我时常游离在外。

待到夜深人静的时候，当孤灯也有点儿困顿疲乏的意思时，我终于也按耐不住滋长的无病呻吟。

在开始瞻前顾后的时候，我发现我的成熟进度相当缓慢。缓慢到令我自己也觉得灰心丧气。是夜与老同学们共进晚餐，我几乎都要钻进地缝里了。

我需要躲起来。很明显这是怯懦的顽疾。

怯懦。

我何时能让你远离我。

“回家”是一次发现：我的确活得太过自由。

自由。或许是软弱。

除了应该让自己坚持一点投入一点，我想我不需要其他改变。

但有太多约定俗成的力量，他们慢慢的，慢慢的，俨然和个雪球一样正从山上迎面袭来。

我不是任何人。又或许不？

只有迎头碰上那一刻才真正知道。

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碰上许多葬礼，花圈旁伴奏着永不停歇的蹩脚音乐；那边厢却有人开着婚车准备着百年好合。

这也许只是简单的一种复杂景象。很抱歉。我尚未想明白。

想不明白当有人笑的时候，那边泣不成声。

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考试成绩不理想，我想去厦门租屋住下的愿望又要延时。

美好没有太多时间等我了，还不拼一点。

好好创作，好好学习。

希望不是回光返照。

于是一篇篇地把原来的文章删了，想不到写了很多，系统反应慢，删得好累。

想献世的时候再写吧。再见！

不夜城有不夜城的美好。凌晨的维港。

金紫荆广场果然不怎么样呢，满地都是国内同胞们丢下的烟蒂。晚上想坐公交回湾仔，发现夜班车9字头的车特别贵，将近20块的车票。

皇后大道的夜晚，香港没有“大道”，小格局的上坡下坡，有自己的味道。

第三日去的尖沙咀的星光大道，在旺角逛完花园街后再徒步走到星光大道，整个人都累趴下了。弹丸之地也不小呢。

这是去昂坪360的东涌线地铁上，位置是大屿山。

出了东涌线看到了传说中狂打折的东荟城，晚上回来以后在东荟城买了俩鞋，果然是价廉物美啊。

这是东荟城门口的喷池，看到彩虹了。

坐在360的缆车上，缆车开了将近半个小时，从制高点饱览了新界的风景。绵延到新机场和天坛大佛。

港产片里经常有的天坛大佛，其中有供舍利子，我在功德箱投了些港币，买了餐券在附近的寺庙吃了一顿斋菜。

这是在大澳，第一次听说大澳是在吴启华主演的tvb电视剧【大澳的天空】中，元华和陈松伶一家在大澳过着愉快日子。去了以后发现大澳的居民生活条件很差，有些还住在水上居屋中，听开船的船夫聊天，说很多大澳人都去港岛或九龙打工了。

但大澳有美好的一面，海面辽阔漂亮，小巷和小食店多不胜数，放学的学生穿着西装和裙子的校服在街上吃鱼蛋和肠粉。渔村有渔村的恬静，去一家小店吃姜汁撞奶，门后有许多摄影发烧友在拍照，甚至用的还是双反机。

这些是与电影有关的画面。

有名的翠华茶餐厅，很多明星喜欢去，也是哥哥爱去的茶餐厅。可惜人太多我没发现什么明星。

修顿球场，有多少打架斗殴的故事始发于球场啊。

王家卫的【重庆森林】，说真的这附近真的很多印度人，迎面有咖喱味呢。

求神拜佛也是港产片必不可少的场景。这是黄大仙的解签档，地上放着七武器之首的“折凳”。

中环一路上的老式叮叮车站，是【文雀】里任达华骑车路过的吧。

“有骨气”饭店，熟悉【黑社会】的人一定会记得家辉哥的话：“八点钟有骨气，不使讲不使讲，到左先讲。”

