夜夜恶梦惊醒，还好，自己还有呼吸，还能够等待，还有时日可以等待。常常这样询问着自己，真的还有时间等待吗？一次次被自己否决。时间、生命不在属于我，这些已经遗失在对恶魔的承诺里。

不可能再等待，可我见到他，我就不能下手，心中充满着怜爱。对我越是体贴，我越是心中懊悔，当初为什么承诺，要给恶魔发下恶毒的誓言。如今，我只能继续等待，等待下手的时机。

一天天，一秒秒的过去。自己的命危在旦夕。自己的魂灵掌控在恶魔的手中。我不怕死，不怕魂形具灭。只是心中的依恋无处寄托。

三界中，我本是一个鬼魂，一个无处去的鬼魂，恶魔给了我具身体，娇媚的身体。在我还阳那日，让我碰到我爱了千年的他。

这是恶魔许诺给我的。条件是叫我杀一个人，而这个人，竟是我曾经深爱的人。因为我的思念从未减少。一直等待他的出现，我错过一次又一次的投胎转世。只为了他。

现在的他是当今有名望的贵族。有这贵族的血统。但他也是鬼魂的克星。恶魔一直想办法除掉他。可是却奈何不了他，因为他是太阳神之子。有着至高无上的法力。

而我，现在寄居着一个活生生的娇媚的女子身体中。我使用沉睡咒将她的灵魂永远的沉睡。天天的伴随在他的左右。但还是无能太接近他。他的光芒会灼伤我，这使得他很懊恼。而我只能偷偷的落泪。慢慢的接受着恶魔带给我的疼痛。

可我知道，我的在阳间的寿命早就没有了，能苟活至今，完全是因为他的光芒，虽然有伤痛，但还是值得的，虽然我等待了千年，只能默默的陪伴他，那怕还有最后的一日，我也会让他快乐。

恶魔等待不及，等待不及我取他性命，就急于要下手。我能将这千年我苦苦等待的爱，我的爱人，让恶魔摧毁掉吗？我不能这样的自私，只为了自己的爱，就将自己亲爱的人，交于恶魔之手，自己深受的痛苦还不够吗？

