我现在除了没机会从嘴里说中文有点寂寞，加上学习压力极大之外，其他都还挺好的，感谢您把我培养得如此全面。虽然以前没怎么见过世面，不过我抗弯矩扭矩和抗剪力的强度都还是可以的。

等我理清头绪，再把想说的话发到您Q上。。。

主博客已经移至yam天空部落~~

好烦，我想安静一下=v=....

反正话也有地方说。

我第一次生得如此雷厉风行…………orz然而名字都还没取

小姑娘快来这苦寒之地陪我吧…好好想名字~~要紧急地准备配件啊！！

听着那流水般的旋律我又假装心碎了…………美好的回忆其实也不美好，我爱那种瞬时的、精神上的快乐，但不足以算是怀念。不想回去，因为我觉得那种环境，那种状态，一直都糟糕透了。好吧，其实我觉得最糟糕的是那时候我的外观。

现在，你我她她，我们还有四个人。其实这已经很好。

现在，我宁可一个人矫情地黯然着。我的思维是太现实功利了，对各种事情总是提不起兴趣来。只是来了一件事，判断，去做，完成。虽然我也对一些事情焦虑，但比起比起走平地还翻跟头、在家呆着爱恨情仇的生活来说，我活的太平庸了。

最近是思考了一些关于人生和前途的问题，基本上每个人都有机会陷入这样一个挣扎不出的想法，除非自暴自弃到一定程度。即使是在上升期，还是会被很多困难和庸人自扰的想法束缚。原因是我又去比较了。最近和同学交流，可能我们总是情愿对活着这件事加上太多冠冕堂皇的理由，其实，不过是活着而已。为了这种冠冕堂皇，可能你会跟自己较劲一辈子，或者半辈子醒悟了，那更糟糕。每个人起步的台阶不一样，财富、职位、学历、地位，只需要有个strong background，你的家庭有个强大的支撑力把你举起来，你自己继续再求上进往上走，那么会是人中龙凤。就拿学习来说，其实最好的状态，是需要上的时候上学，而不是为了上学而死乞白咧的上一个学。

但我会预想到，既是今后的生活停滞不前，甚至倒退；会有一个时期发现过得还不如以前，努力白费，走错了路，期望幻灭。即使到了那时候，还是要拼命的挣脱困境，继续往上爬。时刻自省，起码是为了自己活着，这便是底线。

回想一年前的这时候，每天都要跑到国贸上新东方。课堂上接到在旅途中的朋友的短信，心里是无比的羡慕。感觉大家都走在正轨上，所以可以享受生活。但我却quit了，所以要承受压力和艰难。那时候还没决定去哪里，对件事本身也还在质疑。我好像在做一件看不到结果的渺茫的事情。没办法往长远去想，没办法计较得失和成本，困难重重。

真是完全想不到一年后的今天会是这样，除了环境，我的观念习惯品位，包括自身形态都改变了很多。压力是更大了，但我现在确信这是对的。

我更庆幸在这一年里，结交到这么好的朋友们，真的太幸运和幸福了。

这话很冷，但我还是想说。

其实我哪都没去，只是抱了一床棉被躲在西单一个网吧，ps各种照片，把手机调成零时区上闹铃调整作息时间，每天吃煎饼炒面过活，开着金山词霸看了点英文网页。

好玩么？愿意信么？希望是这样？

《一个人生活的五年》里描述的独自生病是很可怕的，孤独又凄凉，该做的事还要硬撑着做。不过我现在的心情依旧是比较兴奋，终于体验了一次独自一人异国他乡的病倒。这心态应该算好的吧。

药还是有的吃，本来就有囤食物的习惯，做好的现成的菜还有两盒，水果牛奶也够吃。

于是，那现在还是抱电脑爬床看动画去吧。。。。。全身疼，还是很不舒服。

下午挣扎着出去买些必需品，4点的时候天已经7成黑，外面起了大雾。冬天雨水增多了，几乎不再有晴朗的天气。枯叶混着雨水粘在地上，星星点点的灯火浸在浓雾里，街道两旁的建筑轮廓显得越发柔和，清冷的混着草木味道,Metropolitan Cathetral每日例行的乐声今天听起来格外的飘渺。

