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It's been three months since my last blog was posted. Time flies. This summer is almost over in Chicago, short and long. After four months internship, I decided to leave the company and give myself an extensive space and time to find a better one. I suppose I like to build a goal and to achieve it. I have learned something new and helpful for my career from the internship, but the outcome is not worth enough for what I paid for it. Anyway, maybe some reflections will help me see it clear and I might find that I learn more than I think.

There are a couples things that I wanted to do in this summer but not done yet. Driving license, travel after internship, and, I think there should be more. While I did something not in the plan, learning Argentine Tango. I love it partly because it fits me. I am a good listener and a good follower. I kinda have some passion on it from the bottom of my heart. Perhaps some part of Tango is the thing I am looking for. Hopefully I can dance w

It was a freezing morning, the first one I've ever been through in Chicago.

Some employers showed up and I talked to three or four of them. The result is that I possibly could get a volunteer job from Live for the World or American Liver Foundation, both non-profit organizations. Look forward to their contact. Also got a thanks-for-interest reply from a small company. I'm not sure whether they are interested in me or not.

Jiawen and her friends/schoolmates have begun searching for jobs/internships and they made a lot of efforts to get a job. They took a shuttle from St.Louis for a job fair in Chicago and one will go to Boston for another job fair. A couple attended one in NY. They received some interviews from notorious employers. How much they have done for the potiential jobs! It is partly because that their program is one and half year

I had three classes this week and two of them are tough and complicated. I'd better preview the textbooks prior to the class so that I could catch up the professors. They speak fast and one is attoney. And I can understand why he speaks fast. The instructor for GSB is good guy. He is a little shy and cute. However, I'm gonna drop off this class because I don't wanna take it this quarter. It'll bring me stress and pressure. It'll take me much time to do Excel. Since I've alreday had two tough courses that are cost accounting and intermediate accounting, I don't think I can handle three. So sorry to Mr.Biner. You're a good teacher. And about tonight class, I'm glad I read the textbook before the class so I didn't get lost. The professor is helpful and pratical. He always tries to make fun at class. So I'll still take two courses like last quarter. It's a good pace for me.

新的一年到来，让我不得不回首过去的2010和在美国的4个月。

1－2月，翘首期盼申请结果；着手开始论文

3－4月，定下要去的学校。找实习工作，网上投简历无果

4－7月，很开心又忙碌的在尼尔森实习着，老板同事们会请我吃饭

6月，论文很恶心的被批被打分，自认为很辛苦的写出来的。总算毕业了。

7－8月，签证，机票，打包，在家混着，离别

8月21日，经过14个小时的飞机来到遥远的美国，心中未曾特别激动

8月22日，在教堂认识了第一个朋友Nichole，也是上海人

9月4日，搬进UCC，开始三个人的生活

9月6日，见到Christina,去outlets

9月8日，开学了。GSB考试没过。orientation上90％的中国人让我无语了。

9－10月，好好学习着，参加各种job fair找实习和on-campus job。期间曾非常纠结于转专业。mid-term之后每周去次bar消遣，有了一群可以一起出去的人。满心计划着winter break的旅行。曾有2次面试机会，我以为真是我的机会来了。

11月疯狂的为final做准备，后悔mid-term之后没好好学习。Thanksgiving在Koera-American家里度过，他们家的男孩很可爱，有个MIT的GF。

12月 游走于Ve

今天已经7月25日了，还有不到一个月的时间我就会离开上海，只身前往完全陌生的环境开始新的挑战和生活。一个人完全独立和自主的生活，认识新的朋友，坚定并且形成一些自己以前没怎么思考过的问题的原则。我有些害怕，好多事之前都没有经历过，身边的人或多或少有自己的想法和应对之法，我却没有。我会害怕世俗的压力却也想打破，就做自己想做的，过自己的生活而不是被人评价的日子。长辈父母都很担心，经常会告诫我些什么，告诉我这不应该那不要做，以免伤害了自己。但是不是伤害了自己，这只有自己才知道吧。况且有得有失。

现在我是越来越了解自己，但某些方面还是属于未开发的。我现在想要去尝试新鲜的事物，尤其是我以前不会去做的。比如，我喜欢台球和table football了，愿意去bar，参与social activity，一个人出游。这是种体验新事物的快乐和刺激。人要不断的尝试挑战新东西才不会变老，跟着时代忠于自己。我佩服那些可以照着自己心愿生活的人且不在乎别人的看法，很cool。

其实我还想说的是在Pub通宵一夜的感受。当全场的人都随着音乐节奏high起来的时候，我却没有。是我太冷静了吗？没有什么Lighten me up？时间尚