一场意外的离别，看着他痛苦的表情，我自私的以为，只要我复活，就能再点燃爱情之火。

他不再是千年之前的他，现在的他更为强大。可是，恶魔的力量却也忽视不得，他并没有完全掌握他的法力。对付恶魔还是有差距的。

而我却自私的和恶魔做了一场生死交易。

不，不要，不要将他毁灭。我要他好好的活着，我与恶魔的交易，还是由我自己来承担吧……

莫名的走入你的世界，才发现，那本不属于我的世界，感觉酸楚的泪滴一滴滴的滑落。一次又一次的逃离，却忍不住要回头观望。

我为什么要逃离，日日夜夜的询问着自己。因为没有爱，所以我要放弃。

我不能给你我的心，因为我已经给不了我的心。绝情如我。

在这个流火的七月。把你的爱深深埋葬。

多少次要悄然的离去，还有多少割不断的情丝。

不爱你，为何要眷恋你。

失去，是我永远的痛，得到，是我永远的梦。

当我把自己的那片阳光关在心门里。那一刻起，我就不在属于谁。

如今是现实的社会，可我知道，自己不会迈出那一步，宁可易碎不为瓦全。破碎的心，是无法黏合的。

将自己关起来，不问世事，昏昏沉沉的虚度年华。

我已不在年轻，还有多少时日可以浪费掉？

母亲殷勤的期盼，可我不能将真实的想法诉说，来增添母亲的伤痛。

钱财乃是身外之物，生不带来，死不带去。

经济社会潮流的今天，感觉自己不属于这个尘世。只是想陪伴着母亲度过她的余生。

残缺的爱，还要分割一半，这对我太过残忍，喜独来独往的我，也希望有个朋友伴身边，常常感觉到孤独，和母亲交流越来越少，每个人都离我很遥远。

孤独的来，孤独的去。

在人群中放肆的大笑，只是为了证明自己还活着。

请不要来爱我，我拒绝情爱。

深夜静静的望着窗外，将自己的魂魄游离在外，努力的寻找自我的一片晴空。

静静的将自己埋藏，埋葬无人知的角落。

就这样

静静的离去

几个人隐秘起来

小心心翼翼的穿梭在人群之中

不能大声喧哗

组织上不过问

任凭风吹雨打

只想他们能够平安找到组织

这样的日子

一分一秒的过去

看着被惨死的

看着被冤死的

说不出的疼痛

一个刺客

不该有的感情

冰凉的液体滑落

她，一个二八年华的姑娘

就这样静静的离开尘世

那双狰狞的眼孔

诉说着她的死不瞑目

今天，这一切都已经结束

今天，我可以大声的诉说

今天，我可以告诉她，我爱她

然而，这不过是一场游戏

一场精神与心灵的游戏

一场智慧与较量的游戏。

Notes death
Bleak world
Hidden Light has been the world is very bleak. That there is love and death it is led. This silent dead, far from the mundane world of turbulence. Bleak world, shrouded by the darkness. Free corner of the world, no longer the bright silk.
Listen to the wind, howling.
Hearing, rain, in singing.
The city was shrouded in darkness, people feel expressionless eyes, and there's no past glory. The world faces destruction.
Despite the dead
Go die, go die, what is there to fear.
Not a perception, not the spirit, not the soul.
I will be the world abandoned, I did not abandon the world.
Survival meaningless, died traveled Naiheqiao, drink some Mengposhang, next life. Whether the world can be reborn.
Old time.
Old friends.
All of the past.
Goodbye. Goodbye.
Leave, leave, what is there to fear.
Pretty and flirtatious dancing flames.
Guying so detached from the body and left alone to find.
Search to Find. The value of death.
Suffering
Find the way, only endless suffering, beating the flame burning for the last glimmer of hope, in addition to the darkness, is a lot of fear, in an attempt to struggle from the dark cocoon freed the shackles of bondage. 1.1 points to break free, and to break free from the dark, broke free from the shackles of the soul. Please do not, I will swallow just to wind guffaw just to rain bark, then thunder gust front, that do not want to stop at all. If the static time unshackling half of the body would no longer be able to break free, suffering untold suffering. I dare to imagine how. The arrival of doomsday.
Death, death, which followed the pupil, desperate eyes, and at this time have been vividly displayed. Red blood flows of the city. Black and red, long-lasting colors. It appears at this moment, are so uncoordinated.
Flee and escape, I have to flee, I want to escape from this flavor-filled city.
I fear? I escaped from death.
Corpse of the stench and pollution of the city is spent.
Display will be called the city, the immediate flowers, lost its distinctive color.
Humor can not find four of the sky bright silk.
Sunshine quietly approaching storms in the block.
No way
Alive, helpless alive, as alive branch, no purpose alive, no alternative. Born in this city, life in the past 20 years, this emotional things that you do not touch is not toxic, once you meet, then your heart. your soul, no longer belong to them. Unable to control their own yearned where to whom. Who accepted the Who.
No way to the brink of death, I met the love. Has been kicked into the valley of death, and love, it is so baffling and tortured me. Of life and death, how do I choose. Love you too late, death, you come too early.
God Bao Xiao, the fate of mankind by God to play among acclamation. Human pain, God is the greatest fun. Otherwise, why voice, crying and not laugh.
Two possessions wept, lamenting that the world, the ruthless world. Decades of time and instantly from childhood to old age. Close to death, it was learned that for decades, it seems the time flash in the pan, not a good grasp of time, a wasted life. Apart from the bosom, giving sorry. No other voices. Cities continue to be enveloped in darkness Lane. Still have to face death. It is getting closer, life will in the near future will be terminated.
Burst
Hard to tell if it was day or night, the dead atmosphere draws near, the air is filled with the bodies of perishable nature, and the dusty bones. find out who was trampled. Have no alternative but to face, the face of death's arrival.
Love, friendship, family, in the face of death, has exposed its true face, with tears and rain, bitter flavor. There is no expression at all.
Go to the end of his life, Mortal Love, feelings have been abandoned. Who will die for a person, God once again bare feet out relentless hate on the match kicked, as soon as possible to let him wait for the next life Naiheqiao reincarnation.
Death
Finally in case of non-interest-bearing deposit, deaths, followed by the entire city. Montreal flowing with blood. Calm and quiet, no one o'clock beep. These are the permanent sleeping? No one survived? No, yes, the death of the body, that does not mean that the death of the soul. Transparent waft of smoke in the air.
Soul
transparent objects slowly Piaochi body, free house, the dead city as quiet, starry sky without bright. The moon hides behind the clouds, quietly Kui Wang.
Rain
Still under a rain, there is still no cease mean. That transparent rain penetrating the soul, dropping, scouring the city with red liquid, red liquid flows over every street. Lights flickering.
No smoke without accrue. 1 ruins, the rain began to stop and the sun to come out to cheer the death of the atmosphere is still not receded. Flowers wither. Higgledy-piggledy streets of the body gradually exposed Sensen bones. The poor soul without their destination.

