After a long period of preparing and
waiting, I finally saw my students, who really deserve being
admitted to this university. I thought I was going to be nervous,
for I wanted to leave a very good impression to them on the first
day and they can enjoy English learning. However, just as the song
‘Beautiful Boy’ says, life is what happens to you while you’re
making other plans. Surprises are gifts life gives us: they not
only like English, but can participate in the class activities
actively; I even got the applause from some students.
When I’m trying to recall all those young faces, the voices
and laughter just come flooding back and I feel a little ashamed
that I find it difficult to illustrate them in English. It’s a long
time since I wrote some essays, not to mention in English. This is
just a beginning. I did laugh wholeheartedly when one girl tried to
explain why I showed them an old photo which was taken when I was
about ten years old; I was moved when the students form the School
of Economics raised their hands one after another to answer my
questions; I was so happy when they enjoyed reading the poems I
chose for them… I was trying to be
patient, clear-minded, and enthusiastic. That’s for sure! In a
word, I enjoy the teaching process. However, I know I should
prepare every class fully to have similar things happen again.
Besides, there are students who seem to be bored and have
difficulty in opening their mouth to speak English. Challenge will
help make progress, for me and for them.
There was an interlude yesterday. On the campus, free
bicycles are provided for teachers and students, so in the noon my
colleagues and I rode the bicycle after a short rest in the campus
hotel to go to the teaching building. However, the bicycles are two
high and I’m too short to even get on them, also due to my poor
riding skill. It took me long to manage it with the help of a
staircase. However, once I got on it, I felt quite good.
Let me not to the marriage of true minds
Admit impediments. Love is not love
Which alters when it alteration finds,
Or bends with the remover to remove:
O no! it is an ever-fixed mark
That looks on tempests and is never shaken;
It is the star to every wand'ring bark,
Whose worth's unknown, although his height be taken.
Love's not Time's fool, though rosy lips and cheeks
Within his bending sickle's compass come;
Love alters not with his brief hours and weeks,
But bears it out even to the edge of doom:
If this be error and upon me proved,
I never writ, nor no man ever loved.
“心疼”，方言里这个词似乎有着不一样的意思呢：
“你姨嘎嘎就心疼人咯”
“你奶奶一路来就心疼你”
“你贵儿姐姐心疼我，重的活都不要我搞”
“你爸爸又不心疼人呢”
……
2008.7.20
一只喜欢夹着尾巴的狗，因为主人家的猫老是跟它过不去，郁闷不已。
这天，出门在外的男女老少大小主人回家团聚，只见这狗依然忠心耿耿，不仅认得主人，老远就连蹦带跳跑来迎接，还竖起了难得竖起的不长不短的尾巴，于是主人给了他人吃的东西，不料偶尔露面的猫突然窜出来冲过去又抓又咬，这狗竟然吓得夺门而去。从此它们又开始了这每天的必修课：明挣暗抢，尽讨主人欢心，各自坚持认为自己的方式才是最好的最让主人满意的。为此不知挨了主人多少打骂，后来，它们自己都受不了了，于是决定推心置腹地谈一谈：
“我觉得主人给什么就吃什么，这是理所当然的嘛！”
“那给你狗肉你吃不吃啊？”
“这个……”
“你要是什么都吃，就吃不到什么好东西了”
“可是，有的吃总比没有好。”
“我才没你那么笨呢，我宁愿饿宁愿自己出去找吃的，也不受这罪。”
“这里又不是富裕人家，主人对我好，我对主人衷心，不是很好吗？为什么你每次出去了还要回来呢？”
“我这叫流动作战，这里是根据地之一。”
“这并非长久之策啊，我是狗，就该有狗的样子，尽狗的本份。”
“狗就是狗，你咋就不明白啊？我这是为你好啊，哎！”
“什么为我好，我都跟你说了老半天了，你才不明白呢！哼！”
“简直不可理喻！算了算了，懒得跟你说！”
“我还懒得跟你说呢，动不动就在主人面前耍威风。”
“有本事你别跑啊”
“我那是看在主人的面子上，难道狗还怕猫不成？”
“等着瞧，你可别后悔！”
……
谈话无果而终，日子继续重复着，狗还是狗，猫还是猫，同一个屋檐下生存。日子久了，它们也成了主人的记忆了。
2008.07.19
那样的时候，自己所有的忧伤与烦恼都很可笑。
i'm bad
“不以恶小而为之，不以善小而不为”，小时候大人们是这么教我们的吧？这么simple的道理，却这么而难做到，这是什么道理呢？跟“中庸”一样“易而难”？
不知道什么时候在看《中国人的精神》，写下了一句“任何没有让人感到心灵自由的都……”，都什么呢？
火车站外面，我们坐在花坛边看人来人往，挺有意思的，就像两个旁观者，却不知是否有人也在看我们呢？如果神灵真的存在的话，此刻看到我们也一定是欣慰的吧？！
母亲怀抱里的小孩吸引了蓝天白云，好开心啊，我说，将来他一定不记得曾经有一天，杭州火车站外，他在母亲的怀抱里看白云嬉戏，但那种感觉，美好爱的感觉，一定不会忘记，在内心深处藏着呢！
那么我们，经历的一切，无数画面，多少瞬间，也都不会丢的吧。
2008.4.13
人的思维就是那么有意思。当初我因为妈妈好贵姐站在紫金港翠柏一舍103的阳台上而记下了这几个词，而现在回想的时候却有了别的可能，暂且不说也罢，尽管那也是一个美得不可思议的清晨。
都说做梦也没想到她们俩今年会到我这里来歇一次脚，好像这里真是我的地盘。从家里出来的时候没想到会这么坎坷，她们说权当“不走运”。其实她们什么时候“走运”过了？但还是坚持着，期望在我们身上么？也许是时侯把担子接过来了，那笑容，那目光，在清晨微风吹过的阳光下，已足够，永恒的影子，一定会让我思念不已……
2008.4.13
也许我喜欢梨花只不过是因为那一幅画面，记忆偶然从什么地方捡了回来，就再也忘它不掉。当我还小的时候知道什么叫“美”吗？如果知道，又是怎么会知道的呢？还是之后“在平静中回忆起来”的？我所珍视的那一切呵，一定是因为我们一直都是亲密的，思念是彼此的。
老房子，木柱青瓦，是一种生活方式。我不知道将破败墙垣破烂衣裳看作一种美是怎样的心情，但我就是那样的心情，让他们自生自灭，好似一个旁观者，却不是“站在山顶看世界”。2008年4月13
发博文
加载中…
