So so accustomed     weird to find myself not ready to change anything

最近没天没夜得总算把笑着活下去看完了    

感觉每天都upset   不晓得咋了     浑浑噩噩    

做和尚还要每天撞钟  我似乎没有每天要撞钟的烦恼

但就是莫名其妙的烦   烦得不可理喻  烦得过分得彻底

 

记得不久前   我还看过一个关于Christmas的合辑  仅仅是不久前

但最近一集的GA却又再现Christmas scene  

Time flies!

Another birthday poped in yesterday

Got wishes from Dandan and Dandan, Ye Danping, Ye Xiejun,

Lin Binbin and myself

Hey me

Herzlicher Geburtstag!

All’s well that ends well. I have just seen the latest episode of Gossip Girl. I was actually startled by the first scene that ran into my eyes. What I could only do was to scream: OH, MY GOD, 3P. I don’t know what to say, coz it has been long time since the moment I have seen sth like this. Olivia, Dan and Vanassa, they could have sex just like that. That’s where I see the huge cultural difference between the east and west. I have slightest interest how the plot of GG is going on, I am really really startled. I think it is not so confusing why so many American parents would stand out to say that there is obscenity in GG. Huh. LOL. They even invited Lady Gaga to perfom during the show, which is for sure can win lots of audience. I love Lady Gaga.

One buddy told me that he knows about my blog, I used to care and wish that there aren’t many people who would check out my blog and know what’s going on with me. But now I’d rather wish those who cares about me to know me via various ways, blog, just to name one.

I tried to stay positive on love, which I still doubt why there would be so many craving for. It must be a very stupid game, otherwise, I would have been a real moron. To be in love with her is not my choice, I seem choiceless again. Fuck. But maybe it’s now time people like me should take some actions to do things like that. Lies and inclinations are really stupid are really stupid in a so-called relationship.

Cool to have my little sister around, though she bothers sometimes, but she is pretty cool. I do think I lack someone like her to be a relative around me. She is spiritually a lot like me. I love my little sis, Serena.

Time became even boring these days with little things to do. I really want to know how the people I used to know are getting on with their lives. Shelly, Snow, I know that you are the constant visitors to my space, leave a message and tell me how you guys are going on. BTW, I could check your blog out given the circumstances that you set anonymous in the profile, S.

Chilly weather with piercing wind, fuck again.

這鬼天氣 怎麽會這麽冷 沒辦法 這幾天也只有把自己關在屋子裏了 又一次被别人放了鴿子 弄得自己兩頭都不好 沒事做的我已經是更加無聊 因此也就早早的跑回了家 算了 懶得去駡那些可憐的人 這樣子自己也弄得個清閑 可能是風太大的緣故 家裏的電視也突然間沒有了信號 我拿著手機瀏覽著網頁 開著QQ 但不清楚自己可以跟誰chat 昨晚和丹聊人生 可能生活也就是這樣 清閑安逸 得過且過 努力著玩完這個叫做人生的遊戲 到game over的那一刻 可能才會意識到自己哪些做了 哪些還沒有做 到時或許有更多的遺憾

看完了  孔雀东南飞   感慨万千

穿越三部曲   挺好听的

不繁忙的工作   闲得太压抑    白天过着一日三餐的生活

夜晚则是很早的入睡觉    周而复始得三点一线

没有任何的outing    最多不会是去超市买些一些吃的

不再去看新剧    而是无聊得守候着原来的那些老剧

以前是qq上线   会跑过来一堆聊天的人

现在即便是我保持24小时在线状态    也是无人问津

从电脑上删了msn    剩下唯有的qq   真想把它一起删掉

电话里的号码  自从上次不慎删了之后    

不管我如何想去索回原来里面的号码   却发现不是停机的就是空号

原来他们已未用这些号码很久   

只是自己一直坚信会有人用他们原来的号码给我短信电话

但结果只是痴人说梦而已    

在网上下载着无聊的东西   不曾打开   却总是喜欢马上将其删掉

因为这样似乎可以花掉一些时间       

喜欢上了听老歌     最近一直在回忆以往    懒得去想明天未来会如何

生命生活太过于简单    不用任何的设想    活在这个似有似无的世界里

看关别人结婚   看着别人生小孩   

听着别人对我说的话       却发现自己耳朵早已生茧

漠视着身边所有的一切    唯有用食物来填充空荡荡的生活

突然想去买个沙发    这样我的下午可以在阳光下度过   

睡眠或许也是杀死时间的一个方式

 

