准备开学好过～

哈哈，话唔定……我响学校收埋好多个你唔知遮～”

电话那端一片沉默。。。。。。

我地一齐笑好耐～～～～

我娘亲真有趣！

甘多年好似得两个情人节系有人陪下，第一次系高中，睇周星驰度过，真系好搞笑好开心噶；第二次就系同Kan师弟过，此君同我表弟有D似样，都系中山既朋友，特亲切。记得Kan好捧我场，帮衬我买月饼啦，帮我扑飞去调酒晚会。

响几个月之前，相信距都响度计划今晚挂。我都系。

得闲系必然既，大家明噶啦，5讲。

我呢个无聊人好努力甘令自己有D野做，情人节晚。计划系请距食cheese cake报答距。

都奇怪距居然得闲陪我呢个“阿婆”，哈哈，or say，老女人。

原来又系无奈，距地：性格不合。

我去食我最中意既：spaghetti, cheese cake,  饮左小小酒精饮料，传说得0.4度。

都系觉得厨神美煮既比较适合自己口味～～

撞到阿嵘同FISH，仲恩爱得令人眼红，哈哈哈！！！

5知点，我地觉得培正夜游，应该系陪“正”夜游，我自诩正。

哈哈，咪打我啊，山顶既朋友。

Kan仔话，第一次见我上台拿奖觉得我好鬼高斗，后来倾落发现唔系。

唔知啊，不过佩莉小朋友话中意好串既美子，即使有时想俾我两巴，哈哈Love you.

我都不知既平易近人，哈哈，亲民。

又发癫添，扯开了。

今晚响Kan仔身上学到唔少野，我都认同：

“人既唔幸福系比出来既，所以唔好比较。应该甘讲，适当刺激自己前进，但唔好太过。

就好似头先经过既一个女仔，距揽住一大扎花，好彩我遮住唔俾你睇，如果唔系你一定会妒忌。”

我笑左好耐：“下？我净觉得个女仔好矮。我都唔中意玫瑰既。

            好，你差我一车花，我要粉红色向日葵～！！！！！”

一路都好惊情人节呢个日子。It’s set for losers to some degree.

据说如果两个人一齐开心，日日都系情人节，洗乜等呢日来庆祝。

唔知呢，从未同边一个人去过果个stage.

Kan仔仲话，“拍拖好难日日都甘新鲜。”

呢个就sure啦，做朋友都唔系日日痴到实啦。空间！各自既生活。

“如果每日打电话成为任务，都几辛苦诸位。”

又岩喔！

“女仔真系烦，你成日稳距就嫌你烦；唔问距又话你唔紧距。都唔知点好。”

女仔系烦啊，甘你地男仔又要招惹？真犯贱。哈哈！！！

情人节，同朋友仔夜游培正，感觉好平静……

有时会有D好傻既捻法，困顿，难过……一捻到你地，觉得5舍得，5敢捻落去。

幼稚是我。

继续好无逻辑甘写落去。

最近妈妈晚晚都打电话俾我，我好似距讲甘，越养越细，越来越要距TUM。

再落去我就更依赖距了。

家姐同我讲“播”个总设计师桃姐惨烈过我好多，但距痛距会忍，过腰蛇距都忍到。

我同妈妈讲我琴晚训得好好，叫距唔好再担心我。

I'm pulling myself together.

如果我可以忘记训5着、早醒、头痛、无记性、理解力差、口语退化、无乜目标，可能我就可以运作正常。

I am what I pretend to be.

我痛，但我忍。

我痛，扮5痛。

可能就5痛了。

多谢大家既关心！

我想讲我好好等大家爽下，但5想欺骗观众，对不起，我不好。

近半年发生5少事，所幸不涉及男人，系D关于自己前途既事。

我迷茫了。

自己既专业系经济，但暑假作业既论文令我知道自己既知识究竟有几短缺。

打开新浪财经，除左明白CPI上升，一无所知，无从入手。

扬扬安慰我话自己睇书，我都5知睇乜好，或者系我比较功利OR自学能力弱。

我不断怀疑自己。

宜家D宏观经济搞到我就来癫。 Not understand a single damn word.