龙蛇混杂的油尖旺地区，油麻地尖沙咀加旺角，人口密集度数一数二，旺角除了黑夜，白天也热闹非凡呢。

香港有个地铁站叫“香港”，香港地铁站里五颜六色的马赛克很好看。

【忘不了】吧。

看港产片怎么能不知道三合会和廉政公署呢，三合会我是拍不到了，拍个廉政公署吧。

老式建筑在港产片镜头里总有一席之地。

1月的香港已经像是初夏，气温和北京截然不同。浅水湾有许多外国小朋友在游玩。

风景好，人也比较high一点。

中午在浅水湾旁的必胜客买了一记外卖套餐，价格很便宜量也相当多，根本就没可能吃完，除了留下一些准备当晚餐，其他一些就喂鸽子了，浅水湾旁的鸽子根本不怕人。

在浅水湾呆了之后坐小巴到了赤柱。在电影里好像经常被提到的就是赤柱监狱。

赤柱的水很美，没有看到什么监狱，倒是有很多豪宅和集市，是个富人区。

享受海水和阳光，实在是一件快乐的事。

赤柱海边有餐厅，甚有葡萄牙的风格。

港产片里必不可少的吊扇。

赤柱的市集满热闹的，贩卖着各种特产。

晚上回中环，打算去太平山顶看个夜景，坐着巴士看到了日暮的景象。

在一个貌似近的地方下了车，沿着花园街去找太平山缆车，幸亏一位中文大学的学生领路。太平山的缆车当然是必玩景点啦，攻略都会写我也不说了。太平山顶有杜莎夫人蜡像馆。

在太平山顶看日暮，别有一番风情。

往维港方向看，九龙和港岛尽收眼底，不愧是东方之珠呢。

玩了缆车后还兜了兜兰桂坊，喝了点小酒。兰桂坊径直走去没多久，就是皇后大道了，不禁想起罗大佑的那首【皇后大道东】。这里的夜生活多姿多彩。

照片太多，其实旅行不过是走马看花。但是处在一个与自己的电影记忆朝夕相关的城市里，究竟还是有种做梦的感觉。

人生美妙的地方常常在于梦幻和现实的重叠。

第一天从住的雅逸酒店的窗外往外看，阳光熹微，依山傍海四个字，算是先体会了“依山”。

要玩香港，按照我看电影的经验，当然得从地道的港味开始，第一站就是茶餐厅，其实也就是就近选了一家酒店旁边的，要了个飞碟和一杯冻奶，唱了那么多年粤语歌，广东话终于算是基本能交流。茶餐厅果然如别人所言，市井味浓重。

要逛市井香港，当然离不开看街市了。原来酒店的摩里臣山道过去一点就有个菜市场，四周围摆着一些广味香肠和烧腊，还有菜，当然印象最深的还是一些红顶白光的灯，在早上的喧闹中提前开场。

沿着轩尼诗道走，老看到柱子上写着“通渠”，就和国内的“办证”一样常见。方才醒觉【戏王之王】里的独家试渠是有生活基础的。

怎么好像"坤记"做的生意特别多，在一个小巷里。

当然免不了电影里常见的小巴车了，是一道独特的风景线。

早上的阳光很好看，在楼宇间错落散步，但是都9点了，还是很多地方没开门。

车站，轩尼诗道实在算是蛮长的，我从湾仔走到铜锣湾又走到金钟。

为了吃饭买了一份【忽然一周】，里头送了一本【饮食男女】，打听了一下原来在这本杂志里有许多饭店的优惠券可以用。杂志摊的杂志五花八门，也有专卖黄书的摊点，在一家摆满了【龙虎豹】和【花花公子】的杂志摊买了一本【香港电影】。

第一天打算去浅水湾，要去中环搭巴士，虽然很近，为了体验，还是去搭了地铁。地铁里秩序井然，当然这种事只能在资本主义社会发生。很深的印象是地铁里的三语发音，香港人的生存能力的确顽强，懂得迎合时势，想起了麦兜里的两文三语教学“剪刀脚！哎呀！”

中环交易广场下的巴士总站。为了充八达通足足在一个充值档口等了半个小时，那位负责的阿姨原来去“厄屎”去了，“点解甘耐都某人即？”我和一个管事的老头抱怨了两句，老头非常干脆利落地回答我“她厄屎关我鬼事咩”。

christmas night。无聊到去看无聊的教堂。傻傻啲。。。。

Ever listen to the complaint of friends,classmates.......finally i find we are all fortunate....even if experience some troubles or bothers..we still have good friends to pour out our heart...have chance to change ourselves to be better...have a suitable living...and a integrated family and a healthy physique as well...

Complainning just use to express your stressful emotion and relax yourself...then u should be buck up and go on living,no doubt that life prepare many difficulty for waiting for us ,we need to encounter and tackle them step by step...

Pals...wish u better...

Inevitably we chose some stressful topics to talk about,it was conceivable that these topics would be common for us to communicate in our lives.

Afterward we made our ritual to analyse mutual preparation and conducts.

We reached a consensus that we should make a developing plan which concern our future immediately，never be waiting the blind “hands off”.

As a matter of facts,all of dicuss nearly have no function as we have yet got the principle long time ago.

So,subsequently we had a excellent meal,all the words just express our temporary dissatisfaction.

We still need to buck up finally.