我独自走在街上，心里腾起一种兴奋的心情。曾经多少次的幻想中的英国，就应该是眼前这景象。

本来想拍学校里的花园来的，一转眼就忘了....这样的天气真的非常适合拍历史建筑的照片，尤其是那几座哥特教堂，还有Angelican Cathedral旁边的坟地公园。

越发的坦然了=v=.....现在我已经不像以前那么法西斯了。

资本是慢慢积累起来的。

这是个只看结果的世界，不讲情操。开口前最好多照镜子。

别人的事又与我何干呢？

啊，我想看>///////<~~~~~~~~~多么的，多么的，想看王子托举男公主~~（会有么？？？）

还有其他的……嗯，光看图就很好很和谐了！！

 Matthew Bourne's Swan Lake Tour 2009

LIVERPOOL Empire
22 February - 27 February 2010

http://www.swanlaketour.com/

其实小孩拦路的非常少，因为他们基本都跑去party了。个别拦路的都是直接劫钱的，说：I don't take candy,give me money!也是拿钱去happy的，糖又不能花~~嗯，不过我不爱给，张口就要3镑，对我来说太多了~~

再次仔细看过Aspiration，有几句话留意到了：

……will describe a physical and alchemic journey.It will be about movement,spatial transition and the passing time.

金属的，冰冷的，硬派的，寒冷的，功能的，抽象的，废弃、死亡、重生……？？

突然十分的想看钢炼……感觉钢炼会给我很多启发。很早就看过宝石姬和和泉八云的钢炼本……而且一直都是在必看的List里。于是马上就去挂了download~~~~

今天结交了几位时差党同好，好几位都是英国的，非常的鸡血……不断的新的开始。前进的步伐是需要自己主观的坚持的。

我记得，那时那地那几句点醒我的话，给我很大的启发。然而之后的一段时间，生活就这样彻底革新。

不用着急，这只不过是人生的一个阶段罢了，一切顺其自然。主观能动，并且淡然处之，无愧于自己。

表象不拘小节，内在沉稳细致，兼备年轻热血与成熟豁达，有这样一个人，我也希望做这样一个人。

ANYWAY，我的画笔永远不会停下的=v=...买了一体机终于可以扫描了。

没装板子驱动，只能鼠标简单做了一下效果。因为搞留学这半年作品极少啊，不过今后可以慢慢开始恢复手感了。

Francisco网上卖签名图居然卖10磅= =。。。这小子真有经济头脑。不过更想看场他的芭蕾....=/////=

关注一下。。。希望不止在伦敦演出。

I have been loving him for totally 3 years ever since the first time I watched the film'Alexander the Great'.As time flies.

Francisco Bosch admited of being out of closet long before.Perhaps his peculiar extremeness beauty that only a gay boy might perform.

Actually this attractive Spanish boy is a dancer of the English National Ballet  rather than an actor.My sweet little Persian boy Bagoas. How soft his body is,incredible!His magic dance striked me too much.

I also have a daydream of having opportunity to meet him somewhere in the U.K....*_*.I was never awared of having already been so close to him and living on the same land with him...fascinating~

Anywany, I have joined his fanclub group without doubt~

 嘛...有些话拿中文实在不好下手写...>/////<~~~

下面是转帖，一段专访。亚历山大大帝上映之后他也成了话题人物，看看就知道了……个小妖精，可爱死了T T

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Not many men can claim to have been invited by Oliver Stone to seduce him, or  to have had sex with Colin Farrell. But ballet dancer Francisco Bosch has. He talks to GT on the eve of appearing in Derek Deane's in-the-round production of Prokofiev's Romeo & Juliet with the English National Ballet.