我D英语，特别系口语响度退化紧，剧烈地，我对住曾经好熟悉既外教居然讲5出野。

我将责任归咎于学西班牙文用死左5少细胞，做家教对D语法过于执着，反而改变左自己一贯用小词既作风。

可能因为紧张，失眠，我既记性每况愈下。

我小学试过第一次见海之后，可能玩得太HIGH，5记得晒课本D野，成绩就系甘线低。

赖下先得。

一嗒落床，尤其系中午就会胡思乱想一个中午，下午就无心机做野。

睇左2个中医，一个D药包包5同无讲明先后，无好转。另外一个连脉都5洗把，唯有听日食多剂等运到。

重感冒未清喔。个人沾寒沾冷甘。块面5知出左几多恐怖野，好惊好惊，好丑好丑。

公公好担心我既情况，惊我捻5开喔。确实系未捻开，有时我自己都惊左我自己。

好彩全程都有公公照顾我，如果5系干尸响宿舍都似。

觉得自己宜家好颓废，好差劲。翻学等翻屋企，星期一等星期五。

5想埋怨呢间学校，但真系要等运到来撞到D好老师先可以响课堂度俾心机读书。

我都想靠自己，但睇咩书？

总为小事烦恼，有选择困难，大事就更加啦。

无人无物，我5知以后自己可以做咩。

最烦既系5知自己宜家可以做D咩来令自己以后可以做D咩野。

阿娘就成日话我捻太多，我好怕以后连自己都养5到，点孝敬距？

压力好大～！！！！

好羡慕响大学入边好开心既大家～！！！

俾几条好桥来行下啦～！！

系  别：经济系                   专   业：06级国际经济与贸易                

Name: May                 Director: Courtney Nottingham

        May, Running after the Flame

Excitement at Guangzhou Baiyun International Convention Centre

      When it got light, I was on a speeding bus. The driver was as impatient as much as we were. Within an hour, we arrived at the Baiyun Intentional Convention Center, the place where the Olympic torch was lit up in Guangzhou.

     One golden building caught my immediate attention because it was ringed by about twenty thousands enthusiastic citizens. Numberless eyes were kindled with excitement, expecting for the torch.

     While waiting in the crowds, I talked to the people around me.

     “We are playing hookey for my country,” some students chuckled when they told me how they were able to get there.

     “I asked for sick leave,” a man with a camera chimed in.

     “We just landed Guangzhou,” an old couple added.

     "I got here at 1:00 AM to take this incredible spot."  A woman standing at the very front said, pride lighting up on her face.

       Their passion was hot enough to light up the torch, even melt it.

     As the sound of drummers began, cheers greeted the appearance of the Olympic torch. I saw the torch was held by a torch bearer and escorted by dozens of officials. I was so excited to see the torch that I forgot to breathe. Yet before seeing it lit up, I was flooded away.

     My excitement mingled with disappointment. I couldn’t help but run the torch relay route, hoping to catch a sight of the flame on the Olympic torch.

     Half an hour dripped away. The cheering was getting louder. My pulse was quickened by excitement. The very last thing I expected was the flame flashed by in no time. What a shame that I was standing in light by so many tall people!

     Being disappointed one more time didn’t discourage me at all. How many times had China been disappointed before she became the host country for the 2008 Olympic Games? The answer was “A LOT!” So I made a bee-line for the next station without any delay.

Long journey to Baiyun Mountain

      Before long I found a bunch of students in bright red, marching along the street. They lifted up huge banners said "One world, One China!" simultaneously. Obviously, they were on their way up to Baiyun Mountain, pursuing the spark of the flame. The patriots sang the chant rhythmically, “Cheerio, China!” which rocked Guangzhou thoroughly.

     People from all walks of life flocked to them after hearing their tremendous voices. Gradually, the shiny red group grew larger and stronger. I just followed their steps fascinatingly.

     Sometimes they ran with the speed of light. I could never get to the front of the group, not to mention see the flame in that huge group. Following them for two hours, I made up my mind to drop out and galloped to the next station by myself.

Lost in my way   

      Unfortunately, not knowing what the next stop was or how to get there in time, I got lost. It seemed all light in my life was going out. 

     In desperation, I asked my uncle, a policeman, for help. He gave me red light by insisting "It's too crowded! Why don't you just stay safely at your dorm and watch the live show? Why do you have to see the flame so badly in hell?"  He put out my light crudely.  

     I was in dead silence because watching live broadcast was next to the last choice according to my light. He who is sitting safely on the fancy car will never see what I saw, feel what I felt, and love what I loved. I had to stand on my feet and find the way back to my destination.

Hope was back

      I bought a local newspaper at a tiny tent beside a bus-stop which was not that easy, as the newspapers were snapped up by citizens. A sponsor reminded the residents in the headlines:

         Put on red clothes to welcome the Olympic holy flame.