Impasses
Is nowhere to hide and soul of four away. Dead city, Sensen bones. Then uninhabited. Who did not know it, what happened and where these things, and this city Since then disappeared, no one will ever know.
It was to become the world ---------- dead city.

 
Notes death
Bleak world
Hidden Light has been the world is very bleak. That there is love and death it is led. This silent dead, far from the mundane world of turbulence. Bleak world, shrouded by the darkness. Free corner of the world, no longer the bright silk.
Listen to the wind, howling.
Hearing, rain, in singing.
The city was shrouded in darkness, people feel expressionless eyes, and there's no past glory. The world faces destruction.
Despite the dead
Go die, go die, what is there to fear.
Not a perception, not the spirit, not the soul.
I will be the world abandoned, I did not abandon the world.
Survival meaningless, died traveled Naiheqiao, drink some Mengposhang, next life. Whether the world can be reborn.
Old time.
Old friends.
All of the past.
Goodbye. Goodbye.
Leave, leave, what is there to fear.
Pretty and flirtatious dancing flames.
Guying so detached from the body and left alone to find.
Search to Find. The value of death.
Suffering
Find the way, only endless suffering, beating the flame burning for the last glimmer of hope, in addition to the darkness, is a lot of fear, in an attempt to struggle from the dark cocoon freed the shackles of bondage. 1.1 points to break free, and to break free from the dark, broke free from the shackles of the soul. Please do not, I will swallow just to wind guffaw just to rain bark, then thunder gust front, that do not want to stop at all. If the static time unshackling half of the body would no longer be able to break free, suffering untold suffering. I dare to imagine how. The arrival of doomsday.
Death, death, which followed the pupil, desperate eyes, and at this time have been vividly displayed. Red blood flows of the city. Black and red, long-lasting colors. It appears at this moment, are so uncoordinated.
Flee and escape, I have to flee, I want to escape from this flavor-filled city.
I fear? I escaped from death.
Corpse of the stench and pollution of the city is spent.
Display will be called the city, the immediate flowers, lost its distinctive color.
Humor can not find four of the sky bright silk.
Sunshine quietly approaching storms in the block.
No way
Alive, helpless alive, as alive branch, no purpose alive, no alternative. Born in this city, life in the past 20 years, this emotional things that you do not touch is not toxic, once you meet, then your heart. your soul, no longer belong to them. Unable to control their own yearned where to whom. Who accepted the Who.
No way to the brink of death, I met the love. Has been kicked into the valley of death, and love, it is so baffling and tortured me. Of life and death, how do I choose. Love you too late, death, you come too early.
God Bao Xiao, the fate of mankind by God to play among acclamation. Human pain, God is the greatest fun. Otherwise, why voice, crying and not laugh.
Two possessions wept, lamenting that the world, the ruthless world. Decades of time and instantly from childhood to old age. Close to death, it was learned that for decades, it seems the time flash in the pan, not a good grasp of time, a wasted life. Apart from the bosom, giving sorry. No other voices. Cities continue to be enveloped in darkness Lane. Still have to face death. It is getting closer, life will in the near future will be terminated.
Burst
Hard to tell if it was day or night, the dead atmosphere draws near, the air is filled with the bodies of perishable nature, and the dusty bones. find out who was trampled. Have no alternative but to face, the face of death's arrival.
Love, friendship, family, in the face of death, has exposed its true face, with tears and rain, bitter flavor. There is no expression at all.
Go to the end of his life, Mortal Love, feelings have been abandoned. Who will die for a person, God once again bare feet out relentless hate on the match kicked, as soon as possible to let him wait for the next life Naiheqiao reincarnation.
Death
Finally in case of non-interest-bearing deposit, deaths, followed by the entire city. Montreal flowing with blood. Calm and quiet, no one o'clock beep. These are the permanent sleeping? No one survived? No, yes, the death of the body, that does not mean that the death of the soul. Transparent waft of smoke in the air.
Soul
transparent objects slowly Piaochi body, free house, the dead city as quiet, starry sky without bright. The moon hides behind the clouds, quietly Kui Wang.
Rain
Still under a rain, there is still no cease mean. That transparent rain penetrating the soul, dropping, scouring the city with red liquid, red liquid flows over every street. Lights flickering.
No smoke without accrue. 1 ruins, the rain began to stop and the sun to come out to cheer the death of the atmosphere is still not receded. Flowers wither. Higgledy-piggledy streets of the body gradually exposed Sensen bones. The poor soul without their destination.