Francisco Bosch has had sex with Colin Farrell. Now, before you start sending in the hate mail, you should know that a) it was only acting, and b) it ended up on the cutting-room floor before the final version of Alexander, last year's historic mega-flop, hit the screens. Bosch played Bagoas, the mysteriousPersian eunuch who commanded Alexander's affextions - and it was their love scenes, although historically accurate, which caused the massive fuss that ultimately made a nonsense of the film.

 
All of this seems to have washed over Francisco Bosch who, after all, has other fish to fry. "It didn't bother me. I did the job, we saw a screening of the movie as it was meant to be, and it was beautiful, and that was the end of that." His apparent sang-froid is explained by the fact that Bosch is not primarily an actor. He's a dancer with the English National Ballet, and so, with his days taken up with classes, rehearsals and performances, he has little time to fret about such things. At the time of writing, he's preparing a series of new pieces for a three-day choreographic workshop, as well as rehearsing the company's huge production of Romeo & Juliet. He's too interested in trying to stop smoking, in finding time out to practice rollerblading or see his boyfriend, to worry about homophobic film critics. But the Alexander debacle marked a turning point in Bosch's life in other ways. On the same day that he got the job in Oliver Stone's movie, he told his parents he was gay. "It was the right time for me, because I had a steady boyfriend, and it was the right time for them because they were ready for it. Of course it came as a shock, but they were great, and I know that they'd love and support me whatever I chose to do."

"Ballet Dancer is Gay" is hardly headline news, and Bosch admits that, in the tolerant atmosphere of the dance world, homosexuality is pretty much expected. In fact, his whole life appears to have been blissfully free of problems in that area, which may have something to do with the fact that he grew up in Spain. As the age of four, he was dancing Flamenco on his parents' tabletop near Valencia; at 13, he'd left home to study dance full time in Madrid. He gave up Flamenco for Ballet, joined the Nacho Duato's Compania Nacional de Danza and worked with every contemporary choreographer he could have dreamed of. "Dance was with me from the very beginning," says Bosch, now 22. "When I first saw Flamenco, I loved everything about it: the strength, the emotion, the music, the costumes. As I went into training, there was a lot of pressure on me to concentrate on Classical Ballet - but I hated it. It seemed so stiff after Flamenco,and the music was so boring. But I made that choice, and now I'll never leave Ballet. It's where I'm meant to be."

Bosch can do things with his body that would put most of us in traction, and when he's posing for photographs in the ENB rehearsal rooms behind the Albert Hall, its hard to figure out how he can manage to look pretty and relaxed while putting his legs where they were never designed to go. At one point, while holding a pose that looks frankly indecent, he asks "Does this mean I'll never be able to go to Soho again?" It wasn't just his dance style that changed while he was in Madrid. Up to the age of 16, he'd been dating girls. "I'd had a big relationship with a girl for about a year and a half, and when that was over I realised that I was interested in something else. Nothing happened until I was 17, and it was no big deal. It never has been for me." He's now in a steady relationship with a fellow company member.

Three years ago, while visiting an ex-girlfriend in London, Bosch took the opportunity to audition for the English National Ballet, where he's been working ever since. While taking part in a photo shoot for them, he was spotted by an agent who called a few days later to ask if he'd be interested in auditioning for a film. "I had no idea what it was, but I had the Saturday off so I thought I'd go along. I had nothing to lose. They got me to talk to the camera, to take my t-shirt off and dance a bit, then said, "Thank you very much, we'll be in touch'." A few weeks later, Bosch was recalled from holiday in Spain to meet director

Oliver Stone at Pinewood Studios. That's when he realised he might be onto something big. "They told me it was the story of Alexander the Great, and that I was up for the role of Bagoas. After a seven-hour wait, I saw Oliver in a tiny room, where he was sitting on a sofa. He just said "Seduce me...', so I danced for him and again it was, 'Thank you very much'." When he was finally given the role, Bosch was whisked off to Morocco to meet the rest of the cast. "I'd heard of Val Kilmer and Angelina Jolie, but Colin Farrell was unknown in Spain at that time, so I had no idea what he was like. The first time I met him, he was sitting in the hotel bar, and he said, 'I'm so happy to meet you! I've heard so much about you!', which was very strange, as he was the star. After that, we spent a lot of time together, but all of it was work. Our love scene was beautiful, but you know what happened to that. Oh, well... maybe it'll be on the dvd one day.