         Cheer for china.

         Chinese, red up!

     "Why was everywhere in the city filled with bright red color?" was answered. Then came my savior, a bus would pass the Sun Yat-sen's Memorial Hall. I jumped on the over packed bus, thinking to myself that “I have two hours before it passes there. I stand a good chance to arrive there beforehand, and explore a higher, safer place as my private watch-tower.”

     In front of my target place, a great number of excited people were waiting vexedly, streaming out of the pavement. It was an ocean of red shirts and red flags. The roads were red. Their passion burnt up Guangzhou intensely. They might never get to know me, not knowing that their patriotic action moved me to tears.

      Since the Sun Yat-sen's Memorial Hall was occupied, I turned to go to the Haizhu Square.

Anxiety in McDonald’s

      Hundreds of customers’ body heat burnt up the fuse, making the air conditioners quit, boosting up my fatigue.

     I ran into my friend accidentally. And she offered a chair to me immediately. I couldn’t thank her more, sincerely.

     In a short period of time, she helped me make a reasonable plan to watch the flame, giving me several tricks. My energy boosted thanks to her inspiration and encouragement. And she became my company ever since.

     Waiting in the restaurant impatiently for two hours, we discovered the stairs down the road might make a terrific spot. Then we got it.

     The Butterfly Effect worked perfectly. The teens rushed behind us. Within a minute, we were surrounded. The coke in the Olympic Cup from McDonald’s was heated up by the folks instead of my hand. I was taking the risk of being crushed to death. At that point, I completely understood why the followers going on a pilgrimage to Mecca. I was one of them, to some extent, in some way.

     An hour crawled by, the cheers intensified. In this long distance, the torch was a tiny sand in the desert. The worst thing was it appeared like a meteor, disappeared in one seconds. Some were sorry for missing the flame. Some were in the dark, not knowing it had gone.

     As it turned out, any plan encountered with the passionate Chinese was far from perfect.

Conscience told us we should speed to the subway, and go for Tiyuxi Road.

     In the subway, I experienced numerous Chinese, overloading the train. Everyone in Guangzhou was heading for the torch.

Endless Waiting at Tiyuxi Road

      As my friend and I rushed out of the subway entrance, we were part of the wave which welled up the Tiyuxi Road. Then we captured a not-so-front position. Four hours ahead of the schedule time didn’t offer us any advantage because hundreds of thousands of people were hungering for the torch. Long period of waiting kicked off.

     Half an hour slipped by, a blonde girl stuck a mini five-star flag on her boyfriend’s forehead merrily. The slogan “One World, One

Dream” had it right. We were all dreamers pursuing the torch in our

own way.

     Two hours passed, some happy children were raised on their

fathers’ wide shoulders. If only I had two more meters in height.

     Three hours later, some anxious country laborers climbed the

trees as well as the buses. I prayed for their safety, whole-heartedly.

     Four hours passed, the windows of the skyscrapers were opened

by some sneaky white-collar workers above. I hoped the

absent-minded action would get some special forgiveness from their

bosses.

     Four and a half hours more, the workers joined us excitedly right after they were off from work. Hey, buddy! Welcome!

There came the torch

      I daydreamt in the crowds, traveling tediously through millions of years.

     As the cheers skyrocketed to a new peak, I knew it was coming. I jumped up with my maximum strength in order to catch it through the block of my thick layers of fellows.

     The first try, no torch.

I took a second chance, no flame.

A third shot, nothing.

I kept on until I heard a girl sobbing uncontrollably behind me. I turned around, and I discovered a bright light in a tall black girl’s eyes.

     At that point, I was so shocked that I forgot to breathe. I got the Olympic Holy Flame finally. In her gorgeous emerald eyes, the flame lit up all colors of faces flooding in Tiyuxi Road; it lit up the glory of the People’s Republic of China; it lit up this magnificent planet.

Time stood still…

Way back home

      I didn’t remember how exactly I returned to the place where a bus would come and send us back school. Then I delightfully discovered a lot of students from our school, PeiZheng College, wearing clothes with "I love china more than ever!” on it, front and back.

     “I didn’t see the flame clearly.” A girl complained.

     “Whatever! Feeling the patriotic passion is the only thing that matters!” A boy comforted her.

That was also a bright red flame burning in my eyes as well as in my heart. They made me see the bright picture of china.

China, my mother land, I love you!

You are worth every single Chinese to fight for!