Impasses
Is nowhere to hide and soul of four away. Dead city, Sensen bones. Then uninhabited. Who did not know it, what happened and where these things, and this city Since then disappeared, no one will ever know.
It was to become the world ---------- dead city.

死亡笔记

世界之黯淡

光已经消隐了，世界非常黯淡。生无可恋，死无可牵。这样默默的死去，远离尘世的纷扰。 黯淡的世界，被黑暗笼罩。游离这个世界的角落，再无丝光明。

听，风，在咆哮。

听，雨，在歌唱。

这座城市笼罩在黑暗里，人们黯然无神的眼睛，再也不见昔日的光彩。世界在面临毁灭。

尽管死去

死吧、死吧，有什么可怕。

没了知觉、没了神韵、没了灵魂。

是世界将我遗弃，不是我抛弃了世界。

生存无意义，死去，走过奈何桥，喝碗孟婆汤，来生。世界是否能重生。

昔日的光阴。

昔日的朋友。

昔日的一切。

再见。再见。

离开，离开，有什么可怕。

火苗妖艳着舞蹈。

孤影就这样脱离了躯体，独自去寻找。

寻找，寻找。死的价值。

痛苦

一路的找寻，只有无尽的痛苦，跳动的火苗燃烧了最后的一丝希望，除了黑暗，就是无尽的恐惧，企图挣扎，从黑暗的茧中挣脱枷锁的束缚。一点一点的挣脱，挣脱黑暗，挣脱灵魂的枷锁。请不要将我吞噬，只听风狂笑，只听雨狂叫，雷声一阵接着一阵，丝毫不想停止。假如时间静止了，挣脱出一半的身躯再也无法挣脱，痛苦，无尽的痛苦。我怎么敢想像。世界末日的到来。