很多年前，我想等毕业之后再说一些话。两年前，我想等两年后再去看那篇文章。结果到了现在，话还是没有说出口。文章再也没去看。因为，已经全部都放下了，但再去思考那些旧事也没什么感觉。

其实生活不就是这样的嘛。然而，毕竟生活确实比以前好了，自己也变得强多了。 

其实每个人必然都有，当时没有说出口的话，当时没有做出的决定，当时没有踏出的那一步。也许，那些可能是会完全改变人生的转折。但是你什么也没做，只是按下而已。在若干年的时光流逝，每次想起都感慨万分。记忆犹新，但是除了感慨，其实当初的决定在多年以后已经不重要了。

真的，流逝的只是时光而已。其实一切都没有改变过。只是看你还有没有勇气和感情去找回。哪怕是把名字刻上三生石。 

话说，这个小包我已经买下了，真是超级的喜欢呐=v=~~~~

手机+钱包+补妆工具都还是可以装下的。所以还算实用~~~

最近很迷红白蓝系的accessory啊，网购了一些。膜拜设计师们~~

我经不起老这么沸腾了……你和你家那个，你们俩，哎哟~~~~折腾我啊~~~

我对温巨侠笔下的两位公子极其长情，都是我珍藏于心的至爱。一位是无情公子，一位是红袖梦枕第一刀的苏公子。

"杀了!"

 他说"杀了"，杨无邪就一杵拍下来，那么目空四海，不可一世的乱世人杰，红袖梦枕苏公子的人生就走到了尽头。

 "杀了"那两个字，还是出自苏梦枕自己的口里，这个孤标傲世的家伙，到最后都没让他的敌人，他的朋友，他的兄弟，他的属下失望。

 苏梦枕的第一次出场是在苦水铺的破窑里，雨幕中骤发剧变:兄弟背叛在先，属下暗算在后，好个苏楼主，一手退敌救人，一手剜肉疗毒，硬是不动如山，这痨病鬼端地是一出手就让人惊艳。

 红袖刀的美丽如山如河，让人一见钟情，一见难忘，刀光委婉隐约，把凄风苦雨中的苦水铺掩映得金风细细，烟雨凄迷，宛若梦里。

 苏梦枕的存在本身就是一个梦。

 这个身患七八种绝症，中毒受伤断腿的人，在二十二岁那年就该死了。

 不该死而死去的，是徘徊人世留恋难去的幽魂;

