Time is running out for my friend. While we are sitting at lunch she casually mentions she and her husband are thinking of starting a family. 'We're taking a survey,'she says, half-joking. 'Do you think I should have a baby?'

'It will change your life,' I say, carefully keeping my tone neutral. 'I know,'she says, 'no more sleeping in on weekends, no more spontaneous holidays...'

But that's not what I mean at all. I look at my friend, trying to decide what to tell her. I want her to know what she will never learn in childbirth classes. I want to tell her that the physical wounds of child bearing will heal, but becoming a mother will leave her with an emotional wound so raw

 这两天状态不好，论文只写了个前言，半天写半页，速度有点慢！

考完试后，心里有点不着边际，好像暂时失去了方向！

昨天去国展参加招聘会，十块钱买了张票，进去后发现只有两个展馆，每个展馆都有近百米的长队，有点傻眼！以前四个展馆也只有十来家于生物相关的企业，两个估计少的可怜！

以前还有发北京市人才市场报的，这次没有，问保安，说是已经发完了！以前是随便领的。开来现在没有找到工作的不只我一个。

好不容易找到，一份报纸看看，真如所料，就三家企业！哎！看看如此长的队，还是不进去了！以前投的都石沉大海！现在估计也没戏！回去还来得及吃饭。

望望四周来来回回的同龄人，抬头看看耀眼的太阳，算了还是回去吧！

I finally finished all the examination, the entrance of PhD program of Peking Union Medical College and  Insitute of Genetics and Development of Chinese Academy of Science. I feel free without the exams. Just like you put down the heavy stone, and wake from the nightmare. It's mean that you don't have to get up early in the morning, don't need to read and cite many books which give me headache and confuse about three months. Enjoy the time!

I got up at 10:30 am, but I didn't feel good. Some headache hit me, I did know what happen. Maybe, I have slept too much. I'm not lucky man!

It had better to keep my body clock.

I see two movies. They are wonderful! I like them.

完成第一天的考试，昨晚谁的不好，上午九点左右眼睛就有点睁不开。英语考试老觉得时间不够用，完全失去了上周考英语的感觉！考的有点懵了！

下午生化考的还可以，不过有道题怎么也没有想起来用什么实验来证实，看来没有做过真的不是很明白！题很活!

回来觉得又累又困！

考试啊！艰难的日子！

I'm always in bad mood before long and the situation isn't any change. Day after day, I work hard and try to find the way that can guide the direction, but I failed many times. So, I trapped in the circulation of bad mood. I'm pessimist. Maybe, Depression? 

Today, I read the essay--Life is our choices! It is right. The later, I always choose. Something must happen for raising my mood!

Maybe, the choice to study the PhD program is good way, doctor degree always persues in dream, or another choice to find the job is also good future. Nobody can tell you what will happen in tommorrow.

周末考完中科院遗传所的博士就要解放了！

这辈子真的是不想再考试了！估计这应该是最后一次了吧！

上周考完基础所的博士就不怎么想看书了，其实书早已经翻了多次了！虽不说烂熟于心，但也是耳熟能详的！

博士？？？

一切都是未知数。。。

不过目前看来，不乐观

今天发完邮件后，无意间点开博客，发现自己很久没有登陆了，更没有写了！

看着“秋风吹过的日子”这个名字，想想现在的处境，总是有无限的伤感，改改名字吧，也换换心情！可是想了半天也没有想到中意的名字，干脆把自己的名字拆开了，感到还不错

最近大前天去看了残奥会，感觉很不错！

今天老板来了，没有发脾气，而且还同我谈以后打算，出去做实验的事，他也表示同意