死亡，死亡，那狰狞的瞳孔，那绝望的眼神，在此时此刻表现得淋漓尽致。血液的流淌染红了这座城市。黑与红，恒久的色调。在此时此刻看来，是那样的不协调。

逃离、逃离，我要逃离，我要逃离这座充满死亡气息的城市。

我惧怕什么？我逃离死亡。

尸身的腐臭，污染了本是花的城市。

被称为花海的城市，眼前的花朵，失去了鲜明的色彩。

诙谐的天空找不到四丝光亮。

阳光在暴风雨来临悄悄的退隐。

没办法

活着，无奈的活着，行尸走肉般活着，无目的的活着，没办法。生在这座城市，生活了二十年，情感这东西，不碰你不会中毒，一旦你遇到，那么，你的心，你的魂，就再也不属于自己。无法控制自己的心向何方，给了谁。谁接受了谁。

没办法，到了死亡的边缘，我遇到了爱情。一脚已经踏进了死亡之谷，而爱情，就这样莫名其妙的折磨着我。生与死，我如何做选择。爱情，你来的太晚，死亡，你来的太早。

上帝暴笑，人类的命运被上帝玩弄鼓掌之中。人类的痛，是上帝最大的乐趣。要不，为何声来，是哭而不是笑。

两人抱着头痛哭，悲叹，这个世界，无情的世界。几十年的光阴，瞬间从幼年到老年。接近死亡才知，几十年的光阴似那昙花一现，没有把握好光阴，虚度了年华。除了痛哭，轻叹的惋惜。再无其他的声音。城市继续笼罩在黑暗里。依然要面临死亡。它，越来越近，生命将在不久的将来就会终止。

无路可走

分不清是白天还是黑夜，死亡的气息越来越近，空气弥漫着尸体的腐臭味，尘封的尸骨，被人找出来，践踏。已经无路可走，只能面对，面对死亡的到来。

爱情、友情、亲情，在死亡的面前，都暴露了本来面目，泪水和着雨水，苦涩的味道。毫无表情可言。

走了生命的尽头，红尘情爱，恩恩怨怨都已抛弃。谁会对一个要死之人，再次神出脚裸狠恨的踢上一脚，让他尽早去奈何桥等待来生的转世。

死亡

最后的生息倘然无存了，死亡，整个城市沉睡了。满地的血液流淌着。安静、安静，无一点的声响。就这样的永久沉睡吗？没有一个存活吗？不，有，躯体的死亡，不代表灵魂的死亡。透明的烟雾在空中飘荡。

灵魂

透明的物体慢慢的飘离躯体，游离在外，城市死般的沉寂，星空无亮泽。月亮躲在乌云的背后，悄悄的窥望。

雨

雨依然下着，依然没有停止的意思。雨水穿透那透明的灵魂，滴落，冲刷着染红城市的液体，鲜红的液体流淌过每个街道。灯光忽明忽暗。

无人烟，无生息。一座废墟，雨渐渐停了，阳光欢悦的跳出来，死亡的气息依然未减退。花枯萎。街道上横七竖八的尸体逐渐露出森森白骨。可怜他们的灵魂无归宿。

绝路

已经无处可逃，灵魂四处飘散。死亡的城市，森森白骨。再无人居住。谁也不知，它，究竟发生了哪儿些事，而这座城市从此销声匿迹，无人知晓。

它，被世人成为----------死亡之城。

也许今日的离别，便是长久。

也许今日的离别，是为了来日的相聚。

也许今天的离别，是你我最后的晚餐。

也许，没有也许……

似乎你我的缘是上天的注定，可是上帝喝醉了酒，偏偏当我深爱你之时，将你从我身边带走。就有了有缘无份之时。

我不甘愿，上天为何对待你我的痴情眷恋。为何狠心，看你我痛苦，泪水陪伴到天亮。

我们和许多相恋的情侣一样，朝夕相处，日出而出，日落而归，天边的残阳，衬映我们彼此的爱。

我们痛了、爱了、累了……

你的痛，我全单接受，我的痛，压抑在心底，一心只想你快乐、幸福、健康。

而这也仅仅是美好的祝愿。

当我把一切给了你，上天却要从我身边夺走你如花的生命。

你苍白的脸蛋，失去往日的红润，而你依然对我灿烂的微笑，掩饰着你的痛楚，用你今生最后的余力，让我安心，可你知道，我做不到，做不到，让你痛，我只想，那一刻，上天可以减少我的寿命，只想与你生生世世，恩恩爱爱到白头。