So so exhausted   三天前刚从一同事的婚礼狼狈而归

又要赶上将近三个小时的车程去参加金忠的wedding  

错过了周三的那晚   只有周末去补回来   谁叫他要远嫁到他乡

婚礼真是热闹  可惜我仅认识的只是这简简单单的两个

幸福的新郎官   还有就是个那个match maker  我N年未曾谋面的小学同学

真不知道怎么来个opening conversation 

除了尴尬  还有awkward和embarrassing  

不过幸好 现在有手机这种高科技  可以努力不懈得拿着手机来play my game

在场的每个人似乎都很high    不知道是真的还是假的

无所谓  这是他们的快乐   我仅有来祈祷新人幸福

好久不敢开启qq   担心而且很烦去回答这唯一一个别人的问题

生活还是要过的确  要不就开吧   管不了了

有冷空气  好冷

It is kind of weird seeing people around getting married, I have been keeping in a high virtue of being a bachelor since college. What's good about this? Lonely boys requires a little more than those people in love. Sometimes I even think of getting involved in a marriage rather than in a relationship. Love refers to any of a number of emotions and experiences related to a sense of strong affection and attachment, which was defined in the wikipedia. Love can be eternal and fascinating for someone, but not for me. Love is pretty pretty awkward and embarrassing. To be in love urges people to be courageous, but daring is not yet enough. There are still so many issues we have to get over. I remembered one of my buddies roared to the world that he could do beyond what he could. That was exactly the world he used “roar”. To roar denoted he was much more than competent to get what he wanted. And he did. He is now one of the soon-to-be-marrieds. 

Too obsessed with the work-out time, I filled it with TV shows, music and lots of sleep, only hope to idle away the time clock ticked. Done with the communications, I had no ideas what other people were up to. They seemed pretty busy messing up their lives with working so hard, of course some people lived their days with the pain in their ass. But what was life for? Simplicity would be the best answer. Do nothing meant we were doing the best, keeping happy was what life was meant to be. But we just failed to know about the essence of life, and went far beyond the expectation of living a simple life. Why was that? I needed to be easy. Really, I did.

听歌  敲打文字  如我过去的生活

一个人的时候  泡面  咖啡  网络  电影院 还有大段大段的失眠

两个人的时候  烹饪  逛街  电视  聊天  还有隐隐约约的遗憾

一个人的时候  总有些善感  常常为一段音乐  一句台词  一个微笑而伤怀

两个人的时候  总有些忙碌  常常为一颗白菜  一件衬衫  一个果篮而忙碌

一个人的时候  白天总是很短夜晚总是很长

两个人的时候  光阴总是很短琐事总是很多

一个人的时候  QQ  EMAIL  短消息  一样都不能少  手机和网络总是最爱

两个人的时候  换了号码  别了网络  篮球赛 足球赛  新闻 泡沫剧样样都看

一个人的时候  朋友总是很多  qq上的聊友  BBS的文友  电话友比比皆是

调侃  倾诉  眼泪  歌声  无所顾忌

两个人的时候  朋友总是很少  亲戚  同事  儿子  父母  爱人  兄弟姐妹  三亲六戚  怨天尤人  必须面对

一个人的时候  孤单寂寞如同潮水  在夜晚把你包围

两个人的时候  平淡麻木仿佛秋意  一天天让你腿色

一个人的时候  总有激情  

两个人的时候  少有落寞

一个人的时候  总有暧昧

两个人的时候  心如止水

一个人的时候  渴望拥抱

两个人的时候  有些窒息

一个人的时候  想要两个人

两个人的时候  想要单飞

一个人有一个人的妙   两个人有两个人的好

上帝只给了我们两只手     

一只让我们接受别人的爱   一只让我们去抚慰别人

有时竟然幻想    可否像千手观音    

一只握着自由   一只握着温暖  一只拉住过往  一只握住今天

一切都只能是梦想了   

真实的生活   是我们在得到什么的时候   也会失去另外一些什么

无法改变

无聊的国庆被他们恨恨地恶庆了一般  

在我世界里   依然是如此悄无声息地过去了  

原来所有的出行计划    都是可以在瞬间化为虚有   

清清静静地过也不为过   唯一不好的就是自己睡得太过臃肿

路上  淡淡的桂花香  瑟瑟的秋风似乎意味着某个时刻的来临

但河边的柳树不甘示弱地招展它们的绿意  

又是几丝风吹过   有点冷

决定不再看supernatural   不想再继续那种必眼见鬼的时代

还是回归原来的sitcom  

Life should be a bar of chocolate, not a hell of bloody nightmares…

买了dove   决定好好吃一顿

三十而立  反之  我却是一事无从   老了  

不清楚一个快奔三的老男人的日子还有什么盼头

无法再继续那种活一天撞一天种的和尚生活

这种生活倒也期盼   可总有些不明的原因阻止我过那种大无为的生活