Pal,lei's do it. 

As well as French fries  are nice to man who has tomato paste.

So...i need to make more efforts...

Several days ago，i saw a stirring movie called"Winds of September".

Actully the movie isn't perfect,even it has many mistakes becasuse the director is new that can't master all of the process of the movie exactly,including  emotion and rhythm.But it had been touching me at that time,with the picture and the voice which were familiar to me,the coastal city,big sea,flowing water,friends,campus,dream,even the betrayal,sorrow,immense pressure,sensibility .......

At the end of the film,the graduation ceremony is lively but the friends has separated,one of the protagonists is deciding to go back to Pingdong county by train to find sth.to commemorate their youth,and there is a sentimental music palying,as if taking their youth away.Always,they have growed up and have a farewell to all their past times.

At that time,i couldn't control my tears...

Nevertheless,a filmic advertising is so important that directly leads to the final success of a film.Besides a successful press conference might take other plans of the film company,including the new actor,the near shooting project ,and so on.All these will get the chance to advertise  in this movie conference.

Then i actually realize the difficult of film-making,if u are a directer,u need a strong will to take care of whole process,such as postproduction ,poster painting,voice collecting ,and the advertising as well.

The truth is that i still need to practise and grow in many aspects.

All my sentiments originate in the new film "The Beast Stalker"'s press conference i participated today.

That's the live photo i shooted .

Cold air might off the switch of cerebral ideas ,as long as those ideas are producing sensibility or sorrow,the biting and windy season would hide it,even blow it away.

Perheps the nippy wind brings some diverse mood ,but don't be melancholy,the blast will take them away.In the end of this year,everything will be normal as well as the preparation of the new year,everything will happen,everything will begin with a new step,everything will take your time and efforts ,and then bring the reward back.

So just take a smile to face everyting what would end and start,just to do it,as for  the sadness,just let it be,as the Beatles sang .

In the near future,there would be a heavily pretty snow,which would clean up the streets you always walk in,and the palace u always pass by.What it leaves is innocent and pure spirit，hope，or other.

Look at the calendar，now the sign is Nov ，and the time would go to the end of this year again。

So fast the time flies make me anxious and furious，beacause i find that i have wasten too many days to enjoy my selfish life，and left no enough time to retrieve。

As i just conscious of that，this year have gonna be over again，what it recorded this year is all my naive experience and efforts，what will happen next step？

I will go on and photo the scenery what i see on the future way。

The time at home i felt so lonely that i had went to everywhere or had dinner all by myself,because my friends were all dispensed to the all states of Fujian province except Xiapu.Then i had alone went to my old senior high school  to meet the playground and the swing  i have been to visit every year when i'm back to hometown. 

But everthing have changed because our school had been transfered to be in charge of another notorious school---what the hell is that?!!!The wondeful swing had been broken by the hell school student,they were all scamp,indubitability .

In the front of the school,the table of our school which was written "xiapu yizhong" on it had been changed as well as the swing.

I feel so sad,the sorrow drowned me at that time.

What could i find back my memory?

That might be the worst things i have seen in my hometown.

海边又围了很多养殖区。海滩填得七七八八。

11月份了依旧热得和夏天一样的海边。这个是养海带或者紫菜的？

姨家的狗。蛋蛋。姨养的鸭子。晒的被子。

姨父。一个普通的渔民。

新修的路。

北岐。记忆里妈祖游行路过的地方。有很多连着的居民屋和苇荡。

在机场。

到福州了。

和亚男在福州看了场做作的电影。

在家吃大排档。

晚上去参加新京报的观影活动看徐小明的【夺标】。

戏后张卫健和谢苗现身。

想想小时候还挺喜欢张的。记得小学有一年跑遍碟屋租来他的电影看了个遍。

估不到再一次看到他的电影作品已经十几年后。

谢苗也从巩固和洪文定变成了个大半小子。

老以为别人变老的变老，长大的长大。

老以为自己没有变。

老以为自己还是当初的自己。

其实大家都在一起长大，一起变老。

但我记忆里的东西，模模糊糊的，也好像从来没有消逝过。

Writing diary in ENG. just be for better mastering the language.And frankly speaking,i'm indeed weak at this  subject that i have been even learning it for dozens of years.

The most pity thing is that i have wasted my precious four years in my college life,and in that time i had only deemed that leisure is permanent,it mattered to have fun and live at ease.Actually nowadays i have already regreted what i did and thought before.

So let me get started，to grab the chance to be a curious student again.

"There is no limit to knowledge",the maxim applies to many aspects no only ENGLISH STUDY.