可是，他固执的将你从我身边带走，面对你，面对与你的一切，我们一切的努力，都在那一刻崩溃。

仿佛黄河水泛滥，仿佛冰山倒塌，我只知道，此刻的我，心的痛楚，都是为了你，为了你能够平安。

可我知道，你选择我的时候，你已经下了誓约，亲爱的，宁可死去的是我，这样，我会对自己的心谴责少些，对你多爱一分。你倒我怀里的那一刻，鲜红的血液，染遍了神州大地，刺痛的你，比刺痛的我，更加痛苦，那一刻意识到，我将要永远的失去你。你轻轻的抹去我的泪水，让我为你唱最后一支歌。

亲爱的，你可知，你轻轻的闭上那让我如痴如醉的双眸，就像把我自己关在黑暗里，再也见不到明日的太阳。就这样奈何桥我与你同往，不会叫你孤单喝下那碗孟婆汤，今生你我有缘无份，来世，我们再续前缘。

一场戏的落幕，是另一场的开始前奏。

我站在宏伟靓丽的舞台中央，抬下的观众，一双双充满喝彩的双眸。十分钟的演出，是我台下十年之功。

可有谁知道，这背后的心酸。

我们努力着、我们奋斗着，为了自己美好的明天。

那一年，我对世界充满着希望，对一切美好的事物都记于心。快乐如我，自信如我。

那一年，仿佛是世界末日，我把阳光关在门外。

从此，我的世界是一片黑暗，在黑暗里，摸索着。探求自己的未知。

我生命中，有过这样的人，他，高大雄伟，是我崇拜的偶像，梦想着自己长大能够像他一样，有自己的事业。

而他，恰恰是伤我最深之人，

当我感到绝望的时候，他们出现在我的生命源头。让我感觉到，我不是孤单的。不是寂寞的，世界并没有将我抛弃。

经历了几年压抑的生活，那个稳重、心善的他，悄悄的走进我的生活，闯进了我的世界，捣乱了我将自己包围的围墙。顷刻间坍塌。

从此我失去了那层保护色。将自己彻底的绽露给他。

我的生活，再无太平。每天都要做心里战争，一次又一次将自己的新思想，打败。

我们又了第一次的争吵，第二次的争吵。我不在清醒，不在清楚自己。这个时候发现。原来，我将自己在很多年以前就已经丢失了。

我努力的寻找，那个自我，将我紧紧关在黑暗之外，我无法回到天真的童年，发现自己，无法融合。

将自己排斥在外。

尽管这样扭曲的自我，如此极端的个性，在我无数次的排挤、吵骂。无缘由的离去。他、他们一样坚定如故。

我欣慰，第一次发自内心的欢笑。第一次感觉到，笑的快乐。

然，当我笑的时候，心会痛，看到你们的笑脸，看到痛苦的他。我的生命再慢慢削弱。一点一点的消失。

不知道哪一天，我的离去，还会有谁能够记得我。那个曾经，放肆自己的情感。爱了，却不能接受的我。那个整日里胡闹的丫头。

哪儿个是真实的自我。也许，再我离开的时刻，我都不会明白，自己，自己的心在何处。

但，在我生命中、心里，有一块小小的净土，将那些幸福、快乐，紧紧的封锁。和我一起离开。我不孤单，因为它们会陪伴我。任我魂灵漂流。

离别，终于，说了出来，为什么会心痛，明知不可能，为什么会眷顾。