 该死而没死的人，则是人间的蜃楼，刀光中的幽梦。

 苏梦枕是一个梦，梦里有座金风细雨楼，所有和金风细雨楼扯上关系的人，便都进入了苏梦枕的梦中。

 六分半堂在他梦中，迷天七圣在他梦中，权倾天下呼风唤雨如蔡京者也免不了陪他一起做梦。

 王小石和白愁飞也沉醉其中。

 相逢即倾心，一见便如故。没人能拒绝苏公子，因为眼前的苏梦枕就是他们心中的江湖梦，英雄梦。

 在梦中，他们一飞冲天，一鸣惊人，恰少年，携百侣，指点江山，叱咤江湖，"天下"仿佛唾手可得。

 但也只是"仿佛"，因为这一切本就只是一个梦，苏梦枕的梦，梦如人生，人生如梦。

 苏梦枕是人，又是梦，是织梦人，也是梦中人。

 他的梦想是壮大金风细雨楼，整合江湖势力，要楼中势力所及处无不金风细细，烟雨霏霏。

 所以他要压过迷天七圣，打倒六分半堂，

 所以，他要雷损死。

 雷损是苏梦枕唯一承认的对手，倒不是因为他们武功同样深不可测要争什么劳什子的"天下第一"所以非要治对方于死地方可善罢甘休。

 他们不能放过对方恰恰是因为他们"道同"。

 "道同"，却是一个自西一个由东为同一个目的相向而来，所以一旦相逢不死不休。

 可其中一个当真不在了，另外一个又觉得失魂落魄。

 雷损吁了一囗气：“那我就放心了。这几年来，与你这样的人为敌，是一种愉快的感觉。我想，不管你死还是我死，都会很不舍得对方。你说是不是？”

苏梦忱点头道：“是的。没有你，将会是件很寂寞的事。那次你跳入棺立刻就死了，我总是觉得很不真实，所以一面警惕着，但还是大意疏失，差些儿就被你骗倒了。”

 原来天下豪杰，苏梦枕只把雷损放在眼里。

 血河红袖，不应挽留。

 "不应"与"红袖"本就是棋逢对手，不过雷损棋差一着，百炼成钢的"不应"到底变成了"红袖"下的绕指柔。

 血河红袖，不应挽留。"红袖"的对手本来就只有"不应"，所以不论白愁飞如何机关算尽，最后也只好一败涂地。

 白愁飞是枭雄，心机深沉，志大才高，能忍，够狠，但败给苏梦枕却是一点不可惜，谁叫他入梦太深。

 苏梦枕的梦太壮丽太美好，白愁飞梦里不知身是客，但愿沉醉不愿醒。

 他是绝佳的舞者，可惜只能在苏梦枕的掌心起舞。

 雷损死后，红袖梦枕苏公子就只剩下了半片残梦，这个中毒受伤断腿有绝症早该死了的人还能在伤痛里"偷生"，是因为京城里，不远处，寻雪阁，梅林中，还有个他牵挂的女子，雷纯。

天下英雄，梦枕楼主只把雷损放在眼里;

 弱水三千，红袖公子只将雷纯放在心里。

 雷纯从来都不在苏梦枕的梦中，然而苏梦枕却一直牵动着她全部精神。她远远的看，深深的算，慢慢的等，她要杀父仇人务必死在自己手里。

 当她终于整合一切力量，天时地利人合占尽，就要金风细雨楼屈居六分半堂之下，就要苏梦枕在自己手中求生不得求死不能时，苏梦枕的梦却突然醒了。

 大梦谁先觉?

 第一个自苏公子梦中醒来的是王小石，蔡京逼他杀诸葛不过是个契机，他的梦，本就和苏梦枕不同。

 苏梦枕的梦里太多血腥太多杀戮，太多勾心斗角，王小石只想放浪江湖，不愿同床异梦。

 但是处江湖之远也不妨碍他惦记这个大哥，就如同，得知白愁飞污辱雷纯在先，背叛苏梦枕在后，还想染指他最喜欢的温柔，王小石还是把白愁飞当成二哥。

 苏梦枕也是如此。

 当年在苦水铺他被自己的兄弟害得几乎没命，事后提起，心里对那些背叛的人还是照旧。

 苏梦枕不恨白愁飞，他对着白愁飞叹气的样子仿佛老父懊恼宝贝儿子"朽木不可雕"。他只是，给白愁飞的野心加了一把火，把白愁飞所有暗藏的底牌，积蓄的实力全聚集起来，一并收拾了，就像温和的兄长给淘气的弟弟收拾烂摊子，最后把白愁飞的人也一起带走。

 白愁飞随梦而至，随梦而逝，善始善终。

红袖公子苏梦枕，身患七八种绝症，中毒受伤断腿，全身功力只剩得一半，看来随时会死。

蔡京要笼络他，没门，诸葛先生招揽他，一样婉拒，金风细雨楼决不成为任何势力杀人的刀。

 他苏梦枕，头顶天，脚立地，笑傲众生，孤高不群。

 所以雷纯想要挟持他，根本就是个笑话。

 天下没有任何人能凭借任何事物挟持苏梦枕，无论爱恨。

 都道是，江湖远，人生苦短，刀剑如梦;

 则看他，烽烟里，画角声中，占尽风流!