My trophy

      I’ve took a glance at the torch, even not with the flame on it. I saved that precious moment in my everlasting memory with the help of one mini Chinese National Flag, a newspaper of the special day, and a bright red Olympic Cup from McDonald’s.

     Lying in bed with heat exhaustion, I could still picture the flame, my dear zealous fellows, and my cute foreign friends.

     Region, nation, race, gender, and age don’t matter at all. There was a very same flame burns deep down in our hearts. And it sheds a light on us:

We are from one world,

We have one dream!

对，人一定要干爽！

出汗只feel真系H，但之后“粒痴”果只感觉足以精神上杀我几十次！

夏天，多数男仔俾我既感觉就系好“粒”，我D洁癖扩大！怕怕！

我识既男仔入边，称得上“干净”可能就系彬彬同基佬荣。

夏天4次凉真系吾少得！

GZ夏天除左令我个鼻辛苦仲令我更讨厌男仔，天气既错！

吾怪你，吾怪自己。

可能峥嵘所指“美子，你好远”，就系呢个意思。

即使冲完凉出街又系大汗DUP细汗。

不过响未出汗，身心最干净之前整翻几野ESCADA香下，

盛赞生命总算有令人爽既地方。正！

一支香水，一种味足矣！仲有甘多，应该有排用挂……

我同ESCADA既关系，就好似响最纯洁既时候与最爱缠绵——时机真紧要！

男人如香水。

男人，响岩既时候出现，效用先大，而且一个就够。

少量汗珠揉入香水蒸气入边就似麝香甘sexy，男人沉浸响独特女人香入边；

中量汗液同香味由纠缠变成冲突，100日既新鲜感一过，男人麻木了；

as time goes by，即使无汗，果一个个心野既分子都会借助女人既体温挥发，而且女人越热烈、急促，散飞得越快～逃，系男人本色；

大汗淋漓时，再格硬喷几下，简直系瞎搞和，香水太浓情，女人吾清醒～男人可以响情海入边做几分钟水抱？

男人如香水。

我有吾少香水系人地送，自己买既只有一支。   

真系好中意果个渐变色既樽，诱惑既水果甜味。

而其他果D香水只系点缀下生活，无法争宠。

或者会有用完距既一日，或者会转第只牌子第只味，只要距令更我舒服；

或者会呢世都继续醉心于ESCADA，因为合拍，因为习惯，因为同化。

又暴食，一晚三餐，afa ayen，多得你地两公婆吾少！汗！
欠我既荷包要还啊！

小纳闷，浮躁，想发作，但…控制得还好，只系短牛屎，宣泄下郁闷情绪，自己解决，点知条死友吾SO阿拉，事后郁闷。

家姐，我决定自己修道噶啦，吾好逼我拍拖啦！
你结婚结束单身，我祝福你，由衷地！
haha, 但晒幸福要有个度哦～～
咩衣家吾急以后有排急既理论，真系难入耳。
你系太子女，全世界都紧张你既大事系十分正常
要你快趣生个B出来继承祖业，理解。
但如果你未稳到MING，你会吾会因为压力而是但嫁个啊？
我曾经帮你抵制过逼你结婚果班人，做人要感恩，你教我噶…
知道你关心我，有好多野急唔来既，你明白噶～

目前觉得一个人，好似小朋友甘，几5错～
或者你地觉得系孤儿仔甘，但我好享受～
呢种甘简单既生活。

生活可以有几简单？就好似......
一个人去完英文角后，有小草既味道伴我游翻宿舍；
每日自己煮三餐、打扫宿舍、洗衫，听下英文；
每日起身就做形体操；
中午冲个冻水凉，拉阵筋，训午教；
下午起身冲个豆腐花食；
上课有时听课，有时盘算下阵间煮咩送，计划放假做D乜；
夜晚复习课本，睇美剧边拉筋；
冲热水凉，按摩下淋巴，敷下面膜；
又训过，最近多野忙，可能睡眠不足，我努力改善。

原来真系可以甘简单～好简单，好单纯～
将自己照顾得健健康康，无胃痛、失眠似乎已经系大成就；
可以专注学习我喜欢既英文、经济、市营、西班牙文已经系大幸福。吾好俾压力我同其他任何人啦～
我开心咪得咯～
我大学时间已过一半，所剩无多，功业未成，不容虚度！