 苏梦枕猛然叱道：

 “杀了！”

《Laughing Gor之变节》（英文：Turning Point，前名《Laughing哥前传》、《变节》）

浓妆的黄秋生太视觉了……倒地！！！震到不行啊啊！！怎么能这么有feel啊！！好吧……I want to make a definition，其实这黄秋生这样才算英伦风TTATT...这边街头各种养眼英伦男就是这么打扮的！！！真的，其他人太难玩出来了。除了内涵和气质，看来血统关系果然也很重要啊。。

吴镇宇！！黄日华！！元彪！！全部都是重量级啊！！星光缭乱，好刺眼TTATT....

于是laughing哥就华丽的受掉了！其实在学三里就受的，但是这里面简直受得顶级妖孽TTmTT...影帝们的包围中就总受了，年轻的laughing哥然而简直太美妙了……

小夫妻依旧是小夫妻，雷打不动。虽然我还是支持2R，但是就角色来说，文翘根本就是铁案，金案....

最后出来客串的制服小夫妻好有爱TTATT....肉啊~~~摸摸~

我本来就爱laughing哥爱到死了……然而我还秤砣了这么久。这片子在香港票房超爆的....喷泪

再来一张~

嗷嗷嗷阿啊啊~~~爆鼻血~~~好可爱好可爱噢噢噢~~肉啊~~我的心头肉~~~~>33<

dead force 

overall buckling

span

slab

duct

excessive deflections

young modulars

section geometry

excessive deflection

stiffness

branch frames--non sway frames

concrete corn

bending moment diagram

shear force

robustness

frame bracing

horizonal plane

wall panels

cladding

performated tube

outrigger frame

transfer beams

cantilevering edges

vertical

..........................

这堆词真的是，只可意会，不可言传。

冬天到了，白妞儿们依旧穿着小背心在大街上溜达。

咱不行。不是抗冻的品种。

我总认为，人呐只要你求好，你所不满足的一切都可以争取和改善。

有些事，越来越下限了。多重标准，早就说了这世界上没有什么是非对错，看你接受与否。

其实是无感了，下限到何等境界都好，看热闹呗。

自助火锅特价优惠10磅，终于造出了过节的气氛。

遇到看不惯的事，只是撇嘴，我现在懒得斯巴达了。reading list耗神，assignment要do,累。目前对我来说，最治愈的依然是X的音乐...巴黎live，yoshiki你说话算数么？

总之不是属于你的，不管天堂还是地狱，你又没吃亏。谁需要你来着急？

所有的事，其实凭兴趣就足够了。没有人要求你客观，也没人逼你去改善与你毫不相干的事。

管好自己。

我已经算是在独自行走江湖了。希望可以广泛涉猎，三教九流都有结交。既然做不到阅人无数，起码实现行万里路，书读不到万卷，数百卷总可以。没有优越的生活条件，起码活得充实丰富。

最近正在把风水堪舆、历史和游戏捡起来。

对门的姑娘说，咱们跟国内千里共不了婵娟，因为地球是圆的。还有这漫天的英伦乌云遮住了那羞涩的明月。那么，祖国和大不列颠的中秋，快乐。

   五星红旗迎风飘扬，胜利歌声多么响亮；

　歌唱我们亲爱的祖国，从今走向繁荣富强。

　歌唱我们亲爱的祖国，从今走向繁荣富强。

  越过高山，越过平原，跨过奔腾的黄河长江；

　宽广美丽的土地，是我们亲爱的家乡。

　英雄的人民站起来了! 我们团结友爱坚强如钢。

我和我楼上女孩的窗口。这是海外学子的一腔热血。