用方丽娟既话：小女子宜家要以事业为重，感情既事，随缘啦～

距个样又可爱左啦～  我好似终于又瘦过距～～兴奋中～@！！！！

彬彬，你放心啦，欠你果餐一定响你去澳洲之前搞掂～～等我～～

不过，响我整俾你食之前，你要补整餐俾我食～应承过我噶嘛～～～

因为呢餐只系罚你迟到～

哈哈～～

我地抽左只5知系水手定护士既HELLO kitty~~~爽～～～

星期六上午同彬彬去意粉屋食spaghetti，正到～～～

不过我有信心我可以整得好食D～～～～我要奋斗！！！！厨神美～～

颖仪赞我整D海带绿豆沙好得，我好开心，多谢颖仪！

哈哈哈！我大受鼓舞！睇来我离厨神美既目标又近一步！哈哈哈！

你甘样逼你自己，甘多怨言，我惊你未读完书就吾掂！

因为有对现实有不满同怨言所以我米努力读书，赶上人地咯！

你就系读到太偏激！你以为你响我面前强颜欢笑我吾知咩？费事拆穿你！

系你D亲戚朋友教育我要体贴D，我米体谅你，有问题自己解决。

一家人要真诚，我宁愿你坦白！

甘我真系好冤枉。

冤枉？我对你对得住天地！你米以为得你读书辛苦，其他人做野吾辛苦

呢个就系我由细到大都吾同你讲我自己D问题既原因！

叫你举下例，你就话我将自己D读书气俾人受。

原来同你讲我学校既事，寻找你意见，稳小小关注就系你眼入边既“将读书气出落人度”，我无言。

因为你已经够尽力令我幸福，我响甘辛苦既你面前讲自己成长遇到既问题可能太自私了.

所以我选择响你面前表现得开心D，吾想你担心。

点知，响你眼入边都系错，今次逼到你爆发。

对唔住。

由小学差2名做吾到推荐生，同六中失之交臂；

升高中想去东山读七中，入校队打波，扩招、考高分左去六中被磨左3年；

到高考报志愿连华师都吾服从分配、B线栏全留空，最后补录到PZ。

似乎无边次自己确实可以做到选择，时势环境主宰晒。

我可以拣既除左尽力读就无他，纵然不满。

读到想呕、喊都继续挣扎；

把握每个我认为对能力有所提高既实践机会；

想买有用资料、报读技能培训班，遭遇资金问题系常有既事。

好似暑假去新世界西班牙文班都系自己赚，

或者来得太易就唔会珍惜，你成日同我讲既道理。

对我来讲，从来无野系无缘无故甘来。

呢次系我认为可以改写自己命运既机会，可能时不再来。

个人响大国抗衡间无比渺小，可以做既就系利用时势。

可惜我未讲自己想点，遇到咩问题未解决，责骂已经撕裂理智。

议案未上交，谈何通过？

问题只可以自己解决，我只不过愿意提早咩起自己D责任，亦无权怨恨环境。

一向认为“成功”＝家庭环境/个人努力＝50/50，衣家比值应该上升不少。

话我唯心好，咩都好，反正我一直认为“经济基础决定上层建筑”与“内因是事物发展的动力，外因是外部条件”根本就系矛盾！！

我反问：每日翻学吃喝玩乐就叫好？

吾够钱玩，摊大手板就叫家人之间既真诚？

边个吾知享乐好？

边D人吾叮嘱我俾心机读书？

我都尽力捻住大嬷嬷果“一个信字”，每日同自己讲：天道酬勤！然后自己捻办法解决。

求人？未到最危急关头都吾敢奢望，宁愿自己挨。

“睇住自己碗饭来食”系你教，“吾好指望任何人”系家姐讲。

现实、独立，居然被指责为：功利！再次无言。

大嬷嬷俾我既遗言系：做人一个信字，要知晓天文地理、博学，努力学习。

虽然无缘同距流住相同既血，能有呢个长辈俾我指示方向都系一种福址。

距做人就系凭个信字，出家为尼，本住佛教既博爱宗旨去感化人，响有钱人度集资帮穷人。

20年间将一块田建成吴川最大既庵堂，价值300几万。

好似距甘有才华、远见、领导能力既人深谙知识既重要性。

有人问我点可以甘勤奋，答案系呢个系对逝者既承诺！

大嬷嬷既模范作用令我将距既遗言铭刻于心，每日都审视自己。

2个星期过去，我地都无好好甘讲下。                                

已经同你道歉，态度可能唔好。

大家又会指责我唔生性。

点都好。

希望你工作顺利、身体健康。